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All original compositions of Alvin Chua Kim Leng. All rights reserved. Copyright @. Not for commercial use of any kind.

ABSENCE

Hark!

What sorrows pierced through the silence

Of the night

And of what grandiose measure has this cloak of darkness

Cascaded upon my heart.

For the Queen of my kingdom has abandoned it and made it a desert

And Misery has usurped my throne of serenity.

Solace thus dwells not in this piteous heart of mine

And bated is my breath as my arms embrace

Emptiness instead of her.

Oh! How art thou Loneliness, my friend?

For we have met again

And of what great length thou shalt stay this time

With the agonizing absence of my Queen?

Pray tell me�

Loneliness, my friend

Pray tell me�

FOR YOU

Comforting me with the touch of your hand

Heaven is here I have to confess

Amidst the myriads stars and you

Recurring images so beautiful

Like the dream of a child new born

Your faith in me has become strong

Nightingales sing as I lay to rest, nights like these shall never end

ANGEL

Sing to me, sweet little angel

The Hymns of Love I die to hear

Bestow me words of strength

So I may walk this path of thorns

Through the melancholic realm

I saw nothing, felt nothing

But amidst it all

Light of your cherubic being shines�

Chasing away the darkness around me

Again

And again�

Gib Mir Kraft

Engel

Gib Mir Kraft�

Note: Gib Mir Kraft means "Give me strength" and Engel is "Angel" in German.

CAGED

Feast upon the Stygian sky

Its beauty captures my soul and mind

Why has life forsaken me?

To cage me in and not be free

To be with her, to stay with her

I really do miss her

Wishing her to be by my side

Enjoying with me the celestial sight

ECHOES

Bleeding tears on my gloomy cheeks

The hole in my soul is abyss deep

Shout into it and you will hear

The echoes of my inner fears

Food for Thought:

" Where the Hell would you go?

If there is no Heaven at all ?"

AGONY

Bleeding within

Hiding without

The pseudo smile I�m giving the crowd

Dying within

Laughing out loud

No one knows the feelings I shroud

STAY

Stay with me through this winter night

Tell me now that you�ll be mine

Alleviate the pain I keep inside

Your love will make me warm alright

On a hot day:

" Lousy Sun on a lousy day,

lousy butches blocking my way...."

Materialistic Decay

What can I give?

What can I do?

What price of love that is bought and sold?

Tell me now

Tell me how

The world of material riches spinning round

Inevitable downfall

Open eyes to see me crawl

What can I give?

What can I do?

But to suffer this minute of materialistic decay

LOST

I hurt myself to sleep

I know the cut is deep

The pain has made us weak

Yet this heart of mine still bleeds

For the love of the one I have lost

For the sake of the painful thoughts

I cry myself to sleep

While the hurt still lingers deep

THE WEEPING WILLOW

Once I slept beside a willow tree, bathing myself in the moonlight.

The overhanging canopy swayed like an ever-reaching hand to the sky.

Seemingly, its attention was focused on one particular star among the myriad rest.

And through the silent breeze the tree he spoke to me of his grief:

 �My roots are too 

deeply buried, even though my yearning for that star is strong.

I have long yielded to the soil beneath me, the source of my very existence.

But beautiful is the Star, her smile chasing away the shadows I did cast in the day.

And when the dawn breaks and she is gone, I bend low my head.

In sorrow and in shame.

The wind they come to cheer me, and tickle me my side.

But nothing seems to alleviate except this angel of the night.�

How sad it is to love but only from a distance, gapped by a space of limitations 

and obligations.

�Who will be my star tonight and many moons to come?� I asked myself as an 

unnatural throb aches my chest. Hand to my heart, I soon realized that I suffer the 

same plight as this piteous tree.

The Fly

Like a fly you move

From shit to shit

You amuse yourself with pieces of it

Without guilt, you flap your wings

In search of another piece

Flowers to you but it's crap to me

You know not how it stinks

A Tree Am I

Mistakes made I realize not

Perpetual sleep I wake up not

Barren land I stand upon

Awaiting the lightening and thunderbolts

Down

Down, down, down

My head is spinning round

Round, round, round

My tears are flowing down

Frown, frown, frown

Ain't it all a bleeding shame to frown as I go

Down, down, down

On my way to hell

Mingled With Eternity

I'm not a toy

I can walk

I can fight

And I won't rot

Putrefaction I afraid not

Cause I've got a heart of steel

That's strong and hot

I won't break but only bend

Deeply am I rooted in the blackened sand

Hack me with your axe

I do not scream

Cause I am Eternity

And it is me

Can you see the pceies in my mnid?

Of borekn thugohts and cnfoused lines

Nowhere to turn and nwheore to run

Forever in this jigsaw mind

Uttered wrods and snetneces lost

Saying thnigs my brain knows not as

Each of the portoins can't be fitetd, into a solid piece

IN DARKNESS WE DWELL

Dark is the night

And black is my soul

In Acheronian nights, our lust unfolds

Cold is the blade

And warm is the blood flow

We flagellate ourselves

We desecrate our souls...

SAIL AWAY

Sail away on the Waves of Despair

Drown within the tears that once cared

Love had blinded me so much

As flowers wilt from my touch

Far away in the Sea of Madness

Struggle against the fears you know not

I have lost the will to live

As life have nothing left for me

Except you, my Hope

But now that you've left me too

 Home?

"It's not what you do to your house but the people living in it that makes it a beautiful place."

Words That Hurts

"When someone tries to argue with you, do not shout back in anger. For words propelled by rage are blades that cut both ways."

MEMORiES

Yellowed pictures of days gone by,
Of diapers, balloons and lullabies
Sweetest reminiscence of childhood friends
The warmest embrace I did give them
Faded, faded...
With bated breath I miss these memories
Watching them as time erodes them one by one.

IF I EVER...

If I ever die

Let my body lie

Buried six feet under

As all the creatures cry

If I ever die

To you I shall fly

Not like butterflies

But with teardrops in my eyes

Filth

"You are the silk and I am the mud

That dirtied you so much."

My Behind

A peace of mind is a piece of my behind

Is that yours I'm scratching?

It sure ain't a piece from mine.

Untitled

Faraway in distant land

A King is without a Queen

For in his throne he sits alone

With empty thoughts and an aching heart

WALLS APART

I looked at you from a distance far

Divided by walls, we stood apart

Grasping emptiness instead of you

Forever reaching but never will

MAD COW (Moo...)

Look upon the stars that shine

Around the biscuit moo...n tonight

Mad cows moving around in flight

Jumping over the moo...n in sight

Why? Oh why?

The cows have lost their minds.

A LEAF AMONG THE LEAVES

To have fallen and drifted onto the stone cold path

To have been crushed by an old man walking by

I screamed out to be saved

I reached out through the haze

Yet in the caress of the pale moonlight

A little girl came this way tonight

From the floor she picked and held me tight

She brought me along for a pocket ride

But as I looked back again in time

I saw that old man sweeping by

Cleaning away the traces of life

Cleaning away those friends of mine

(Won a poetry award with this one many years ago)

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