Have Faith In Me
Parts 1-2
By Kelly
This can't be happening to me, somebody please wake me up, stop this nightmare. She buries her head in her pillow, but the pounding on her door doesn't go away.
"Michelle, Honey, please let me in, we need to talk about this."
"You stay away from me, I hate you! How could you even think of talking to me after what you have done."
Great, he doesn't listen either, he just walked in I head the door open, now he's sitting on my bed, brushing my hair.
"Michelle, please, let me try to explain, we need to help each other through this."
I turn to look at him, and can't believe what I see, this is not the man that I have loved, he's a mess, his shirt is wrinkled and buttoned wrong, and then I spot it the lipstick all over his shirt, my eyes trail to his face and his lips are smeared with her lipstick too. I take a deep breath, and I smell her perfume all over his body. "Right," I think to myself, he doesn't want to help me he wants me to absolve him of his guilt, there will be no absolution for this man! He just killed my mother, as sure as if he had held a gun to her head and pulled the trigger.
"Oh, Daddy, you are sorely mistaken if you think I am going to let you help me with anything. You have some nerve coming in here still reaking of your slut, and feigning grief, you killed Mom and I will hate you until you die for it. I know she saw you, that's why she was speeding away from the hospital and crashed her car in that tree. Damn you! How dare you come in here looking for comfort, or offering to help me. You disgust me, I refuse to be in the same house with you. You didn't love my mother, if you had you wouldn't have been screwing that whore."
He looks at me shocked, "You mean...Honey, it's not what you think," his voice trails off
"Oh yes, Mom wasn't the only one who saw you, I don't know what exactly she saw, but I saw the whole show, I saw you and her on your desk! I'm an adult Dad, remember, 21 years old, so I know exactly what was happening. I saw you sucking her boobs and running your hands on her body, sticking your fingers inside her, her hips writhing with pleasure, and then I saw the final move, you shoving your dick in her, are you proud of yourself? Was she such a good lay you couldn't take the time to take your pants all the way off, and you just had to spread her on your desk? Or was that just your second go 'round?" I spit the words at him, he looks like he's been slapped.
"Michelle, no, no, no....I'm...."
"Don't you even say it you are not sorry, you were loving it, I heard you moaning, telling her how good she was, the best you had ever had. I never want to speak to you again." I pick up my purse and run out of the house to my car, I have to get out of here away from this man, who is no longer my father. In one single moment he destroyed my life, he took my mother away, I know she must have seen the scene I witnessed, because she was at the hospital before I was. How can I ever trust a man, all men are probably just like him, they pretend to be these family men in love with their wives and then go off and fuck whoever they want. I thought my parents had love, I had known about dad's past, the women, the booze, but he was over that, he was supposed to love my mom, instead he killed her. I will never let that happen to me, my mom gave herself to my dad completely, no man will ever have me. I will be like my father, just use men to satisfy my animal lust, have a good time and then move on, from this day on, my heart is closed.
It's raining so hard, I need to slow down, but I can't I'm so mad, and hurt, I want to get as far away from the house as I can as fast as I can. I can't see where I'm going, there is a curve coming up I think, damn where is it? I see it too late, I hit my breaks to slow down, but it's so slippery from the rain, I can't, I start to skid, I scream, "God no!", I manage to miss the oncoming car, but run off the road. Oh no, I think the other car ran off the road too, what have I done, did I let my father ruin another life?
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I hate driving in the rain, especially at night. I see an oncoming car, it's loosing control, it's heading right for me, I swerve to avoid it, but I'm too late.
"Damnit," I say to myself, that fool ran me off the road, I check to make sure I'm not hurt. Stupid idiot was probably drunk, well, I have a few things to say, at least they didn't just take off. I throw my car door open and storm over to the other car. Well, it's a woman I think to myself seeing the most beautiful mass of honey-golden curls I have ever seen surrounding a head resting on the steering wheel. "Stop it Santos, the stupid woman just ran you off the road." Regaining my thoughts, I wonder if she is hurt. I reach the car at the same time she opens the door and the sight I see both takes my breath away and breaks my heart. She is the most beautiful woman I have ever seen, tiny, petite, with a delicate face, and the most soulful, beautiful brown eyes. I feel myself getting lost in those eyes, then I see the pain there, and the tears in them, her face is tear streaked, her nose red from crying. No wonder she ran me off the road, she's been devastated by something and all I want to do is take her in my arms and take away the pain. When I find out who broke this beautiful woman's heart I will make the suffer. Finding my voice, I ask, "Are you all right?"
She speaks, an angel to my ears, her voice soft, yet full of emotion, "I'm so sorry, are you hurt? Please tell me you are OK, did I hurt your car. Oh God, I'm so so sorry, I can't believe I did this, if something bad had happened to you I don't know what I would have done."
She begins to sob, and suddenly she begins to collapse, I catch her in my arms and she clings to me, sobs wracking her small body. I just hold her, rubbing her back, letting her cry. Her sobs begin to subside, "Are you OK," I ask.
"I'm sorry, I don't even know you, I shouldn't be doing this."
"No, it's OK, can I help?"
Who is this wonderful man? He is so handsome, he takes my breath away, he has every right to be screaming at me, and what does he do? He holds me in his arms and lets me cry, he wants to take care of me. I want him to take care of me, I want him to make my pain go away. The voice in my head kicks in, "Stop it Michelle, he's a man, what happened to the resolve you had about never trusting a man?" I start to pull away from him, but my heart won't let me, I know this man won't hurt me, he can be my friend and maybe more, I need someone to make me forget, he is just the man for the job.
"I think you can, if you don't mind. I don't think I should drive anymore, can you give me a lift?"
"You bet, where were you heading?" What I really want to ask is who hurt you so much? Can I take away your pain? Do you believe in love at first sight? Can I hold you in my arms forever?
"Ummm, do you know where the lighthouse is?"
"Yes, is that where you were heading?"
"Yes, I need to go there, if it's not too much trouble."
"No, not at all, I don't have anywhere else I need to be." My mind is racing. Who is this angel? I am going to take away her pain, I will take care of her, I will never let anyone hurt her again. "By the way, my name is Danny, Danny Santos."
"Hi, I'm Michelle Bauer. Nice to meet you, and thanks for helping me."
"I'm happy to do it, do want to take my car or yours?"
"How about we pull my car in this parking lot and we take yours, if you don't mind, Danny"
"I don't mind at all, let's get you out of this rain. Come on."
We park her car, and I lead her to mine, for some strange reason I take her hand in mine, and it fits perfectly. I know in that instant that I have found my heart, now I just have to convince her. We arrive at the lighthouse, by now we are both soaked to the skin, and she is shivering.
"Michelle, you're freezing, do you have any dry clothes here?"
"Umm, yes I do, I think I might have something here you can where to, if you don't mind my brother's old sweats."
"No, that would be great, thanks."
Michelle goes to the bathroom to change, while I change in the main room of the lighthouse. I try to calm my racing heart, and head, but it's no use, I am lost, I am totally in love with a woman I have know less than an hour. She comes back in the room and my breath is taken away again.
"Michelle, do you want to tell me what happened to you? Who hurt you, can I help?"
She doesn't say a word, she just walks to me and seizes my mouth with hers, pushing her tongue in my mouth.