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| COLOUR - THE FINAL FRONTIER
I dreamt a dream one night. Someone whispered to me the words 'Rubella Ballet' I had no time to question. Flashing lights cut through the darkness. The grown ups turned away, unable to take it, while children with brightly coloured hair and clothes danced in unashamed delight. My eyes eventually became a little accustomed to the lights and focus on the band... INFLICT PAIN THROUGH NOISE They are six. All of them dressed in dayglo and black, make up and ribbons reflecting in the flurescent light. Through the swirling sound, (two guitars, two basses makes your head pound), a girl sings, just getting the better of those guitars and the unrelenting drumbeat. I turn, just as a hole suddenly appears and I fall thru', can see, hear, feel nothing until I drop to the floor, in another time, another place. The Rubella Ballet's still here, (I remember those words even if I do not really know what they mean. It's everything I feel, unexplainable in words), different, though. Now the band are four. The drumbeat's the same. So's that voice. But now there's just one girl on bass and one boy on guitar. I black out, and come to in a large, comfortable room. The walls are red, and one has black writing painted onto it. Behind me is a mirror. In front, three huge windows, overlooking a large part of the city, The girl, the singer in the band, walks in. She still looks dazzling, even in this light - long, white hair, coloured bangles and earrings and a bright dress. She smiles, looks quite friendly now, gives me something to drink. I take it unquestioningly. Immediately, the room begins to spin and the girl starts to talk... HAVE I GOT NOTHING TO GIVE? She tells of long ago - seven years, when she first stepped upon a stage, asked to sing by drummer Sid. Of others, who joined in spontaneously. Anyone can be a star. Everybody IS a star. It worked. She spoke of a spirit, a feeling. Of taking things further - a brother and sister, (Dan and Gemma), joining permanently on guitar and bass. The Rubella Ballet had begun. Seven years of turmoil, Dan leaving and rejoining, nothing ever seeming settled. But the songs were there. Always noisy, melodic, tribal. The bare essentials of Punk Rock. Lurex dresses and sweaty Moonlight Club gigs. Me, a battered young schoolgirl, discovering a whole new world. Dan left for good, and Sean was initiated into the Ballet... |
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| WE HAVE TOUCHED HEAVEN, WE HAVE HIT THE FLOOR The girl paused for a while, perhaps reflecting on old times. Then she spoke of their travels, to places I'd never been. Holland, Italy, France, lands far away. Good times and bad times. Poverty, always. Unfamiliar, sometimes hostile territory. Love and riots, all remembered now with a smile. WHAT A TANGLED WEB YOU WEAVE At this point the girl noticed my glass was empty, and insisted I have more. I was too weak and confused to say no. She gave me a drink and continued, onto more recent times - Gemma leaving the clan, and Rachel (the girls blood sister, I later found out) joining. Of Sean also bidding farewell, Adams brief stay, and of Steve finally settling into the band. As she spoke, I was sent sprawling again through the mists of time to a dark and dingy London squat. The girl was there too, with the boy called Sid (tall as could be, young and blond) pounding the drums, Rachel on the bass and Steve thrashing away on the guitar. People crashed out on the floor, screaming at the band to turn the lights off, the Rubella Ballet in full swing. Taking someone's hand and dancing to the irresistable beat. ANOTHER CHANGE OF HEART The vision fades from my mind, and I'm once again in the room with the girl. She at last tells me her name - Zillah, then carries on. I wondered about the presence of the extra guitarist and bassist. She explained that they had wanted more power more dimension, and so Leda and Sam were asked in. THE RIGHT TO LIVE, NOT THE NEED TO SURVIVE 'So here we are, she concluded with a smile, her eyes flashing all the colours of the rainbow, the Rubella Ballet has always been, will always be, as long as people like us exist IT has to, for it is us and we are it. As long as you and I carry on, wanting something more, and feeling apart from the outside world, it will continue. It is the never ending story. And with that I sank, senses numbed, into blessed oblivion. THE END. Unidentified Fanzine? (Mid 1980's) supplied by Zillah And Sid. |