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Don't Panic; Turn to Jesus
God's Unfailing Love
Holiness
God's Purpose for Me
Stir Up Your Gift
Freedom

Don't Panic; Turn to Jesus
Date: January 07, 2006

Lord, I think I have been trying to be "like Jesus," to "follow and obey," yet somehow I seemed to have missed the goal of true friendship and intimate relationship with You. But, oh! if I do focus on that goal, I will bear fruit, which up to now seems to have pretty much been eluding me.

The devotional I read this morning says that when "the last abyss of [your] nature has been satisfied by Jesus... [all that will be left in your life is] the strong calm sanity that our Lord gives to those who are intimate with Him." (My Utmost for His Highest, Oswald Chambers, January 7). Think about that! When panicky things happen, I can actually be calm, thoughtful, sane in response to those around me, because I can turn to Jesus with my feelings, and He will be my peace.

No more freak-outs! Just going right to Jesus instead of rushing to others for help. But, Lord, I am learning to come to You first. You are making me much calmer and peaceful. I am learning to let You be in charge, and even to accept whatever You send along, even if it doesn't seem "fair" to me. Because I am learning that everything You do for me is done out of Your boundless love, and is for my best.

It really is adventurous, looking forward to seeing how Your "impossible" situations are going to work things out. Thank You!

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God's Unfailing Love
Date: January 09, 2006

Lord, You know the things I have been struggling with. Like what my "purpose" might be, and what it really means to "glorify God," and with "my responsibility" in raising my children, and feeling loaded with failure, even guilt, because they are struggling in their walks with You. Yet I have been basing my judgments of my children (and myself) on outward things, forgetting that when I was a young adult I was no different, and indeed, was even "worse" than they. And yet, through it all, through all my wandering and rebellion, You never let go of me, dear God. You kept pursuing me. I never could doubt Your reality and Your presence, though at times I felt quite sure I must have committed the "unpardonable sin," or at least had turned my back so thoroughly on obeying and loving You that You could surely no longer want me as Your child. And yet You did keep loving me, and I was always aware of it, and knew always that I would come back to You, that I had to come back to Your loving arms.

Oh, thank You, Lord, for Your patient, unchanging love, and for the loving prayers of my parents and others who never gave up on me. Help me, too, dear God, to persevere in prayer for my children, who have known and followed You, and whom You are still pursuing, I know!

As I reflect on Your sovereignty and unchangeableness, dear God, I begin to see. And I cannot but rejoice in Your unfailing love for Your children whom You have called and chosen. Yes, I long for my children to experience the joy of knowing You, their Father, ever more intimately and joyfully. But I also rest in the fact of their salvation, and I understand now that I still have a part to play in Your work, dear God, as I can daily, moment by moment, bring them before You praying that You would continue to build Your life into their lives, Your Spirit uniting with their spirits. True, You can do it without me. But what an undeserved honour and pleasure to be allowed, I who am so unworthy, to take part in the work and purposes of You, the omnipotent God of the universe! Amazing love! "How can it be, that Thou, my God, shouldst die for me?"

I have been thinking about how Your sovereignty is at the core of everything. I have been learning about "my" purpose, "my" walk, "my" responsibility, and so on. And yet they are not truly mine. They are Your's alone, for it is You who designed, created and controls all things, and it is Your unchanging purposes which will be fulfilled. How amazing - and how reassuring, hopeful, relaxing, it makes all things for me!

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Holiness
Date: January 15, 2006

Today's devotional sounded like the "camp-meeting preaching" I vaguely remember from my youngest days. But now I hear it again clearly, just as those old-time preachers truly believed in sanctification, in holy living. Yet somewhere along the line this teaching seemed to drop out of favor. Why? Is it wrong? Or is it too powerful, and the enemy has been working to convince us to ignore it? And has our flesh chosen to ignore it, because following it will cost us the whole way we live, and we don't want to pay that price?

Surely there must be a common experience in the Christian walk, in which one grasps the need to truly die to self; when one comes to truly understand the wonder, the depth, the awesomeness, the pain of the cross, of Your ultimate sacrifice which incredibly brought us a salvation impossible for us to ever reach or devise for ourselves. Oh, the wonder of being lifted, delivered, snatched, rescued out of eternal death and separation from You our Creator, into new eternal life in relationship with You, standing before You in the wonder of Your love and glory, part of Your family. You are our Father, we are Your heirs, Your children, joining Jesus Your Son. How incredible that You have brought us into a kind of equal family relationship with Jesus - with God! It is really impossible to comprehend the wonder of that! And to know, to truly understand our own unworthiness, the umplumbed depths of our evil, wicked, value-less natural fleshly being, before a perfect, omnipotent, omniscient, omnipresent, infallible God of love!

Does any human being really understand fully what it is we have received from You, dear God? I don't think we can ever truly comprehend the vastness and wonder of our salvation here on earth. But we must be "growing into" that understanding. At some point we must cast off all our "apron strings," our ties to, hankerings, longings for aspects of our old lives. And we must cast aside our fears and reservations about the consequences of full surrender to You, truly counting the cost and realizing that it is worth it, no matter what it may mean in this life. It is the moment at which one understands what Christ's sacrifice really was, really meant, really cost, and is willing - indeed, longs and desires - to become part of that sacrifice, living it with Him, wanting, willing only utter obedience and faith in You, dear God, in Your love, in Your will and in Your purposes.

Yet, Lord, I have to admit (and I have been troubled about this), that I cannot pinpoint in my own life an exact moment when I came to this supposed point of "sanctification". Yet I can think of many points at which You opened my eyes, and revealed to me, in greater and more profound ways, the glory of Your holiness and love and the reality of Christ's sacrifice. And at those times I have often seemed to have made a new and quite sudden "step forward." Perhaps You work in different ways with different people. You have surely made us different. Some people are more emotional and experiential in the way they relate, both in the natural world and in relation to You. Others, I think, are more intellectual about it. Perhaps that is why we must be together in the body, complementing one another, being the "fullness" we are called to in Christ Jesus!

Perhaps we need to stop insisting that "my" experience and/or concept of how we grow in holiness and relationship to You, is the "right way." And we need to realize that what is important is that You are moving us into holiness so that we can truly be like Jesus and stand before You, God, in the physical reflection of the fact of Your holiness which You have laid upon our spirits through our salvation by faith in Jesus. We are called to sanctification, to holiness; we must go through death to self, in order to be truly open to let You work in our surrendered lives through Your Holy Spirit. But it seems to me like the exact "experience" or "method" You use to get each of us individually to that place of free openness and surrender and co-operation with You must differ in detail. You are so creative!

It seems to me that sanctification must be a continuing and growing process that will only be consummated when we stand before You in eternal glory. And I expect that even then, will we not learn to love and glorify You more and more as we have endless opportunity to see You and know You? At any rate, here on earth, holiness is surely a journey, with new vistas, new knowledge, new understanding, new experiences, new ever-unfolding depths of relationship with You, and with our fellow believers, with Your church and with the world that needs You.

Yet still it seems to me that we do require these moments of crisis when we realize our need to die ever more to self and determine to desire never to turn aside for even a moment. We so need to come to understand the depths of the wonder of Your mercy, and thus bring the way we live our lives into line with the fact of our salvation; we must come to choose to totally turn our back on our past and on our flesh, die to all of that "old man," and boldly step forward into a life of total surrender and total faith and trust and obedience to our God who has done so much for us.

Lord, Your gospel is so simple and clear. And yet it is at the same time also a mystery, wrapped up as it is in Your wisdom, before which our human wisdom, mind, knowledge, understanding is nothing. And yet by the leading and teaching of Your Holy Spirit, You would actually have us come into an ever-growing knowledge of You and Your will, purpose and ways. Amazing grace!

Dear God, please help me. I want to understand Your ways. But most of all, I want to walk in holiness before You. I want the fact of the holiness which You have granted me through the sacrificial blood of Jesus, to become a reality in every moment of my living, here and now, bowing before You, honoring and glorifying and trusting and obeying You, my Creator, my God, my Father, my Lord and Savior, my Guide and Comforter, indeed, my All in All. Praise Your Holy Name! Thank You!

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God's Purpose for Me
Date: January 16th 2006

Oh dear God, help me to focus totally on You alone! I have been so influenced by the philosophies of the world, in all areas of my life. But oh! You are bringing me into seeing with Your perspective. Oh, thank You, Lord! You are indeed the Center. Even though You made me and gave me certain talents, gifts, skills, interests, it still isn't about me and what I can do. Instead, it is about Your purposes for me, chosen and decided and predestined by You in and for eternity. Indeed, it seems to me that perhaps You give us some of these talents the world applauds simply to give us the opportunity to let go our claim upon them and open ourselves to let You use us in whatever way You want - whether it be greater or lesser in our sight. If it is Your way, then it is for Your glory and that gives it ultimate, eternal greatness. Help me, Lord, to joyfully wrap, bathe, enfold every area of my life into You and Your will, Your purpose, Your call, Your choices for me and for all Your creation and Kingdom. It amazes me to think that though I am such a small and unworthy and seemingly insignificant bit of Your creation and purpose, yet in Your sight, through the grace of Jesus, I am essential!

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Stir Up Your Gift
Date: January 18th 2006

This morning I read Psalm 18. It is so metaphorical. It made me think again about the writing I feel You have called me to, Lord. It made me wonder for a moment if there is any point in me writing, when there has already been so much exceptional writing done by Your people over the millennia, by men and women both who have clearly been much greater thinkers than I can ever hope to be. On the other hand, especially in this day and age, there is so much awful, rambling, shallow, poorly executed writing out there, and I fear I might only be adding to it. And yet, I do believe You have provided me with gifts of communication, especially in teaching and writing. And clearly, You have called me as a witness for You, to glorify You in all things, and to edify and build Your church. Your Word clearly shows that all these things are "the will of God in Christ Jesus concerning you."

Oh! I do want to be devoted to You, Lord. I do want to be a witness for You. I do want to satisfy You, for Your sake, not for mine. And I do want to be used of You - rather than just doing for You.

If writing and teaching are indeed gifts from You, then they are to be used to build Your Kingdom and to bring You glory. It does not matter what has been done before by others. It makes no difference what my "own" intelligence or abilities may be. If You have indeed gifted me in these ways, then it is up to me to co-operate with Your purposes, to "stir up the gift that is within in me," being obedient to Your calling, doing my very best under Your guidance and power, and leaving the results up to You. Thank You.

I got out my sketchbook this morning and sketched a bit - just sketching for its own sake. And then when I read Psalm 18 this morning, I could picture myself illustrating it. I could see You coming down to mankind through the thick clouds and storm and thunder and lightening. I could see the mountains quake, and the ocean waters peeled back and the ocean floors laid open and bare before the power of Your glory and power and just anger and wrath! And I could hear the strains of that song welling up in the background, "Did you see the mountains tremble, did you hear the oceans roar?" Thank You, Father, for all the ways You have provided for us to bow before You in awe and fear, and worship You! Thank You for Your creativity and imagination which You have implanted in us, Your creatures, designing us in Your image in these wondrous ways, so that we might catch even a small glimmer of Your glory, and even in that glimpse be overwhelmed by You. Thank You, Lord!

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Freedom
Date: January 19, 2006

Father God, I keep thinking about this matter of sovereignty. It seems to me that perhaps after all we don't really have a "free choice" - except the freedom to worship and glorify You, which we gain only through Your gift of salvation in the blood of Jesus, Who has broken the eternal shackles of the death caused by sin. I see that as long as we remain under the bondage of sin, we can never experience any true freedom at all. Even the freedom, the choice to receive You into our hearts is ultimately Your choice. It is You who opens our hearts, who calls us, who causes our eyes to hear, our minds and hearts to understand and accept. You know that is a different way of understanding about You than I've known before. Help me, by the guidance of Your Holy Spirit, to ever more clearly understand Your Word, and the wonder of your sovereign will, love, grace, goodness, mercy, patience, especially in the face of the retributive justice we so clearly deserve. Yet You forgive us and bring us into newness of life, a new beginning, the old passed away, all things become new!

Lord, I still have so many questions, so many things I don't understand. But Thank You! I am beginning to catch a glimpse of Your ultimate power and majesty and sovereignty. And I am beginning to see how minute and often wrong-headed my own little thoughts really are. Forgive me, Lord, for my puny, arrogant mind and heart. I'm sorry.


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