I felt my time was getting closer to were I would never have children..Kathy Miller the barren one..well I still was not that old but I sure did want a family..but how many thousands said the same thing..and cried in the night or alone with thoughts of holding a child..I knew that thirty five was not old far as having children but this year I would be thirty six..and the next thirty seven and so on..
I had been married to Wayne for for going on eighteen years..at first we did not think anything about having children..we both held down good jobs and we wanted to have a home first and financial freedom before the babies came..but after years and years of wanting children and never having them I just knew I never would..we had spent a fortune going to so many doctors..and neither Wayne or I had anything physically wrong ..so it had to be just the strain of wanting children..
maybe we should get away for awhile..change our out look on life somewhat..or just forget the whole thing..at any rate I had one more visit with a doctor who I was told did work wonders..well I would give it only one more try..I had heard all this before in the past.. if this did not work I would never worry about it again..
After leaving the doctors office I felt more relieved and uplifted so much I just had to go call Wayne..when at home I finally decided to wait and tell him in person the events of the day and the new doctor.. Dr.Rachel Woods..a female OB-GYN ..I had never been to a female doctor but she was so kind and understanding..and informed me at the ripe old age of fourty she had given birth to twins..
Now in her early fifty's she was happy with the thoughts of her children growing and doing so well..and older mom yes ..but never less a wonderful mom and would not trade places with anyone..
Well this sure did make me feel better..at least I did not feel I was over the hump yet far as having a child..just one would be nice..and twins would be great like the Doctor said..always easier to have two they grow up together..
Within a few weeks I was back at the office..there I was told I was pregnant..oh I could not believe the good news and ran by Wayne's office to tell him my new found secret..I was not going to tell a soul until I knew for sure things would be alright..I did not want to get my hope's up and some misfortune happen..
In the impending months that rolled along I was big as a house..and found with the ultra sound I was going to have a little herd of babies..not twins as I had hoped for but ten babies..how could any one person have ten children at one time..and what if the worst thought could happen..I had only known of eight births and they lived..but still could this actually happen to me..
In the sixth month I was so large and heavy that I had to stop working and stay at home..and the scares of a miscarriage were ever present..still I was determined to do whatever it took to bring all these little lives in this world and hold and care for each one..I did not say a lot to people and sure did not want to have all the publicity that one could get from this braking news..so I stayed in the background and let life pass by for the time being with Wayne ever present when I needed him..
We had bought things for the babies..and the spare room that we did not use for the moment was absolutely full of this and that for babies..from toys to strollers..and Wayne had one stroller where five at one time could be strolled down the street..it was a remarkable invention a friend had built with Wayne's directions..although I could never imagine actually using it but would never hurt his or his friends feelings I was so delighted with this new found importance to me and told them so..we had all things imaginable given to us by family members and friends and from some we never even meet..my family were forever calling to check on me or just drop by since they were in the area which I knew was not always the case.. I loved them for the thought..
I was now in my seventh month of the second week..and the pressure was tremendous..and I knew I sure could not keep this up long..and finally with my doctors advice went into the hospital for the remainder of my pregancy..a couple of the babies were in stress..and something had to be done now..so the next day exactly on the fourth of July my little babies were born..
you could not imagine all the nurses..the doctors on stand by and my faithful loving and caring doctor Rachel..we had become so close..and she knew the fears I had..well they were founded..since some of the babies were so little not hardly a pound..but she said have faith..
There were five boys and five girls..and not a single set of identical twins..this would have been awful had all ten looked the same..there was little ways we knew who was who..and seeing them after their birth..it was such a feeling I will never have before..their tiny little hands..and the little feet..with their heads the larger of their bodies..but they were all beautiful..and I longed to hold and hug them..the hard part for both Wayne and I was to try and figure out ten names for these precious children
That would come another time..right now the prayers I prayed to ask God to keep them strong and healthy..that was most important to me.. of course I was on the news..and the reporters and everyone else who could get a glimpse of the babies..or me were forever trying to shove their way into the room..we finally had to have a guard from the hospital not to let anyone in unless they had a pass..it was awful..people sure did not care for your feeling I sure did find out..in a hurry..and the tv news was always saying and talking about the woman who had a litter..I did not care..only thing important were the babies..
Within a week I was home..alone but knew the babies would be fine..and I was back and forth to the hospital each day for my visit..I now could pick up the larger one's for a few minutes..and this seemed to help me make through the thoughts of wanting to hold them all..Wayne was still on cloud nine..and it would be a long time before his feet ever touched earth again..he just bragged and bragged..and in the process of knowing my babies would have to stay in the hospital for a long time..Wayne was having a nursery built onto the house..it would be so nice..and enough room for ten little children to play and be a family..we sure could not build ten bedrooms for all the accommodations..and so therefore it was built..decorated in the usual baby colors..and one day who knows what this room would become..but for the time being it was the bedroom of love..
Now as I turn into the twilight years of my life I look back and wonder how I could have been so blessed..the children grew and became good citizens of their community..and all have had good lives..but then that is the way they were raised to have love in their hearts and abide by rules we all go by..Family members were always there to help from cousins to aunts and uncles..and my poor mom was the world worst to be there with me the first few years..she was so much a part of there lives..
Wayne has been retired for some years..but he still is forever seeing the children..and fishing with the older boys..I will soon be eighty ..still healthy for my age I try to stay active..and do something each day..if it were not for my babies I have often thought I would have never lived this long..or been in the good health I am now..but I never did have time to think of getting sick..so with my grandchildren..and now a few great grandchildren..I am getting ready for a wonderful fourth of July birthday for my grown children..what a legacy to leave in this world..so if anyone thinks they may never have children..just ask me..I know the secret..
By Kyusha��2000
