• All selections written by Dalby/Arnold/Horne/Singer/Nicholls
• Expect My Marriage To Steve Donald Gotteni written by Dalby/Arnold
• And One Love written by Arnold/Dalby/Horne
• And Tinted Wilderness written by Dalby/Horne/Arnold


• All Lyrics written and arranged by Ashley Dalby

I Love You

I have tears fall from my bloody eyes
When I see you walking down my road
We meet at the lights I stare for awhile
You make the sorrow inside me disappear

I want you and me on this island of hope
But the distance between stretches for miles
You put your arms around me and carry me to shore
And give me the calm I seek

Oh and every time I am close to you . . . You cure all my pain
But you have to let me walk away

And I hate that I cant tell you . . . I love you
My night's are so long and cold here . . . without you
I suffer from this restriction . . .
For I cannot find the strength to tell you I love you so

Oh and every time I kiss you . . . You cure all my pain
But you just walk away

And I hate that I cant tell you . . . I love you
My night's are so long and cold here . . . without you
I suffer from this restriction . . .
For I cannot find the strength to tell you I love you so

Witness To Despair

I am a victim so take me out
Out of this darkness out of this doubt
You weigh me down with your cruel accusations
You make bullshit out of everything

Will we burn in Heaven like we do down here?
Will the change come while we're waiting?
Everyone is waiting

Then when your done psyche mutilating
And I carry the pain and die without cause
This misery is made beautiful right before my eyes
Mercy will be revealed or blind me where I stand

Will we fight in relocation like we do down here?
Will the change come while we're waiting?
Everyone is waiting

Solo: (Billy)

Will you beat me in Heaven like you do down here?
Will the change come when we're waiting?
Everyone has caught on

Anniversary

What has this marriage come to, what have I done?
Bitter suffocation all around
It's the anniversary

Feel the fear, and sad defeat
Keeps my fragile haunted peace
On the anniversary

Through these dark and revolting streets
I drag my ragged corpse
It's the anniversary
The anniversary
It's our anniversary

Solo: (Billy)

How far is your disgust, away from this
Indisposed fiery kiss
On our anniversary
Our anniversary
Our anniversary

Ooh I don't want to feel your kiss no more
I don't want to feel your kiss no more
I don't want to feel your kiss no more
Oh, oh, oh, oh I don't want to feel your kiss no more
Oh, oh oh!!!

Liar's Dance

Fires fall, winds blow
There's trouble and it won't go
I'd really like to help you but you know

Truth twists, liars dance
Mm, money money Greed chant
Let's take a little more before we go
'Cos we won't be back again
No we won't be back again

Trees cry, men bow
Kneel before the fatted cow
Take a little 'Moo' before we go
We won't be back again
No we won't be back again
Oh we won't be back again, again, again, again
Oh, talkin' about, talkin' about, talkin' about

Tell me Jesus what to do
Oh, there's a little time for me and none
for you Just Leave for the lady there who's sure...
She won't be back again
I know she won't be back again
I'm sure she won't be back again
Oh she won't be back gain

Watching Me

Oh, the sleep by and dry
Oh, mm the guilty are torn
Come over mountains, come over sea

Mm does my darkness prevail?
Oh, does your memory fail?

Oh love on the wing, carry my prayer
Cherish this mnoment in time of despair
Over the mountains, over the sea
Angel of love, come back home to me

Mm are your kisses so warm
Can you, can you carry the storm
Oh lord, just one swing and I am gone

Oh love on the wing, carry my prayer
Cherish this mnoment in time of despair
Over the mountains, over the sea
Angel of love, please come back home to me
Oh come back home
Come back home
Come back home
Come back home

Mm, I'm so guilty, so guilty, I'm so guilty

Oh love on the wing, carry my prayer
Cherish this mnoment in time of despair
Over the mountains, over the sea
Angel of love, please come back home to me
Please come back home to me
Please come back home to me
Please come back home to me
Please come back home to me

Oh love on the wing, carry my prayer
Cherish this mnoment in time of despair
Over the mountains, over the sea
Angel of love, please come back home to me
Come back home please baby, oh

Oh, see the disgrace on my face as you touch me right now
The disgusting embrace, see my disgrace, I touch you right now
I'm tired of you abusing me
I'm tired of you watching me

One Love

Once there was a guy and he lived to vocalize the lion�s song
As he journeyed on the path of hope
His affection is the light, illustrious over each mountaintop;
It has directed me to the greater earth
One day my aorta will beat potent contra this combat let it be done right now

Once there was a guy, and his voice became a hymn of love
And this hymn became the platinum fantasy
His affection is the light, radiant over everybody he encounters;
He has lead me to the surpassing earth
Someday my oculus will witness integrity before the twilight, let it be done just now . . .

Somewhere, so long, because of our love is strong
This severe route I voyaged on, will convey me refuge, infinitely . . .

I perceive his lion�s song and voices wailing like a courtesy wind;
Yeah he�s going to my father�s land
Africa tonight, for we surely one in our core
His hair is woven in my ivory reverie
Someday my oculus will witness integrity before the twilight, let it be done just now
One day every voice will utter sincerity before the night, let it one right now . . . Please let this be . . .

We are the offspring of a thousand days; we are the children of the harsh streak
We are the offspring of a thousand days; we are the children of the . . . harsh . . . streak . . .
We are the people of the . . . hard . . . rays

Steve Gotteni

[Ashley]: "Please don't Steve, please"
[Steve] "Come over here and give me what I want"

I can't observe you Steve, but I know you're behind me still grinning
Oh the contact and sense of you Steve, oh I just can't keep from screaming
It's the odor and heat of you're breath, it's got me terrified out of reason
So please get away, go find someone else to beat on

Now I can't get rid of you Steve, you always find a way to be there
You burden, you pummel me Steve, and I know within you don't care
So get out, out from inside me, or please simply kill me
No please don't stroke me Steve, don�t you think I have had enough

Can someone see them?
Steve, Steve, Steve, Steve please
Please don't smash my core
Please don't make me regret
Please God make me forget
Now listen to me Steve, Steve, Steve
You're carnage has gutted my integrity
Don't subtract, you�ve already ruined my life

Everyday my body is bruised, and I defend you for you to simply impede
But you still make my entrails suffer and make my body bleed
STOP! PLEASE STOP IT STEVE, oh make the mourning, make it go away
No please don't fucking touch me Steve, cause you are so low

Now I can't see you Steve, but I know you're inside me still
You abuse, you execute me Steve, and it makes me so very ill
It's your sadistic drunken ways and your appetite to always fight
Why cant you just shut up, cause your only making this worse

[Ashley]: "Steve please"
[Steve]: "Shut up Bitch, you move again I'll beat the fuck out of you"
[Ashley]: "STEVE"
[Steve]: "Quit crying slut, why do you always make me do this to you?"
It's your fault; you wanted to get rid of me didn't you?"
[Ashley]: "No"
[Steve]: "Bullshit you fucking cunt don't you fucking lie to me"
[Slapping Sounds]
[Steve]: "You wanted me gone didn't you?"
[Ashley]: "No Steve, I Love You"
[Steve]: "You fucking bitch, I said don't fucking lie to me. Get away from me don't touch me
I hate you I hate you I swear to God I hate you"
[Sounds of fighting and screaming]

Tinted Wilderness

Solo: (Billy)

I still hear your heartbeat, but you�re not here
Like all your phantasms, you haunt me everywhere
All day long I burn for you, and cry lonely in the night
I try to move along, but I can never get anything right

You know that . . . my life is like a Stained Wilderness
Daddy . . . Why did you do this to me?
I�m damned, soiled and marooned
Feeling stained and forsaken . . . without you

Now I have done some thinking now that you�re not here
I don�t understand your reasons, you�re actions are never clear
All I�m sure of is I have nothing left to lose
I�ll try to be a better loser, but it�s just no use

You know that . . . my life is like Tinted Solitude
Daddy . . . Moving into my metropolis
I�m damned, soiled and marooned
Feeling stained and forsaken . . . without you

While you we�re beaten me down, I swore to secrecy
I waited for the wind, which whispers in howls your name
Through concrete canyons you destroyed all of the other faces
No directions I lead looks like home, where is my Oasis?

You know that . . . I feel this is a Tinted Wasteland
Daddy . . . Moving into my city
I�m lost, soiled and marooned
Feeling stained and forsaken devoid of you
Feeling soiled and withdrawn because of you
Now where is my oasis?

Emptiness

She first breathed on Halloween 1978, 4 years later she mentally died
And her mother believed that what she did was right and forced her to get high
And her Papa crushed her existence, ignoring her every screaming plea
And he thought that if he beat her then his little dirty whore she's become
He neglected and beat her young and never gave the love she needed to persevere

He trained her how to run away run away run away run
So she runs away runs away runs away just runs
Beyond the help of her loved ones and their tale of healthier years
To the cruelty of drugs and strangers leaving her cold and bitter and so decayed
Now she lives her life on the run

Now she still feels all the blows and the recollection only brings more pain
She gazes in tears at her reflection as her spirit struggles to fight back the burning rage
She been looking through the scum of the earth for that mysterious thing called love
And she reflects on the one person who she loved who did her so wrong
And she wails within secretly because she wished she knew precisely how to move on

So run away run away run away run away run
So she runs away runs away runs away run
From their aged unknown faces and their unfamiliar faces
To a life of drugs and prostitution leaving her raped and hammered every single day
Now she lives her life in so much fear

Solo: (Billy/Jeff/Both)

And she travels the world looking for someone who could help her along
And she thinks of all the people who as a child she loved
And she sleeps on the cold dirty streets fully disgusted of what she has become

So run away run away run away run away run
So run away run away run away run away run
So run girl run girl run girl run girl run girl run
So run Ashley run Ashley run Ashley run Ashley run Ashley run . . .

Heartless

There was passion, in his eyes
They drawn me to his flame
His touch felt so warm
But ice laid beneath his veins

He played every hand
With such charm, so much skill
His beauty was there
But his hits could kill

He�s heartless, colder then ice
If your ready for love, you better think twice
He�s heartless, careful of the curse
He only hurts the one he loves

Oh . . . The one he loves

I gambled with my heart
Cause I needed to believe
That he holds the cards
And there is an ace up his sleeve

For him pleasure was pain
Oh I know just how he cheats
Once I was the wound
And I know how hard he hits

He�s heartless, colder then ice
If your ready for love, you better think twice
He�s heartless, be careful of the curse
He only hurts the one he loves

He�ll tear you apart
You cant escape him
If you give him your heart
He�s going to rape it

Solo: (Billy)

He�s heartless, colder then ice
If your ready for love, you better think twice
He�s heartless, careful of the curse
He only hurts the one he loves

He�s heartless, colder then ice
If your ready for love, you better think twice
He�s heartless, careful of the curse
He only hurts the one he loves
Oh . . . The one he loves

Yeah . . . On that he loves
He�s heartless
Oh so heartless
Oh so heartless

Riddles In The Dark

Last night I imagined we were together
A thousand beatings lasted forever
I was covered in a pool of my blood
And lost everything to sacred to you and others

I was slowly connecting the riddles in the dark
Where the earth and moon align . . . And the magic can be mine
Never ending . . . I'll be spending nights of when were through
Becoming a riddle in the dark . . . with you

You found your way past my sacred garden
Once inside my walls you made pleasure be forgotten
Oh tell me who lies under the secret veil of you bastard
Lying underneath

Connecting the riddles in the dark . . .
And the earth and moon align . . .
And the magic's never mine . . .
Never ending . . . I'll be spending nights of when were through
Becoming a riddle in the dark . . . with you

I only wanted to be your lover
For me I felt there was no other
Lover quite like you

Connecting the riddles in the dark . . .
And the fire in yoru eyes will burn . . . To the point of no return
I prayed it ended . . . Spending all the whole night through
Becoming a riddle in the dark . . . with you

Solo: (Jeff)

You were cutting and I was bleeding
And when I came to you were still raping

I was slowly descending to this pit of Hell
Where my heart and your sadism aligned . . . And this massacred body is mine
Never ending . . . You kept raping until my body finally gave through
Descending into a riddle in the dark . . . LIKE YOU

My Marriage To Steve Donald Gotten

Sinking in, like desperation
My walls of mortified imprisonment
These knives of immorally contaminated peace
My confine becomes my only release
And when the world, cold, turns its head
Another day closer, to being dead
And hollowness is a way of life
Wickedly sweet that baron knife

Torn membranes crushed, emulate me
Philosophical critical calamity
A mess of violated sorrow and veins
The deepest pool of fresh fears and pains
Refresh my memories long dead
Just like when the world turns its head
Forget me, forgotten, nameless and weak
To open my mouth, yet have no tongue to speak

[Unknown Voice]: Ashley, Steve is on the phone...�

Vulnerable in this torture . . .
Your evil demons come by and I slumber them
The cruelty is how this strives . . .
The bruises escalate before you make them fresh again

These walls are shortening around me
Soon this nightmare will be exposed for all to see
Day after day I regret ever saying yes
Every scream reminds me of your wrath

My relatives observe me dying . . . Never helpful at all
Its the same today as it will be tomorrow . . . hopefully this is the last day
I'll give you everything own . . . For just one moment to see love
As sure as I am of that need . . . I am even now so afraid

My whole fortune has been stolen from me
You keep my troubled head fucking with me
All my existence is overflowing with manipulation
So every moment leaves me pleading for an conclusion

Steve Gotteni . . . Drag me to a new nightmare
Steve Gotteni . . . You have triumphed
You have no dignity . . . filled with only malice
You fill me with theory . . . but never practice

Tears fill my blackened eyes . . .
You move toward me and I am too timid to scream
You stroke my shattered soul . . .
Your demands start before the exploitation begins

I feel your life expanding within me
I feel your life developing within me
Day in, day out I try to remember you being nice
But every blemish reminds me of your fucking vice

Steve Gotteni . . . Drag me to Hell
Steve Gotteni . . . You have succeeded
I will live out my days in this filth
Please just let me be done

Solo: (Billy/Jeff/Both)

Steve Gotteni . . . Drag me below
Steve Gotteni . . . You are victorious
You have no pride . . . filled with only malice
You fill me with theory . . . but never practice

Steve Gotteni . . . Drag me below
Steve Gotteni . . . You are victorious
Live out my days in this immorality
Please just let me be your next fatality . . .