Have Faith In Me
Part 13
By Kelly
The pain in her eyes gives way to shock.
“Your sister? Oh, God, Danny, how could I...”
“How could you have jumped to such a conclusion? I was wondering the same thing Michelle.”
The hurt I see in Danny’s eyes is breaking my heart, he thinks I don’t trust him, why shouldn’t he think that? How could I have been so stupid, I just assumed he was like my father. I have to make this right before I really do lose him.
“Danny, I’m so sorry, I just walked up to the door, and heard your conversation, I heard you laughing, and when I walked in and saw her in your arms,” the tears are rolling down my face, as I try to make him understand, “when I saw you holding her, I felt like my world was collapsing, I thought it had all been a lie.”
“Michelle, I know what you thought, you said it, remember “Oh, God, Danny, not you too,” how could you even think for one minute I was like your father? If we are going to have a future you have to let go of what he did, you have to stop assuming that every man will hurt you like he did, and like Stephen did!”
“Danny, I know you aren’t my father or Stephen for that matter, I know that, it’s just so hard to forget.”
Danny’s holding me by the arms forcing me to face him, and look him in the eye.
“So you say Michelle, I know it’s hard for you, but DAMN IT, I’m tired of having you think I’m going to screw around on you! I’m not, and until you get that through your head, I don’t know what to do. I have told you how much I love you, how much I want you, you are my heart and soul. I want to spend my life with you, but not if you can’t let go of the past, and trust me, you have to have faith in me, have faith in us! Can you do that?”
“Danny, you know I love you, I feel the same way about you that you feel about me. It’s not that simple, I can’t just say, “Oh, I have to let it go, so what if I caught my father having sex on his desk? So what if he cheated on my mother, their entire married life?” No, Danny, it’s not that simple. I’m past what Stephen did to me, we were teenagers, and I’m over it, yes, it hurt, but I understand it. But, what my father did, how can you expect me to just get past it? You have no idea the pain of what my father did has caused me. I know I’ve told you, but you can’t understand it. I do trust you, I do have faith in you, I have faith in us, but it’s going to take time for me to get over what I saw, it’s burned into my mind. So, if you can’t handle my fears and insecurities, you better tell me now! Maybe if you had some idea of what I was going through, you would be more willing to help me deal with it and not just expect me to push it aside!”
Danny takes a deep breath and walks away from me, he is pacing the room, and I can tell he’s weighing his words so that they come out right. As he’s doing it he’s looking around the room and he is realizing that I had planned a special lunch for us. He sits down on the couch and motions for me to come join him. I make way to his side slowly, wondering what he is going to say, but know that I have to be strong, and not expect the worst, not from my Danny.
He takes my hands in his hand, he wraps he free arm around me drawing me into him.
‘Michelle, baby, I love you more than life. I know you are afraid of being hurt, I can handle it, but you have to be willing to give me a chance, don’t just jump to conclusions. Always remember, you are my love, there is no other, there never will be, if you see or hear something that bothers you, we can talk about it, I’m not saying we can’t, I’m just asking that you stop assuming the worst. Can you do that?”
I look up into his endless brown eyes, and see all the love he feels for me. I smile back at him, hoping my eyes reflect the same love.
“Yes, Danny, I can, but can you promise to be patient with me, if I slip up sometimes?”
“I will willingly do that. And Michelle, one more thing, when you said that I have no idea how it feels to know that your father cheated on your mother, you were wrong. I know how it feels to have one parent betray another.”