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Eyes On You
Rwanda
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Anywhere for You

Eyes On You
Date: Sept 10, 2005

Dear Heavenly Father. Here I am. And here You are - always with me! Thank You for loving me so much, when I so often stray away, and get wrapped up in the narrow confinement of the world around me. Yet You remain always with me, amazingly longing for me to lift my eyes from the miry clay and "Turn my eyes upon Jesus, Look full in His wonderful face, And the things of earth will grow strangely dim, In the light of His glory and grace!" How true it is that "There's light for a look at the Saviour, And life more abundant and free." Thank You, Lord God! Thank You, Father, Son, Spirit! You are indeed worthy to be praised!

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Rwanda
Date: September 11, 2005

I watched a program on TV about the genocide in Rwanda. The depravity that man is capable of - even Christians! - is truly beyond comprehension. Oh, dear God, how can You keep on being patient with us? You died in the place of all those people, in all of time, who have committed such terrible atrocities. How could You love us that much? And yet in Your sight all sin is utterly terrible, no matter how minor it may appear to us.

You died for every one of us. You died for me. No wonder I so often feel so unworthy. So wrong. So evil in the sight of You, my perfect and holy God. Even my moments of "greatest righteousness" are but filthy sinful rags in Your sight. And yet You chose to give Your Son to die for me. And You choose to see Him and His perfect righteousness when You look at me. How can I desire anything but to honor and praise and worship You, by bringing all aspects of my life into line with the righteousness of Your Son, Jesus Christ, who died for me?

Oh, dear God, please keep showing me what is evil in me. Please keep giving me the grace and humility and repentant spirit to bring those things to You, to die to them, to leave them at the foot of the cross, and to take up my cross and follow You in the power and perfection and sanctification of Your holiness as You live in me. Christ in me! The hope and joy of my salvation! Thank You, Lord! Amen.

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Glory
Date: Sept 14, 2005

Lots of bills coming due and still no cheque. Mom not doing so well these days. Tiredness. Stress. Wars in Iraq and Afghanistan. Starvation. Hundreds of thousands of people's homes destroyed by Hurricane Katrina. The whole world is full of trouble and of things I can't control or fix.

But the whole earth is also "full of Your glory," Lord. I choose right now to bow before You and to worship You. You are wonderful, amazing, all powerful, all knowing. You are totally in control. You are All Love. Thank You. Your yoke is easy and Your burden is light. Please exchange the burden that the world is trying to wrap around me, for Your burden. Please help me find rest and peace and contentment and confidence in You. Thank You. In Jesus' name, Amen. Thank You!

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Computer
Date: Sept 19, 2005

Lord God, we are apparently about to commit to a pretty major act: buy a new computer! Lord, I just ask that if this is Your will, You will work it out. If it is not, then I pray that You will "close doors." I have done the research, and am reasonably certain that this particular computer is a good choice, and a very good price, for everyone's perceived needs. Spending this kind of money when there are so many real needs (hungry people, workers needing support, disaster victims, the vision of the church, the needs of the camp�) really kind of bothers me. And I do not want to spend more than we have available. And I do want to tithe (and more) on the holiday pay. But this is important to my husband and the children. You know my heart, Lord. You also know the situation here. Please do Your will. And help me obey You, and accept Your decisions. In Jesus' name. Amen.

Lord, You know the things I wonder about. Whether I "deserve" anything new? Whether I really need it? Whether living Christianly demands being always at a basic level, giving away, even refusing anything more than the most basic needs of living? This is not, I believe, a wrong way of thinking. Following Jesus� example, we are called to living a life of simplicity, are we not? And yet, if we have an opportunity to do or have something new or special that could be used to move forward the work of God, then maybe we should consider that, and accept it joyfully, and make use of it?

Like the new computer. I could use the Power Point for ministry, couldn't I? I could use the computer for French study and preparing school lessons. I could use it for writing "the book" and articles for the church newsletters, and for writing emails and letters, and maybe even setting up a website ministry.

What worries me, of course, is that it will become another source of conflict as everyone in the family "battles" for time to use it, and people download things (not just viruses and such, but also games, pictures, articles that bring in sinful influences) that could prove to be downright dangerous. And then there's the concern about wasted time.

Of course there are already all kinds of worldly influences brought into our home: newspapers, magazines, TV, videos, video games, computer web surfing /downloads /MSN /chats, etc. And even the "classics" of literature that sit on our shelves, even "Christian" books with worldly ideas mingled in. Even the "luxuries" of our materialistic society that we take for granted, and seem to believe we cannot do without. And then, of course, each person who comes in, brings with them the influences of the world we live in. Of course, this is part of "being in the world, but not of it." Am I being too sensitive? Am I giving in to "guilt trips" laid on me by the enemy? How do I "strike a balance" here, living "in" but not "of"?

Do other people think about this? What do You tell them? What do You want to tell me? What do You have to say to me today about this whole computer thing, and the different French courses I am trying to choose among, and the Bible study group times, places, people I am wondering about?

I'm not being very quiet in Your presence, am I? Nor showing confidence in You. I do know You are in control. I know that ultimately everything will work out for Your glory. I want Your perfect will in my life. I don't want to quench Your Spirit in my life, or limit what You can do in and with me.

I have having trouble differentiating between trusting You, and knowing how and when to do my part. I also don't very often think first (and even less, act first) of bringing it all directly to You. Oh, please forgive me, Lord. Help me, please, dear Jesus, to bring everything to You! Thank You! In Jesus' name, amen.

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Your Presence
Date: Sept 25, 2005

Lord God, Your Spirit is always available. Christ in me! That is so amazing! But I so easily push You aside, get wrapped up in the world around me, allow my body's tiredness to overwhelm my determination to hang onto You. Oh Lord, I read about people who are never tired because they are holding so strongly onto You. Is that possible? Scriptural? You do have so much good for us in every way. But also trials and sufferings and persecutions. But always, always, Your Presence (even when we can't "feel" it), and always, always, our hope of eternal life with You! Awesome!

What can I say? Oh, dear God, please help me to shine Jesus out to the world in my every thought, word and action. I pray in Jesus' name, by the power of the Holy Spirit. Thank You for interceding for me with the Father, dear Jesus. I am so sinful and unworthy, yet You have made me holy and given me access by Your blood to my precious Creator and God. What a wonderful, mighty God we serve! Praise Your Holy Name!

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Anywhere for You
Date: Sept 26, 2005

(Luke 8) This summer I said I was willing to go anywhere for Lord, You. But I wonder, did anywhere include right here in my own home, in my own place? My husband, children, grandchild, my children's friends, my neighbours, my school students, the people in my church, the street people a block or two from my house? Oh, Lord, it seems like this is the hardest thing for me. Help me, Lord! Make me bold and truly loving for You!

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