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4/1/2005     Thursday     Sunny and then Cloudy and then Sunny
Chronic lack of sleep is starting to catch up with me... I was almost asleep in Dr. Finlay's class this morning. Um, I think I was actually asleep for a little while. Why did I sit in the front row again??
Don't know what's going on over this weekend, except that I'm behind on my readings already :( Might have to do some of that over the weekend.
Plus, I HAVE to finish Devil May Cry 3!! Damn Vergil, how did he got all ridiculously strong all of a sudden?

3/29/2005     Tuesday     Sunny and then Cloudy :(
Jessica lied. She doesn't have a kid. So, so much for that. She really should have borrowed a 3 yrs-old and fool me into believing it. Well, not that I didn't believe her already...
School's starting again *sigh* Totally slept in music 104 with Katie Holmes today... I'm exciting but also scared for my psych classes...

3/21/2005     Monday     Sunny
It's only Monday, the week goes by so slow now that I don't have my PS2 with me. And it really doesn't help that I get to chat on the phone again. It really is one of my least favorite things to do. But sometimes you just have to do it. I do miss Jessica though.
Hmm... interesting thing I've just found out, Jessica has a kid. And her name is Tracy. I was only joking that I have a kid, but who knows what? I thought she was kidding about that. Well, I didn't freak out. I don't think I'll re-evaluate her either... It's actually kinda exciting that I'll get to meet Tracy on Saturday, and she's 3 yrs-old.

3/12/2005     Saturday     Sunny
Sorry Journal... I've been neglecting you. But so much had happened since the last time and it's all too great.
Monday the 7th: we kissed. She was way cute when she cried because she believed in the lie that I'm only 17 yrs old.
Tuesday the 8th: we teased the hack outta each other only decided to control ourselves afterwards.
Wednesday the 9th: we finished we we've started the night before, and it was fantastic. It's only too awesome that I don't have to get up till noon on Thursdays.
Thursday the 10th: I had to work early(breakfast) Friday Morning and so we didn't spend time together. And that made us miss each other like crazy because we thought we wouldn't see each other until next Monday when she comes back to Bellingham. It was a truly upsetting evening...
Friday the 11th: She had to see me after class and I gave up the chance to fence so that we could spend more time at Boulevard Park. We were there until I started to freeze. And I already have to visit Kent sometimes next quarter.
I slept so good last night, no joking there... But I did not feel bad at all last week because sleep is sometimes overrated.

3/1/2005     Tuesday     Sunny
Looks like spring is already here, it's sunny but not cold out today. Fencing Tourney was way sweet (Spring Clean Open), ranked 20 out of 25. But I managed to score 3 touches against the winner of the tourney in the earlier stage. That guy even has a B ranking! Now I know I have to focus more on parrying after initial attacks, so next time I'll hopefully do much better. And I cannot stop thinking about fencing...

2/28/2005     Monday     Cloudy
I got my fencing equipments, YAY!! Sweet!! so much money, but it's sweet!! It's like Christmas all over again... Well, I didn't get much over christmas, or I am just greedy.

2/22/2005     Tuesday     Sunny but Chilly
Whoa... Jennifer is ditching the sodex-HO for wherever Tim, Jason, and Mark went to. Looks like I'll be Student Manager seniority supreme next year but I'm not looking forward to it. I hate losing the people I know.
Just had a long weekend, it was freaking awesome even though I didn't end up going to the mountain with Kevin and Liz. But still, spending time with Jessica outside of work was actually quite sweet.
I'm so glad that all those pink stuffs for valentines are now gone... GONE :)
Haven't had so much fun fencing for awhile and I'm so glad we're doing a tournament. Me fencing newbies just does not get me excited. But fencing Brandon though, it was good times. Colin said it was "poetry in action". And then it looked like they were doing ballet... I guess I fence "pretty".

2/9/2005     Wednesday     Sunny
HAPPY NEW YEAR of rooster.
Bought winning eleven 8 on Monday and I've been having way too much fun with it. I haven't played any games in a manner such that I forget time for a long long time. For awhile, it had been "it's only (insert time here)?! time is going too slow..." instead of "wow, it's already (insert time here), I'd better get to (insert scheduled event here)." like winning eleven is.
So freaking tired... excessive gaming... oh boy.
Chinese New Year Celebration came off pretty nicely, I was very surprised myself. In regard to MC work, I kind of hoped that the events were not so packed necessarily. But it kind of worked out because I didn't even have anything to say. *Feel good about my comedy work :D*

2/2/2005     Wednesday     Sunny
Gonna go give blood today.
Facebook is way cool, probably wasted way too much time on it instead of studying.
Looks like Robin is going out, sad. I didn't even try. But that's okay, as if I have time... I'd do the make the same choice of not doing anything even if I could choose again.

2/1/2005     Tuesday     Sunny
Hung out with Crystal pretty much all day since after class... she'd never change her habit of utilizing people, oh well.
I need sleep, very badly. Why can't I be one of those people that can function without sleep. Let's see, didn't sleep thursday night, didn't sleep Sunday night, got about 6 hours last night, probably getting less than 6 hours tonight... I think my body's protesting, by giving me some random chest pain, or did I bruise myself fencing drunk?
Missed Taniysha's party on Saturday, yea, both her and Yannick gave me some crap, but it's all good.

1/30/2005     Sunday     ?????
DDR and then Fencing, lots of work out! Thanks little Jen and Doug for getting pizza and stuff. Wonder when's she gonna have that video done?
I only had 1 Mike's before I went to fencing, but it was way too funny... I couldn't stop laughing when Kristy literally whipped me with that metal stick, not only once, but multiple times.

1/27/2005     Thursday     Sunny
Didn't do Jack%$#@ for couple of days.
Made omelets this morning.
The thing about Jason and Mark quitting are so much bull. It's only because I wish I could do that. Rather surprised, and saddened by the motherf$#@ing upper management. They will not get away with their lies.
Talked to Crystal online earlier today... why am I not shocked by her actions?
I miss making out. Had a dream about it few nights ago...

1/20/2005     Thursday     Rainy
Working 3 days straight is getting a little overwhelming... no time to do homework is getting really bad even it's only half of the week. It might have been better if I actually used Tuesday as my study day this week. But it was just so unfortunate that my dad went psychotic on Tuesday and I spent all my time and energy watching over him.
It's pathetic that he thought he had always been a good father to me because I don't think I even know him besides his stubborn personality. Purely pathetic... also sad, man with a shattered dream.
I know interacting with a person with such depression is irritating. But I know what I suffer is not nearly as bad as what he's going through, although he does have a choice afterall. I wish I have a choice, only if my morals aren't as strong.
I want to define my life as giving and receiving instead of sacrifice and suffer, respectively. Just one day, it will come.
YES!! I'm a motivational speaker now!!

1/17/2005     Monday     Rainy
What's past is past...
There's no wrong that can be undone. There's no such word as "re-trust" in my dictionary. Why? trust cannot be re-earned by any means and hence the word "re-trust" does not exist. Effort will not change anything with me (as suppose to those who love because they believe that they are loved). I refuse to be moved by some mere effort for I fear that once I give in my trust again, if ever, than I'll just go back to the days when I can be taken advantage of, freely and no questions asked.
I'm sobre and clear. And this is my final answer...

1/17/2005     Monday     Rainy
Party weekend... Yannick's place on Friday night, lots of good crazy people. Greg was all over all the girls... and Ryan. I remember sitting around being drunk, and passing out... I was passed out by 1:30 am, everyone was still there, very noisy. I woke up at 2am from a phone call and it was completely quiet because everyone else had already left. I don't like work questions outside of work, let alone 2 am, have just fallen into a coma-like sleep, and coming from Crystal. What came out of my mouth was so ridiculously rude that it was rather funny. Anyways, I didn't go home that night, just crashed at Yannick's after swearing ridiculously at Crystal.
Saturday: Went to Metrotown with Bryant, Liz, Crystal, Sammi, Junie, and Sepine. Bryant and I were bored almost to death. What surprising was Crystal wasn't angry at me at all. Junie was right, Crystal was and have been very nice to me. It wasn't like I couldn't reach the food at the Korean BBQ but Crystal kept passing me food. Saying, "I've done him wrong". It's been so long ago anyways...
Took forever to get back to B'ham that night and then we played UNO for like 4 hours... it was all fun though. Everyone was up chatting until we all crashed.
Sunday: Matt woke me up at 4:30pm... we were gonna do DDR at 5pm and I was, um, late. Felt kinda like drunk because of the massive dizziness, didn't know why, maybe a little dehydrated. Poor Matt and his new, dysfunctional, wireless DDR pads. All they did was, hold down on up arrow. Little Jen was as funny as she ever was... digging into Matt's couch and finding miscellaneous stuff out of it.
I was at Liz's again later. Apparently Crystal hadn't leave Liz's place since Saturday night... We watched a movie and we fit 5 people into that couch... Everyone was rather, sandwiched. I think my arm was not where it should have been during the whole thing...

1/12/2005     Wednesday     Slightly Warmer
Long Day... had to take care of more of my father's Sh!t. It got me a little dark today even though I perhaps I did a little too much flirting and giving people crap. I feel good about myself and all. I think I'm fairly well liked and I'm not doing anything tedious at this moment in time, as far I know. But why are things so damn unfair? I do good things, I try to be nice to people. And here I am, working 20 hours weeks so I that I can afford a place for my father to live in while I can barely support myself for school. I think I'm done bitching... let's try to make me feel happy tomorrow.

1/11/2005     Tuesday     Dark Snow and Frozen Sky
Here the post for the actual Tuesday, since the last one was done on, more like Monday night. I slept in today, yes, on a Tuesday :D I woke up at around 2 and I was a little freaked out that I wasn't awake by my alarm until I realized I didn't have classes.
Getting back to fencing, a little lousy/sloppy today, my arm wasn't very willing to hold the foil. But we got the new shiny equipment, they are SHINY!! I should buy some new equipment for myself.
Sammy keeps saying "life sucks" everywhere, but she never directly say it to me. Well, at least I don't remember. Maybe I just don't know her well, or she's not as pessimistic as she seems to be. I think I'll find out.

1/11/2005     Tuesday     Dark Snow and Frozen Sky
I don't like douche bags. There are more meaning to life than douche. I am gonna devote my life to NOT be one of them. And there's so many of them around. Yannick's not one of them, by the way.
I don't like these girls who just "fall in love" because they like being loved. That doesn't make any sense at all. Those girls won't ever have long distance relationships, it just wouldn't work out. Not that long distance are fun to begin with, but that they'll definitely hurt somebody bad. Being loved is good, but one can exist without it.

1/10/2005     Monday     Snow Everywhere, Still
It's cold outside, very very cold. Even my apartment is cold now, it wasn't cold before winter break.
And... I feel intimacy, coming toward me. I feel some respond coming from inside me too. Is this really real? I think it's always safer not to take a guess. But... wouldn't that put me in the Fearful-Avoidant attachment style category? I am not the best person there is, but I'm not that bad either, I hope.

1/5/2005     Wednesday     Sunny/Frrreeezzyyy
Ooooohh, first entry of 2005. Yay. I miss my gloves, don't know where they went, but my hands sure are frozen. Need to go buy some new gloves soon. Couple presents I bought for people are still sitting at my desk... I think that's pretty lame. I got a hood from Candace couple weeks ago, and I still haven't called her!! I suck. I have even used the hood already. It's perfect for snowboarding and don't-wanna-do-hair days.

12/29/2004     Wednesday     Who Cares?
I'm turning into a DDR nerd!! Noo!!! Did a few songs on heavy and actually survived. oh my god, I'm at 7 feet now.

12/21/2004     Tuesday     Chilly n' Cloudy
Brushing up my culinary arts lately: breakfast=Satay Lo Mein, and then lunch was... Curry Egg Fried Rice. It was nice. Too bad no one else got some that yummy stuff :P
...Good load of my friends are in Hong Kong anyways... I bet they got some GOOD food.
There's a fortune cookie that doesn't work with the "in-bed" ending!! How unbelievable. It reads ,"Opportunity is just around the corner". Adding "in bed" after the sentence doesn't make sense at all!! Well... but um... what about "opportunity in bed is just around the corner"? Now that sounds better.

12/15/2004     Wednesday     Chilly n' Cloudy
I live on a vampire's schedule to avoid him. I have a home, an apartment that I pay for (speaking of which, I'd better pay electric bill...) But I don't like my home. I want my home to be welcoming, to be some place warm. But it's full of hatred and despair. Nothing but distrust and suspicion. I really wouldn't care if it's quiet and maybe even slightly lonely, but that'd be a start. And it'd be already warm and welcoming. With only what I desire in it.

12/9/2004     Thursday     Stormy Weather
I don't care, and I don't want to do anything about anyone else's life. I just want my life to go my way. Egoistic it may seem, but so be it.

12/6/2004     Monday     Cold and Cloudy
Stayed up all night last night and barely studied, probably bombed my psych 230 final... I'm not gonna repeat the class again though, any more than 1 would just be plain stupid. Um, actually had this feeling of jealousy in the past few days. It's vaguely familiar. But I've lost the intense hate for this emotion. All in all, it's kinda interesting to feel it again.

11/30/2004     Tuesday     Gusty Sunny
Yay, I win. I got Abnormal Psychology psy 351, YAY. Some morons dropped the class, yay!! And I got that moron's spot! Yay, fencing club is awesome! It's going somewhere, as soon as we get equipments...

11/28/2004     Sunday     The Sun is Out!!
Thanksgiving break review: Got haircut on Wednesday and hung out with a couple of peeps. My head felt so light and free that I had to swing it like crazy, so crazy that my neck hurt a few hours later. I got to see my siblings on Thursday!! Yay. Was there until Saturday. Bought a bunch of stuff. Bought some snowboard, and binding, and boots on Saturday after coming back from Canada. They are pricey... People were all shocked today. They almost didn't recognize me. hehe. I'm not looking forward to going back to school.

11/22/2004     Monday     Raining...
Just watched "Supersize Me"... It's funny, but yet scary. All those filth in business and capitalism. I can't believe that I work for Sodexho, this is crazy. I don't know how am I gonna eat now, I'm pretty sure I still will eat that food. But, this is nutz!

11/16/2004     Tuesday     Gusty Sunny
Almost half way through the week. Exams, paper, and exams... scary stuffs!! Haircut=forever postponed?! I don't think I'm just gonna eat that because someone can't go. The plans were made weeks ago. I hope Sammy isn't pissed off while she got all defensive. Not that I'm not willing to make plan, but making plans should not be about "this person is busy, so we'll sit around and do nothing and then complain about how our 'friends' don't a %$ck and that life sucks". What's exciting...? hmm, Smash Bro duel with Doug and the crew should be fun times. I hope I haven't gotten so strong that I'm crazily invincible.

11/13/2004     Saturday    Cloudy
Jen had some really lovey dovey things to say in the log. Even I was affected, it's been a long while since I've last felt anything like that. Let's do some quotes "Oooh! I love you all, have a great night tonight, KingYau. Love, Pass it on" Anyways. But it wasn't all that lovey dovey after I found some dried up puke in the South Commons from who-knows when. And I just happened to be the one who found it and so somehow it was my responsibility to clean it up, "B-S" I'd say.
Had some great time playing Halo2 with Justin even though I still don't like the game much. Justin still thinks that I must be mad. Maybe I should go hang out with him more often. Now the question is: where the hell do I find time to do that?

11/12/2004     Friday    Bright N' Sunny
I had fun cuddling last night. 007: Diamonds are Forever. I guess it doesn't hurt to hang out with some confused dorks. That's so mean...

11/10/2004     Wednesday     I don't remember
Laura thinks that I must be very kinky "that [I] just need to find the right girl, or guy..." I didn't know what to answer her.

11/1/2004     Monday     Dogs N' Cats
Work sucks on Monday. Gotta put up with so many crazy people... I just hate it. I miss Saturday because it feels like I own the place and it's an awesome feeling. Stupid "I-know-better-than-you-do" bitches and bastards. Done bitching, bye.