He became her best friend, her Swordmaster. He taught her the fighting arts. She was enthralled and adoring. She leared Honour from him, and decided her calling was as a Swordmaster herself. He was who she most trusted in the world, and who she woke up to see, and went to bed at night thinking about. She admired him, was in awe of him. He was infallible in her pre-adolescent mind. He made her happy. One day when Jane's idolized elder sister, Clarity, ran off with a man Jane hated with all her soul without even a word of good-bye, Jane's heart was shattered. Her sister had been very important to her, and now she was gone forever, without a trace, without telling her. Jane felt betrayed and numb and unloved. Her champion comforted her, but his emotions had grown far past fondness for the small girl of twelve. He wanted to protect her forever, and so asked her to be his wife. Jane, confused in her vulnerable state, mistook admiration, trust, and strong friendship for love, and agreed. The wedding day came, family and friends all gathered to share the ceremony, and as the couple stood at the altar to voice their vows, a massacre ensued before they could begin. As Jane stood, uselessly frozen, her betrothed, her young cousin, her mother's unborn child, and countless friends and family were slaughtered. Her father took a crippling blow, protecting his paralyzed child, and her mother later died from the miscarriage. Jane blamed herself for doing nothing, despite all she'd been taught. Hating herself, she left Meadowood in shame, exiling herself for dishonour. Somewhere between self-pity and disgust, she decided to rebuild herself to be what she ought to be. Through some remarkable act of mind and will, she duplicated traits of her deceased betrothed within herself, adopting his mannerisms and way of speech, and confidence. She took her elder sister's name and added it to her own, renaming herself Clarity-Jane, also borrowing her sister's ways of handling the opposite sex. She discarded any last name, feeling she deserved none she'd had before. During her travels she paid an Enchanter with all ornament she carried to make her hair black as night, as her sister's had been. Once this was done, and Jane was satisfied with her transformation, she took up her new identity and began to travel. |