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Guilty Feelings?
Moving From Supplication to Praise
All My Times are In Your Hand
Waiting For Your Will
Is This Idea Really From You, Lord?

Fuilty Feelings?
Date: August 2, 2003

Dear Heavenly Father, I love You, Lord. I worship You. I praise You. For You are Holy and totally trustworthyand totally dependable. Your love never fails. You never ever forsake me. Even when I turn from You (or turn on You) You keep loving me and You take my messes and use them to grow me up into Christ-likeness.

When I woke up in the night and could not sleep for my mind was racing and my heart was worrying about this whole thing about jobs and moving and stuff, when I finally cried out to You and turned it over to You, You gave me peace and caused me to sleep peacefully. Thank You, Lord!

Lord, what about those 0.5% coolers I wanted and got for my birthday? I do kind of like them, Lord, but at the same time I feel guilty because they do have alcohol (which my son keeps pointing out) (am I setting him a bad example?). Should I just dump the ones that are left? I guess this is an example of both a weak conscience (mine) and setting a stumbling block (to my kids). So I guess that is that. I better get rid of them.

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Moving From Supplications to Praise
Date: August 6, 2003

Please be with the people who have lost their homes in the wild fires. Please lead and guide and protect and provide. And help us to help any way we can.

Please help us to find the right home, according to Your will and provision. Please help us to find the right jobs and schools. Please provide financially. Please give us Your love and guidance and wisdom in making new house rules. Please give me strength and provision for this move. In Jesus' name, amen.

Please bless at the family reunion. Oh dear God, may You answer dad's prayers for the salvation of his people.

Please help me clearly reach others for You with the good news, the gospel, of Your salvation through Christ Jesus my Lord. Amen.

Please help me to give thanks in everything.

Forgive me my sins. Forgive me for my attitude toward my husband, and my crankiness. "Cleanse my heart, O God, make me ever true, Cleanse my heart, O God, Make me be like You. You are the Potter, I am the clay, Make me and mold me, this is what I pray." Thank You, Lord. I am forgiven and cleansed. Help me to make right the wrongs I have done, and repent - turn 180 degrees - and "go running after You." Fill me with Your Spirit, dear Lord God, in Jesus' name and by the purchase price of Your blood, dear Jesus, my Saviour, my Shepherd, my brother, my Lord and King. Hallelujah! Praise You, Lord!

Wow! dear Lord! Thank You for Your great salvation. Thank You for Your Word, especially Romans 6, 7, and 8, today. How could I have been so limited in my understanding and comprehension of the eternally consequential incredible meaning of Your salvation? Forgive me for my slowness and halting of mind, dear God. Help me to truly appreciate Your majesty, Your omnipotence, omniscience, omnipresence... Your love!

Amazing love! Amazing grace! How can it be? That You, my God, shouldst die for me!

I worship You. There's naught else I can do.
I bow before You.
Teach me to be humble, Lord.
You did it all.
I have nothing to contribute.
All I can do is to be sorry, and humbly repent,
and accept Your free gift.

And oh! glory! Your sunshine breaks the clouds!
I am free! forgiven! loved! forever!

I love You, Lord!
Praise Your holy Name!
Hallelujah! Praise God! Amen.

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All my Times Are In Your Hands
Date: August 7, 2003

Dear Heavenly Father, I love You, Lord God Jehovah! How wonderful is Your absolute unchangeable being,great I AM! You do have all my times in Your hand. All that happens in my life (and my family's life) is according to Your purpose and for Your glory. How true it is that Your ways are not our ways and Your thoughts are not our thoughts. For as the heavens are higher than the earth so are Your ways and thoughts higher, more glorious, more exalted - indeed often incomprehensible to our little minds! - than our ways and thoughts! Help me, dear God, to accept Your ways by faith in You, by faith in Jesus Your Son, and walk in Your ways with joy and gladness (no matter how it may "appear" or "feel" to me). Thank You for forming me - and my family and all Your children - as vessels of mercy for Your glory and Your purpose. Lord, when I read Romans 9, it is true that in my human (fleshly) way of thinking, my gut reaction is first of all "That's not fair!" But dear God, You are the potter - and Your mercy and patience and love and purposes are beyond all my understanding and certainly outside of "my control." "Make me a mold me, after Your will, while I am waiting, yielded and still." "I stand in awe of You." Fear the Lord, o my soul! For thou art great and doest wondrous things. Thank You for Your love, Your provision, and most of all, Your great salvation through Your Son, Jesus Christ, my Lord. Amen!

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Waiting For Your Will
Date: August 8, 2003

Dear Lord - Yes, all our "plans" are in Your hands.

And its a good, good thing because I am totally confused. And I guess that means I better just sit back and wait for Your clear guidance, because right now things are as clear as mud to me.

Yesterday I discovered the car engine is burning a lot of spilled oil. Then I got a letter in the mail from my dad cautioning me about moving, from the financial viewpoint. The older girls need to move so they can get work. They could get an apartment - but they don't really want to stay together. My son doesn't want to move. My youngest daughter says she'll move now, but doesn't want to move later, during her senior high school years.

I was wondering, Lord, if the car breakdown and the letter are You saying to slow down?

___ seems to think I should "follow my heart" and not to put too much consequence in "signs." He thinks You aren't really very interested in most of our day-to-day decisions just as long as we are trying to really serve You. And that if it really was a big deal to You, You would make it abundantly clear. I think he's right in a way. But I hesitate to move at all if things aren't clear, because this seems to me more than just a little everyday decision.

I need to hear from You, Lord. Or maybe I am just being impatient. "They that wait upon the Lord shall renew their strength." I just feel empty right now,a bit tired and headachey. I have a hard time just sitting and waiting when the clock is ticking, so to speak.

I want Your will. You know that. It seems better to sit and wait till Your guidance is clear than to leap forward into a situation I might regret because it was "me." But I don't even know if that is right.

Oh, Lord, please take it all.

I just read Deuteronomy 32. It started out so hopefully (v 3-4) and really lifted me, and reminded me that God is in charge and working all things out for good. Verses 10-14 were encouraging, reviewing God's call and care for His people Jacob, and verse 39 offers comfort, too. But the rest of the chapter is a searing warning about the calamities God visits on those who are not faithful to Him. And I had tears in my eyes to think that maybe all this is because I haven't served God faithfully.

But according to verse 46, Moses spoke these dire words not as a punishment but as a warning. And so I guess I should take them that way, too. How careful we must be to hear God's Word as He meant it, to read it in context, to get the big picture, to see God's purposes and principles, not just read it from our own little personal purposes and desires.

Dear God, You are my great God, my Rock. Your work and ways are perfect and just. You are faithful and just, righteous and upright And You are working all things out for good, as I love You and answer Your call and walk in Your purpose. Help me to respond the way You require, Lord. Thank You. Forgive my rebellion, Lord. I am sorry. Amen.

(___ keeps saying, "That's just your perception" and "You have to look at things positively." Am I that negative, Lord? Where did it come from? How can I escape? How can I peacefully walk in trust with You? I guess I'm just wishing for instant deliverance.... it doesn't generally work out that way, does it?)

Do You have something specific to say to me, Lord?

Psalm 31: "In You, O LORD, I have taken refuge.... For Your name's sake You will lead me and guide me... Into Your hand I commit my spirit... You have known the troubles of my soul... You have set my feet in a large place."

Thank You Lord for Your Word! Always the right word at the right time. (And sometimes times of silence. But when Your voice does speak, how much greater the joy and blessing. "Praise the Lord, O my soul, and all that is within me bless His holy name!")

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Is This Idea Really From You, Lord?
Date: August 9, 2003

Lord, I did think this move idea was from You. But maybe it is not - or not yet. So many complications, questions, uncertainties.

Does it sound like I don't trust You? Well, I do. And I'm not going to make any move until it is crystal clear that there are wide open doors! And please keep teaching me and showing me how Your will, Your purposes, Your principles line up with these things (like the move and myself and the kids working, and the girls going out on their own... Is it right for young girls to be out alone? I wonder...).

Thank You, Lord. I'll just keep sorting and cleaning and waiting for Your clear direction. Despite what ___ says, I think You do have a plan here. I mean, I think You do care about the details. (Do You? Am I wrong again?).

Help me, dear Jesus.

I love You - Father, Son, Spirit - Lord God. amen.

Psalm 33:20-21 "Our soul waits for the LORD; He is our help and our shield. For our heart rejoices in Him, Because we trust in His holy name."

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