Have Faith In Me
Part 11
By Kelly
This past month has been amazing. I am still missing my mom terribly, and Danny has been by my side every step of the way. He instinctively knows when I am missing her the most, and always make the hurt better. He allows me my grief, he doesn’t trivialize it by telling me that it’s OK, and she would not want me to spend time grieving for her loss. He just lets me have my feelings. I know that Mom’s friends and Rick are trying to help when they tell me that, but it doesn’t help. Danny has been especially supportive in my decisions regarding both Ed and Rick. Rick had taken to calling me, pressuring me to see Ed and to forgive him. He tried to tell me that Mom wouldn’t want me to treat Ed the way I have been. That was the last straw. I told Rick he had no right, it wasn’t his mother that Ed was cheating on, so he had no idea how I was feeling, and until he could respect my anger and my feelings I didn’t want to hear from him. When I cried after that phone call Danny held me in his arms until my tears subsided.
Since Danny and I have been officially dating for a month, I decided to do something special to surprise him. He is always doing special things for me, and I decided it’s my turn. No matter how busy we are running Millennium, Danny always has time for me. We have done some wonderful things. He takes me for long walks on the beach, he sends me flowers, he has romantic dinners set up in his office, even when the club is hopping, and we aren’t side by side, I can feel him and his love. I look across the room and there he is with those wonderful, expressive eyes full of the love he feels for me. Then he makes his way across the club, and we dance. Every night, no matter how busy the club is, Danny always makes sure we share at least three dances, one at the beginning of the night, one at the middle of the evening, and we always share the last dance of the night.
So, today, I have prepared a wonderfully romantic lunch, complete with candles and soft music, in my loft, just for us. I survey the room one more time, and check in the mirror one last time, making sure that my dress is just right, and that my loose curls are falling around my face in the way I know Danny loves. When I’m sure everything is perfect I leave my loft, and head to Danny’s office to retrieve him for his surprise.
I am so excited I can hardly breathe. I want Danny to be as excited when I take him back to my place. I am really nervous because I have decided that I am ready to take our relationship to the next level. So far all we have done is kiss, wonderful, deep kisses, but still only kissing. We have talked a lot and we both agree that we want to take this slow, and make sure everything is right before we make love. We’ve both waited this long and we don’t want to rush. I know in my heart that Danny is the one I want to give myself to body and soul and I’m sure he feels the same about me, but it makes me love him even more to know that he wants to wait. I think the time is right to move beyond the kissing stage, I know we aren’t ready for the final step, but I know that I can’t stand one more day without at least having Danny touch my body. I feel like a teenager again, getting all excited about going to “second base”, but I just know it’s right.
I’m outside the door of Danny’s office, taking one final breath to calm my nerves when I hear what sounds like laughter coming from inside. I think it’s strange, I know Danny’s schedule and he didn’t have any meetings today, that’s why I planned our lunch. When I open the door I feel like I am dying a slow death. How could I have been so wrong? It’s like my father all over again. Danny is in his office, and I did hear laughter. He’s holding a beautiful woman in his arms, holding her so tight.......they are laughing, and happy. How could I have been such a fool? I thought he really loved me, now I see him here with this beautiful dark haired woman in his arms.
Before I realize it, I scream, “God, No, not you to Danny!”
Once the words are out of my mouth I turn and run, back to my apartment. I hear Danny’s footsteps chasing after me.
What is he saying?
“Michelle, baby, come back! WAIT, Michelle, WAIT. It’s not what you.......”
