The Song Challenge
Don't Close Your Eyes
By Sonja
WARNING BEFORE YOU READ!!!!
This it my song fic for Heather the wonderful's challenge..... but it is not your typical fic, it involves Ray and Michelle.... so STOP now if you are faint at heart.... or just plan don't want to read a MAY fic!!
The song is by Keith Whitley "Don't Close Your Eyes"
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Setting: After the park confrontation and goodbye
Danny called Ray telling him that he was leaving for good this time. Asking Ray to watch out for Michelle's safety.
A WEEK LATER:
Michelle in the mean time has decided to live life on the edge and heads on over the "Ace of Hearts" a country dive in downtown Springfield.
The music was loud the people even louder, making her head hurt more than it already was. I should never have begged him like that, I should never have laid my heart out to have it stomped all over.
A man came up and asked for a dance, which she promptly refused. Maybe this wasn't such a wonderful idea. Leaving just as she came in sober and still with a profound sense of loss she wonders if it will ever go away. Stop it Michelle not now, you will not cry, you will not break down NOT NOW!!
Walking to her car, she noticed that her left front tire was flat. Good grief what could be next, sure enough getting into the car the first thing she noticed was the cell phone missing.
"Damn, Damn, Damn," eyes glazing over with unshed tears she got out and started back into the club to use their phone.
She placed four phone calls one to her house for Meta or Abby, the hospital for Rick, Bill who was off with Pilar, and Drew. No one was around to answer her phone calls.
Picking up the phone with trembling hands she dropped her change in and called the only other number she knew. He answered on two rings, told her to stay inside the bar and he would be right there.
He was there in ten minutes "Michelle are you alright, did the police come?"
"Slow down Ray, I havent called the police yet because I dont care tonight. I am so tired of caring Ray & just so tired and I don't want to talk about him tonight. Plus, Danny gave me that car and I say let them have the whole damn thing.
"You know that he is gone Ray, so don't pretend otherwise okay."
"Come on Michelle let me take you home."
"NO! Not yet maybe never, take me to your house Ray, I don't want to go home and have to face Rick's "I told you so" okay?"
He knows this is not a good thing, but cannot stop himself from giving in and saying yes.
Damn you, Danny why would you give her up, if I were in your shoes and had Michelle's love. He stopped his thoughts again; he had been down this road ever since he had first met her. He thought he had put a halt to his feelings, marked them down to lust or not having a woman since deciding to become a priest. What ever it was that he thought he had stopped was back ten fold now, with her sweet scent surrounding him in the car. A silent prayer slipped across his lips, "Father please give me the strength."
Beethoven symphony no. 9 echoing throughout the car her head back onto the seat eyes closed listening to the music totally relaxed.
Flipping on the light just inside the door he welcomed her to his humble abode. Laughing at him she started moving around the living room taking in the masculine room consisting mostly of brown and well brown. Walking over to the stereo she turned it on and the soft sounds of music vibrated through the room.
Turning she went to look out the window, she hadnt realized just how high they were up. The skyline was beautiful almost haunting with it's lights twinkling in the distance. She wondered if all those people had dreams that had suddenly been ripped from them and how did they cope if so.
Startled from her thoughts by Ray's voice asking if she was okay?
He was so close to her only an inch or two of space between her back and his front.
"Michelle are you okay?"
He accidentally brushed against her and felt himself become instantly aroused.
He wanted, Lord knew how he wanted to bury his hands in that mass of curls, to turn her around and kiss her.
"Michelle" he said becoming aware that she stood very still in front of him.
Still she hadn't turned and he didn't move.
He had never in his whole life wanted anything so badly as he wanted Michelle to touch him.
The silence was deafening even the music from the stereo was lost to them.
"Michelle, I should take you home, but before I do, I have to ask you for one thing,"
"What?" but she knew,
"I have to kiss you. Just once...Please, Michelle&&"
She turned slowly and her gaze collided with his, she smiled "One kiss and that is all?"
His mouth captured hers; he tasted her with his tongue. He moaned as she let out a soft whimper, cupping his face in her hands, she forced him to deepen the kiss.
Her fingertips made their way down the back of his head, holding him.
As if he could let her go.
"Michelle" he whispered pulling her away
"Ray please...I don't want to stop. Please make love to me."
He uttered a single word "Yes"
He knew this was her way of trying to forget Danny and that she would just be using him. But he was unable to stop, not when she looked at him with such a mixture of pain and passion. He felt needed, really needed something that he hadnt felt since his childhood. The voices of reason had disappeared and he threw caution to the wind.
The sounds of a song flowed through the room...as he pulled her over by the couch.
I know you loved him
A long time ago
Michelle heard the words and closed her eyes, as Ray's mouth moved down from her face to the curve of her throat.
Somewhere in the back of her mind, a warning that this was wrong, that she should stop.
Even now in my arms
You still want him I know
He knew she was having second thoughts, he could feel the change in her body. Looking into her eyes the words of the song beating between them.
But darlin' this time let your memories die
He wants me; I see it in his eyes. So different from Danny...NO, this is not the time for rationalizing; it was a time for feeling.
It was all about lust, pure and simple.
He pulled her against his chest, his hands roaming down her back to cup her behind; pulling her up against him.
Lifting her shirt over her head, he fumbled with the clasp of her bra. He reached out running his fingertip down from her neck ending at her nipple. She moaned as he stroked her, squeezing it lightly between his fingers. He was rewarded with her gasp.
Pulling her face up to look at him he let the words of the song speak for him.
When you hold me tonight
Don't close your eyes
Arching toward him he leaned down taking her breast in his mouth teasing her. Her eyes closed and he jerked her up, her eyes snapping open.
Don't close your eyes
Let it be me
Don't pretend it's him in some fantasy
Darlin' just once let yesterday go
And you'll find more love than you've ever known
She whimpered at the intensity of his gaze. He moved his hand down and unbuttoned her pants, his mouth still on her body. He lowered them and she stepped out of them. He looked down at her; she took his breath away standing there in front of him in nothing but her panties. His fingers slid beneath them and found her hot and wet.
Just hold me tight when you love me tonight
She grabbed for him then, fumbling with his jeans helping him pull them down. Reaching out she slid her hands inside his boxers stroking him and hearing his breath coming faster.
His eyes staying on hers silently begging her.
Don't close your eyes
He swung her around and laid her back onto the couch. His thoughts going back again to the first time he saw her, how much he wanted her then and realizing it was a hundred times worse now.
"You want me?" he asked knowing that Danny was and would always be a ghost between them.
Trying to banish these thoughts, but the song wouldn't let him. It crept into his mind.
Maybe I've been a fool
Holding on all this time
Right here in your arms
Knowing he's in your mind
"Oh, God, yes," reaching up to pull his head down to hers "Please, now."
She hadn't bargained on the force of her own lust, her self- control crumbling beneath his piercing gaze.
Yet she should have known.
He was different.
But I keep hoping someday that you'll see the light
He heard her words and had a moment in thought that he could still stop this...but it was replaced by a groan as he sank into her.
Let it begin tonight
Don't close your eyes
"Yes," she breathed, and he thrust into her, slowly and smiled when she tightened around him. Throwing her head back her eyes closing.
He saw this...and lifted himself until he was almost withdrawn. This time driving himself in to the hilt.
Don't close your eyes
Let it be me
Don't pretend it's him in some fantasy
Darlin' just once let yesterday go
And you'll find more love than you've ever known
Her eyes opened in shock, screaming out in ecstasy, she clutched his back pulling him deeper still.
Just hold me tight when you love me tonight
And don't close your eyes
They found joy in each other's arms, murmuring her name against her throat, he collapsed on top of her. She caressed his hair allowing herself to collect her thoughts, neither of them saying a word&&.. the last of the song humming through the room.
Just hold me tight when you love me tonight
And don't close your eyes
The ringing of the phone interrupted their musings.
Ray leaned over picking up the phone.
"Hello...No nothing to report on... Yes I have been doing as you asked... Why the change in plans?" Sitting up "Like hell... She wouldn't... Damn it, okay see you soon..."
Hanging up the phone he turned and looked at Michelle knowing what he must do.
"Michelle that was Danny he is on his way back from California"
"Ray?" confused by the tone of his voice.
"He is coming back for you. To protect you, from his mother."
"What?" still confused not understanding him.
"It was great Michelle, now go home and wait for Danny...I won't say a word if you don't."
He walked over to the phone and called her a taxi.
Totally numb with shock she bent and picked up her clothes throwing them haphazardly on. Picking up her purse she watched as he stood staring out the window.
Oh my God, what happened, does he think I took this lightly.
Walking to the door pulling it open, she turned and called his name.
He turned looking at her with a blank face.
She can't help wondering where the man from a while ago was.
"Ray one last thing before I leave I want you to know...I didn't close my eyes." closing the door behind her.