"Nadia, calm down!Please, I'm- I'm sorry for coming in there!", Jay quickly apologized from the other side of the door.

I'm leaning against the door while my heart is pounding so fast, I can feel it touch the wall of my chest."Jay", I whisper.

"I'm sorry!", he continues.I can feel him leaning on the door from the other side.He bangs on it a bit."I'm sorry, I didn't mean to find you in your towel".

I suck in my breath and clear my throat."Can you leave me alone, I need to finish my shower?", I ask him.The warm water is still running and I'm not in the shower.I knock my head against the door, softly."Please?".

I can hear him cursing."Sure, I'll go down to the loby to find Kyle", he tells me.I can hear his footsteps walk away.I sigh of relief.

I walk back into the shower and drop the towel on the floor.I open the shampoo bottle and lather my hair as I remember out trip here on the airplain.Memories...

-*-FlashBack-*-

"Jay", I giggled.His face was in my hair and he was growling whispers in my ear.He backed up, a bit."People are staring", I told him.

He smiled at me."I don't care what others think.I only want you and me to be the only one's here....".

He continued to kiss my neck but I grab his face in my hands."Well, we aren't the only one's here", I smiled.He blows me a kiss and shrugs.

"Sure", he whispers.He pulled out a magazine and ruffled through pages before finding the one he wanted and showed me."Here".

I look blankly at the picture of a new married couple."Yeah, so?", I ask him as I dunk my nose back into my Soap Opera Update magazine again.There's a really good article about me-Chloe and Philip at Austin and Greta's wedding- 'young love too racy?' I laughed as I read.

He takes the magazine away."Hey-", I holler."Ssh", he tells me.I shruged and smiled."Fine", I give in and look at his picture.

"Don't you think you'd look beautiful in that dress?", he asked me.I look at him, we met a gaze as I pulled him into a quick kiss.He grins as I pulled away.

"I'm only 20, Jay", I reminded him.

"I know, but just picture us...5 or 10 years from now...married...", he went on.

-*-End-*-

"I guess we aren't going to get last that long", I whisper to myself as I get out of the shower and wrap the towel around my body.I peek through the door, to see if Jay is anywhere around.He's gone, I think.

I get out on my tip toe's and walk to the closet.Karri must have something of her's somewhere in here, I think.I see a pair of khaki capris and a glittery red top in the corner of the closet.She wont mind, I smile.Next I go to the drawers to find some underwear.Hmm...

..nice, I think as I pull out a Playboy magazine in the back of one of the drawers.This must be Kyle's, I laugh.I ruffle through other drawers and find a bra and panties.This is so awkward, I think.

"The door's locked", I tell myself.So, I begin to get dressed right there, and now.It takes me a while to pull up my panties since my body is still wet- I don't have the nerve to dry myself here.And the bathroom is foggy- so I'm being darring.I hook on my bra and begin to pull up the capris.

"Nadia, I'm so-".I quickly throw on the towel on my chest and turn around to find Jay standing stiff.

"What are the odd's?", he laughs.He covers- partly- his eyes with his hands.

"What, are you doing here?!", I expload.I'm not usually like this but this is the second time something like this has happened.

"I was just walking around and I found them and I came back her to check if you were done and I figured-", he pauses.He can tell my eye's are watery."I'm sorry.I'll leave- but Kyle and Karri are stuck in the elevador and-and", he stops.

In my shaky voice, "Please, don't come back.I'll be done in a bit", I whisper.He nods and leaves the room.I can hear him lock the door.Oh gosh, I think.

I quickly get dressed and fix my make up with whatever I can find of Karri's.

*****

"Are you guys ok?", Jay asks Karri and Kyle as they are being pulled out of the elevador- all smiles.

Smiling."I feel so good.On cloud 9", Karri beams.Jay helps pull Karri out and stands her next to him.Kyle gets out and runs for Karri.Jay watches on as Karri pulls Kyle into a short kiss.He can't help but smile.He, also, can't help but remember his encounter with Nadia.

Kyle pulls away."So where's Nadia?", he asks while holding Karri close.She smiles at Jay as he begins to tell them what happened.

"I think she'll be ok", Karri tells Jay with a hug."She's never been very intimate in a relationship before- it might have scared her".

"Yeah, buddy.She's a hard egg to crack", Kyle jokes.Jay glares at him and Kyle apologizes by backing off.

"You just- must have- scared her, that's all", Karri assures him.

"That's what I'm afraid of", Jay whispers under his breath."For good".

I begin to run through the hallway when I see Karry, Kyle, and Jay.I sigh as I approach them.Jay waves to me but quickly drops his head.

I smile at Karri."You ok, girl?", I hug her and Kyle.She nods.

"We are, but...", she begins.

"What about you two?", Kyle finishes her question.

I look at Jay."We need to talk", I tell him and pull him into the hotel room.

"Jay, I just want to explain why I exploaded on you...", I begin to apologize.He sits on the bed and sighs.

"I didn't mean to come in, you know", he tells me.

I smile."I know.But I just can't be so intimate with anyone.Not yet, anyway", I let him know.

Silence.

"Nadia, if I can't love you...", he begins.

"You can, though", I whisper.

"I want to be able to show the world!That I love you.But if I can't do that-", he pauses.

He stands up."I don't want to", he tells me."I don't want to love you", he repeats.

"What?", I ask him breathless.He clenches my hands."What are you talking about?".

"I don't want to be rejected any more, Nadia.I can't deal with it- I'm sorry...I just NEED to be able to be loving around you", he tells me.

"So, because you can't see me naked we're ov-", I begin to get histerical.He hugs me, tight and shakes his head.

"It's not that at all.Little things, pille up", he tells me very shaky.I look at his eyes, he's begining to cry.Why are you doing this?I ask myself.

He kisses my cheek."If it's gonna be like this- me having to watch the way I am around you all the time- I can't be with you".

"It's over?", I ask him.I can feel the flood of tears on the verge of leaking down on my face.And my lips are shivering.

"Nadia, Jay, are you guys ok?", we hear Kyle asking as he knocks on the door.Jay glances at the door.

"Yeah!", he tells him."Yeah, it's over", he whispers as he leaves the room.I'm left standing.Alone. ---------------

It's over?Over..., I shiver.It can't be over, I tell myself.I shake my head as I crumble to the bed and lay flat on my face."It can't be over", I whisper."It barely began".

Jay scratches his eye's as he makes his way to Kyle and Karri.He laughs, "Hey you two, I don't need any public affection- especially from you two", he plasters on a flat smile.

Karri smiles as she pulls away from Kyle and bite's her lower lip."I can hardly contain myself", she jokes.Kyle wrinkles his nose as he laughs.

"Ok", Jay sighs.He crosses his arms,"So, are you two really ok?", he asks.

Kyle softly punches him."How many times do you have to ask", he laughs.Jay nodds and smiles.

"So, what's with Nadia?", Karri asks.

"Why do you ask that?", Jay quickly asks.

"Well...she's not here and you two are like joined at the hip", Kyle chuckles.

Jay laughs."Yeah...".

"Why don't we go out to dinner tonight?", Karri asks them.Kyle nods."Good.And Jay..can you and your girlfriend join us?", Karri laughs.

Jay shakes his head."No.She's not- she's not my girlfriend...any more", he stuttres.

Karri covers her mouth with her hand."What do you mean?", he asks worried.

"Are you out of your mind!?", Kyle yells.

"Ssh", Karri quiet's him."Did she break it up?".

Jay sighs."No...I broke it off", he whispers.

Kyle makes a fist and punches his hand."How.Could you do this!Dammit!", he yells as he begins to run off.

"Where are you going, Kyle?", Karri calls after him and he stops.

He turns around slowly."To see if I can help Nadia in any way", he tells her.

Karri grabs his arm."I should to it.I'm her best friend".

Kyle snatches his arm."No.I'll do it".And with that he's off.

Karri sighs and turns to Jay."Why is he acting so wierd?".

"I don't even want to talk right now", he says.He slouches down on the floor."I am such an imbusile- but I can't take it back".

Karri kneels."Why- how could you brake up with her?I thought you two were meant for each other...".

Jay thinks about what she had just said."I can't ignore my feelings or change them.Dammit!What is Kyle going to say to her?".

Karri laughs."Try to cheer her up, I guess.They were close you know".

"Yeah, I know...so close she almost accepted his proposal", he says.

"Proposal?", Karri asks.She is taken aback.They must have been seriouse, she thinks.

"Yeah, that's why they broke up.Because Kyle asked Nadia to marry him- I guess she wasn't ready", he sighs.

"You don't think Kyle is STILL looking for anything to happen between him and Nadia, do you?", Karri asks Jay.

"You two are dating now aren't you?", he asks.

"Not exactly", she sighs."We just kissed...".

"He better not want anything from her", Jay threatens.

"Jay!You just broke up with her!", Karri tells him.

He's silent."Yeah but it was because she wouldn't let me see her-", he paused.Suddenly knowing why he actually broke things off with her.

"She wouldn't let me love her love her", he said.

"Is that the sick kinda way?", she asks.

"No, I mean, caress her...I wanted to", he whispers.

Karri shakes her head."Well, now you wont be able to do that.Ever", she whispers."Let's go find Kyle and Nadia", she says as she begins to go to the hotel room.

I hear a knocking on the door."Nadia!It's me, Kyle.Open up", I hear from the other side of the door.My face is still flat on the bed, covered with dry tears.The knocking turns into banging.

"Leave me alone", I whisper."Leave me alone!", I repeat in a yell.

"No".I can hear a key opening the lock and the door swinging open.He drops the keys on the floor.

"Jesus Christ, are you tryieng to kill yourself?!", Kyle asks as he runs to me and pulls me up.He smiles at me.My make up must be all over my face because of his expression.

He helps me sit up."You been cryieng?", he jokes.I smile.

"Ajah!A smile", he laughs."I know what happened", he whispers.

He's still proping me to sit up."I feel like crap".He swings my arm around his waist, we stand up, and waddle over to the mirror.

"Look", he tells me.I do and see my mascara all over my cheek and my gloss on my forehead.I smile."I look like crap".

"Yeah, and you sound like crap", he laughs.He helps me sit on the stool by the dresser."I'm just here to ask if you would like to go out to dinner tonight?".

I shake my head."No, I can't do that", I whisper as I continue to shake my head.

"Me and Karri are going...", he gives me a genuin smile.

"And Jay.Even if he wasn't- I don't want to go.And I wont.period", I tell him.

"I think it's gonna be fun".He lay's his hands on mine.He's always been like this, I assure myself.

"All I want to do is memorize my lines, eat, drink, film, and go home", I let him know.I shrug and go inside the bathroom.

"Nadia", he whines as I lock the door.

"Leave me alone, Kyle!", I tell him."Go back to your girlfriend", I say under my breath.

"Nadia, I'm not leaving", he says.

"Why not?", I ask him as I prop myself a seat on the toilet seat cover and sigh.I grab a piece of tissue and begin to wip my eyes.

"Because, I care about you too much", he whispers.

"Kyle?", I hear from the other side.It's Jay I sigh.

Kyle sees Karri and Jay in the room."I'm tryieng to make her feel better", Kyle whispers away from the bathroom door.

"Why do you care so much?", Karri asks him annoyed.She crosses her arms."And why are you trying to get away from me?".Her voice is shaky.

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