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I Don't Want Stuff - I Just Want You
Thank You! I Love You!
I Want... You, Lord!
No, I Can't Be Depressed... O, Help Me, Lord!

I Don't Want Stuff - I Just Want You!
Date: May 17, 2005

Lord, I’m still thinking about summer. I don’t want an “outside” job where they choose the hours. I do want to make some money – if that would be Your will for our family finances while I’m not teaching in the summer. But if You have a different plan, that is so cool! Thy will be done, Lord!
I don’t want stuff, Lord.
I just want You!
I can’t get over the fact that You want to provide – to pour out abundantly more than I/we can possibly imagine!
Wow! Do it, Lord! Hallelujah!

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Thank You! I Love You!
Date: May 18, 2005

Dear Heavenly Father, Please help my husband. His knee hurts, and he is upset about going out to work for another whole month, and today he was… well, You know. Thank You for his heart when he saw I was hurting. Help me to always take it all to You right away. Thank You for my husband – and the work You are doing in him – and in me!

Thank You for the good day at school, the way the kids cooperated a lot more. And thank You that the grade 8’s are seeing that French is more logical and easier than they thought, since we started studying Ruth. Lord, please use the gospel plays and the scripture verses and songs to reach the kids’ (and the parents and audience) hearts as they get ready to perform. Please work it all out to Your glory.

Thank You for helping me get the library tidied up. Thank You for helping me be creative with the little food we have in the house. Thank You for all Your provisions.

Help me, Lord, not to get upset when my husband spends more freely than “my budget” allows or expects. Lord, I am trying to be submissive in this area; but I’m not doing the greatest job, I know. Please help me – and please provide. Thank You.

I just have to say yet again that I love You, Lord! I love You! Thank You for Your love, care, goodness, patience, salvation. Father, pour out Your Spirit on me. And please help me to sleep well to night. I am so tired. In Jesus’ name, Amen.

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I Want... You, Lord!
Date: May 19, 2005

Oh, Father, I want all of You. I want Your glory… more than just Your anointing. I want to be willing to do whatever You want me to, even if I think I’ll hate it or not be able to do it. I want Your will, Your right, Your time, Your good, Your… You! Oh, Mighty God and Father of my Lord Jesus Christ, pour Yourself out on me. Infill me, overflow me with Your Spirit.

Help me to long for, desire, expect with great joy and expectation, unimaginably, exaltingly, glorified, holy and pure and extreme, amazing, perfect, exciting, gracious mercies and, yes, trials (!) from You.

Heal ______ today, Lord – now, Lord. Even to allowing her to play in the soccer tourney. Show her Your glory, Lord. Draw her to You, inexorably, invitingly, incredibly, exceptionally! Bring her into Your Kingdom, Lord. It is Your will that none should perish but that all should come to repentance. Cause her will to line up with Your will, Lord, and do so for _________ too, please. Thank You.

And please be with _______. Safety. Traveling mercies. A good time – a God time. Thank you for his new enthusiasm for youth group and other church activities. Keep Your hand on him, Lord. Fulfill Your promise, Lord, in Jesus’ name! Please! Thank You.

“Learn the divine skill of making God all things to thee. He can supply thee with all; or better still, He can be to thee instead of all…. Make use of Him in prayer; go to Him often, because He is thy God…. Use Him constantly by faith at all times… He will direct thee… God is just what thou wantest and just where thou wantest and… He can do all thou wantest.” (Charles H. Spurgeon)

But how??? Father God – how? How do I “use thee”?

I try, Lord. I try. I step out. I told _____ I was praying for her healing (oh! Please fully heal her Lord. Don’t just make her stronger. Heal her from this “incurable” fibromyalgia. And the other ladies that I know who suffer from it too. What about those ladies starting a support group? I want to think big! What about just wiping it from the face of the earth? You could do that, of course. But would You? Should You? Is this, too, one of those things: “The poor you will always have with you..”?

I keep wondering, Lord. I keep wondering why my prayers often don’t get answered? Some of them do. But most of them? Maybe it’s just not Your time yet? Maybe it’s not Your will, Your best? Maybe I lack faith? Maybe I’m not “anointed” … never mind experiencing Your glory!?

What about the prayers I prayed day after day in my last community, for community transformation, to salvation and Your will for specific young people, for my children really turning to You, and the times I pray for them when they are sick and they don’t get better quickly? Why? Do they not expect it?

I want more! I want Your promises to be fulfilled. I want You! You know I don’t care much about things. You know I don’t even care much about finances, even about my “responsibility for my family” anymore (well, I guess those are answers to my prayers!). I guess You have to change me first. Yes, I know that.

But Lord, I want more of You. That’s it.

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No, I Can't Be Depressed... O Help Me, Lord!
Date: May 21, 2005

Dear Heavenly Father, it’s been kind of a hard day, I think. Thank You for being there through it, for and with me. Thank You for helping me write the newsletter article. How awesome You are! I did not know what to do. I did not want to offend or be disrespectful or be too strident. Thank You. I believe the whole article is from You, a word from You, and in Your will. Thank You, Lord.

Lord, I keep thinking about how I could do maybe an educational consulting/ seminar/ tutoring business in the future. But then I wonder, too, about Your purpose for me. What about what ______ believes, that You have a “prophetic” ministry for me? And what about Your long-time “call” on my life to preach Your word? Yes, Lord, it has to be Your plan, and therefore Your time, way, purpose. Forgive me for worrying. Thank You, Jesus. Amen.

Lord, my kids are all worried about me. They say I sound really stressed out. I am feeling stressed, Lord. I am so tired. I need a break. I need a rest. I’m so, so tired, Lord. Please, please, please, please, please, please, please help me. Please? Thank You.

I was supposed to be able, 2 or 3 years ago, to go away for a week or so by myself, just retreat for awhile. Lord, I want some time just alone. Is that so bad? I’m so tired, Lord. You see? I’m crying again. I told the doctor, “No, I can’t be depressed. I’m the one who has to be strong for all the other depressed people.” Lord, I’m not strong. I’m tired and depressed and tired, oh oh oh, I’m so tired.

Hold me, please, dear Jesus. Please hold me.

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