Swing dancing. Improvisation. Satisfaction. Disappointment. Commitment. I haven't had an opportunity to write once again. My weekend was busy, yet very satisfying. I was hanging out with Mer for most of the weekend, but I also got a lot of time to spend with Liz. It was really cool. Friday was one of the harder workouts I've had in a long time, but it was also an introverts dream. Saturday was a best friend's dream, and Sunday was just awesome.

I haven't had a chance to sit down and just write like this in awhile. Today is Monday. Liz just left. But I'll talk about that tomorrow, when the awesome time I had just now has had a chance to sink in. Today was almost as eventful as the last few days. Boys throwing rocks at my Dad's car. My Dad and I find evidence. The boys get caught. Liz comes over. We kiss a bunch. I lose my status of being "single." Good times.

So, Friday night. (Thinks back). I arrived at school tired, and unprepared. I was lacking paper, lacking my favorite pen, and it looked like the day was starting bad. To make things interesting, God threw at me the fact that I was supposed to address the entire student body in an assembly which I'd totally forgotten about. You're probably thinking: Bob - addressing people - oh shit!. I thought the exact same thing, but then I was inspired by some hand of God to write an excellent speech. I ended up getting the most applause, and the most support after I'd finished. It was really cool, especially walking out of the gymnasium with people patting me on the back, saying "I'm gonna vote for you Bob!". Even further, when I walked into the quad, I had big muscular jocks telling me they were going to vote for me too. Good stuff I say. Good stuff.

So, the awesome day of Friday went on. I got home, cleaned the church, and then got ready for swing dancing. I had talked to Merlin, and we'd planned on meeting at dancing, and then after we'd finished having a great time, we'd come back to my house. We danced quite a bit - I danced with Liz, Merlin with Amanda, but we all had fun, and that's what was really cool. I think I'd neglected to mention it before, but Liz had come over on Tuesday for a little while - she'd gotten a make-over. She had beautiful straight hair, and she was wearing a dress. She looked totally sexy. My mom took a picture of us together, so I hope it's developed soon so I can stick it on my wall. Anyway, back to Friday. Merlin and Dan came back to my house, and we played some great matches of Super Smash Bros. I slaughtered them both at Perfect Dark without contest though, so that isn't quite as worthy of mentioning.

Saturday was pretty cool too. Merlin and I woke up around 12:00, had breakfast, then my mom took me (us) shopping for summer clothing. I ended up buying a few new tops and a pair of shorts, which is good enough to last me at least until summer. Hopefully I can get a few more pairs of clothing by early to mid-summer, but either way I suppose.

I'm sitting here writing, and I feel overwhelmed because I haven't had a chance to write in nearly five days, and SO much has happened. It's almost impossible to explain my absolute felicity - my extreme euphoria - my desire to just jump around and clap my hands or something like that. Yet, at the same time I feel as though since I haven't been journaling I've been missing a part of myself; the part of me that isn't expressed every day in my typical socializing, the part of me that stays locked away and unexpressed. Journaling helps me to solve my problems and by doing so it also helps other people solve theirs, which makes it a commitment to both myself and others that I must sustain.

I've been thrusting a little less effort than I've been wanting to into classes lately. I've been very exhausted for reasons I really don't understand. Perhaps it's just a phase, and it'll pass soon. I hope so.

When Merlin and I got home on Saturday, I changed into some old clothes and we went up to the school to play basketball. It was once again one of the best games of my life, and we had a good time scoring ridiculous points on each other. The best part though, is that neither of us keep score while playing, we just play.

After our games of topless basketball, Merlin and I washed up and Liz came over. When Liz arrived we were in the middle of a game of Scrabble, which my dog eventually stepped on towards the end. We had dinner, but Liz didn't eat (she still hasn't eaten dinner with me, as of 5/6), she sat at the table and talked though. Both of my parents really like her, and think she's sweet and mature and all these wonderful things. After dinner, I picked up the stereo and we walked over to the church to dance together. Merlin didn't do any dancing actually, I was surprised, he just sat around and let Liz and I dance and he learned new moves from watching us. It was nice to spend the time dancing and being with Liz, and I'm still convinced that I have feelings for her, even though I may be hesitant or confused about them in some respects.

Saturday night (from 11:00 on) was spent at Merlin's house. We decided I was going to go watch Merlin participate in his fencing tournament on Sunday. Merlin asked Caren his mom if Liz could spend the night too, but she declined. I would probably have said the same thing: dealing with two kids on an overnight can be annoying, I'm sure. So anyway, Merlin and I woke up, ate breakfast, then drove over to Day Under the Oaks (at the Junior College), where I watched Merlin demonstrate his amazing skill at fencing. He took 2nd place, after competing for only one semester, in the Beginner's Fencing Tournament. I was very impressed. I managed to finish my two Julius Caesar essays between his matches, and lucky me, Liz showed up just after 12:00. We ended up going and finding something to eat, then going and playing basketball, because we had until 4:00 and the fencing ended around 1:00. Liz started feeling really sick right before we left, which scared me a little, but at the same time I know she's' a strong person . . . it kind of bothered me that she wanted to be alone so badly, mainly because I was worried about her, and I was rather reluctant to leave; but Merlin and I eventually decided to give her some space because Amanda got back from giving Ty a ride home, (a person we'd been playing basketball with), and Liz agreed that Amanda could stay and look after her if Merlin and I took a hike for awhile. She said she didn't want me to see her, "Like this." I think I understood.

Monday . . . a day of campaigning. A day of fun. The day before the day before a math test. Now it's Tuesday though, and it is the day before the math test, so I'm a little bit more stressed out than usual. Last night however, Cinco de Mayo, was one of the more interesting nights of my life. When I'd gotten home from Track I was exhausted. But when my Dad got home, he was totally pissed off because some kids had thrown something at his car on the way driving home. He actually tired to chase him, and he opened up to me and told me, "Bob, I'm a 54 year old man, I can't keep up with those kids anymore." I told him I'd go out to help him, so I put on my "getting ready to kick ass" gear and headed for the area. We found evidence - what had hit the car, and plenty more bags filled with the same materials stashed near the side of the road. The boys never turned up, but a mother hinted that it could have been her boy, and we had the sheriff pursue it. The boys gave my Dad an apology, and we dropped the charges. The sheriff threatened to put the boys in jail, which gave them a shock (which was exactly what it was for), and they were very willing to apologize.

Liz came over right after my Dad and I had gotten home from this experience with the boys. She looked great. We talked, danced, and kissed in my room. On my bed, in my chair . . . Eventually I asked her if she would consider me as her boyfriend. She told me yes. So I suppose that means I've got an 18 year old certainly sexy girlfriend, and we both like each other. This is totally awesome.

Today is Tuesday. I am tired from hours of mental and physical work. I actually didn't even run at Track practice today. Instead I spent my time reading and tutoring. Supposedly tomorrow I am running the 1600m and the 3200m. I am not too happy about the 3200m, but I figure if I pace off of Jake, who runs a 12:30 or so two mile, that I should be fine. I'll run the first mile at his speed, and the second mile at mine. I have been campaigning for the elections, which will be tomorrow and Thursday, for the last few days. The election and my additional class work have kept me busy. I haven't even had a chance to play against Merlin in a game of Starcraft. The last game we had he actually whomped me, mainly because I was talking on the phone with Liz, but I don't want to use that excuse because Merlin is actually an extremely talented gamer. I'm going to call him after this journal entry and ask for a rematch :).

As a matter of fact, I think this entry has come to a conclusion. The things in my life are going so smoothly right now that there really isn't a necessity to write as often. As much as I would like to have the time to sit down and do such things, I just don't. An example: I counted my money and I have $460 from working recently. I'll deposit it tomorrow.

My Dad and I spent an hour practicing driving today. Well, I practiced at least. I did the things that I need to do on my driving test which I will take as soon as I possibly can. Sadly, it doesn't seem that my dream of getting my license on my birthday is going to come true, because my parents didn't allow me to book my appointment in time. I won't thrust the blame entirely on them though, I suppose it has a bit to do with me, however, I was asking repeatedly for months to please prepare me in advance and to please schedule my appointment, but things got hectic with the death and deterioration of the grandmothers, so it just never happened.

I've written enough for now, take care my friends. Liz and Merlin need phone calls.

Take care my friends. And Vote Bob for ASB Vice President.

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