I watch the rabbits playing
I think the squirrel is saying,
"Maria won’t you sing for me?"
I see the robins flying
It seems the wind is crying,
"Maria won’t you sing for me?"
Sing, oh won’t you sing for me, Maria?
Maria, sing
Sing, oh won’t you sing for me, Maria?
Maria, sing
Now the trees are swaying
I hear the leaves all saying,
"Maria won’t you sing for me?"
I’m in the sunshine basking
I dreamed that I was asking,
"Maria won’t you sing for me?"
Sing, oh won’t you sing for me, Maria?
Maria, sing
Sing, oh won’t you sing for me, Maria?
Maria, sing
I’ll not see you now
Not in waking hours, not anyhow
But where’s the loss?
I’m the last one you’d see again
And so I’ll keep your memory
Lost in time
Pictures and imaginings
From that fall
Innocence awakening
In my mind
Everything I thought you were
And not at all
So, now you’re dead to me
But I can’t be that mean
That line I never crossed
Though it’s one I’ve sometimes seen
And so I’ll keep your memory
Lost in time
Pictures and imaginings
From that fall
Innocence awakening
In my mind
Everything I thought you were
And not at all
I’ll not see you
I’ll not see you
Everything I thought you were
Not at all
Everything I thought that was
Not at all
You were fifth grade, second base
Playing with the boys
Marie, they neglected you
Once they left their toys
You were in the shadows
Wish that I’d been there
Had a beauty all your own
Wish that you had known
I just came to say it didn’t fade
Marie, find your beauty
And your fate
Someonetold you long ago
You had no voice of your own
Marie, you believed them
I’m here to say they're wrong
Marie, find your own voice
The beautiful one I’d heard
It’s been so long
But it’s not been too long
I just came to say it’s not too late
Marie, find your own voice
And your fate
Marie, find your own voice
The beautiful one I’d heard
It’s been so long
But it’s not been too long
I just came to say it didn’t fade
Marie, find your own voice and your fate
Marie, find your own voice and your fate
Such a gray day
A hundred percent chance of rain
I’m crying cause I’m sad
That I caused so much pain
Then you called, just to say you get me
And you love me for who I am
You brought sun showers
What I always wanted to be
Smiling and crying
Raining down on me
It’s a beautiful morning driving
Through the gray small hours
Then I see a rolling meadow
Under a blanket of flowers
And a faint smile comes upon my face
And the first warm drop of sun showers
You gave sun showers
What I always wanted to be
Smiling and crying
Raining down sun showers
Thought you were my twin
The one from that crazy dream
But it was only in my head
Where nothing’s much how it seems
Didn’t say goodbye, but you gave me the reason
Still I don’t know why, you came to me for a season
And you brought sun showers
What I always wanted to be
Smiling and crying
Raining down on me
You gave sun showers
What I always wanted to be
Smiling and crying
Raining down sun showers
Raining down on me
Raining down on me
Wish you knew God
and how much he loves you
and you’d not remember
I put me above you
Wish it was okay that I loved you
and how much I miss you now
When I said I was sad
you missed me before
wish you knew how bad
I wanted more
And I wish I knew what to do now
If you were Heathcliff, what’s does that leave?
Is that what’s the matter with me?
Gorgeous was something I just wanted to be
Wish you knew me
and knew that I loved you
and you’d not remember
I put me above you
Wish it was okay that I loved you
and how much I miss you now
Though I’d still be sad,
wish you missed me again
I know there’s a heaven
but until then
Wish I knew what to do now
Wish it was okay that I loved you
and how much I miss you now
You were afraid
Of hurting my feelings you said
But after awhile you told me
You were Heathcliff instead
We’d talk about it later
You told me that too
But who was I
If Heathcliff was you?
If he was you
I was no one back then
Lonelier than written
An imaginary friend
Made up in pain
When they’d make her bend
When it was all too much
She would pretend
He would love her till the end
You were afraid
Of hurting my feelings you said
But after awhile you told me
You were Heathcliff instead
You called Catherine vain
I didn’t agree
That’s what you meant
When you feared that you’d hurt me
So I was Cathy
And you Heathcliff
In our pain
And loneliness
You went away
And we’d both pretend
But he’d come back later, in the end
Do you think if I fall to pieces
I will change?
I’d think you would know better
And that I’ll never change
Cause of all the things you know
You thought I did too
I do recognize this pattern
And it hurts of course
But if you would break it
It would be much worse
I wish I could write a song
To make you understand
And you would love me
But I can’t
Cause of all those things
You thought you knew
I’m not saying
I don’t deserve to suffer
But who deserves love the least,
That’s who needs it most
So, forget those things you thought you knew
And just love me too…
I do recognize this pattern
And it hurts of course
But if you would break it
It would be much worse
I do recognize this pattern
And it hurts of course
But if you would break it
It would be much worse
Like that palomino,
two days east of Albuquerque
I tried to break you
you alone, a mustang
in the tall grass near Cape Fear
but I never knew you
Like the wind coming off the ocean
you've come a long way
to reach these barrier islands
and no one will ever ride you
I followed you long as I could
and I alone as you
with the sand in my eyes, and my skin turning red
till I turned around, confused
not sure where I'd been led
Like the wind coming off the ocean
no one knows where you come from
or where you go
and no one will ever ride you
I think at times, to go back
to see you from a distance
and capture your soul in photograph
as you’ve captured my resistance
and I would that for a moment
you’d remember me
Like the wind coming off the ocean
no one knows how memory comes
or where at last it goes
or how perchance it guides you
Like the wind coming off the ocean
no one knows where you come from
or where you go
and no one will ever ride you
Like the wind coming off the ocean
no one will ever ride you
No one will ever ride you
Thought I told you go away
But I see that you’re still here
Don’t know should I laugh or cry
Or have another beer
You said that you were lonely
I’m lonely too
Why’d you tell me that?
I’ve no one here like you
When I read what you wrote
I got madder and madder
It wasn’t like that at all
Did it make you feel better?
You’re all up in my face
So intense, you wear me out
You tear yourself to pieces
What’s that all about?
I wish I coulda called you
All the times I wanted to
Life is sad, I’m over it!
What are you trying to do?
I’m tired, you’re so intense
Just go with the flow
We’re gonna end up not even friends
Where you trying to go?
You don’t have to call me
Don’t call me till then
I’ll miss you bad
But as long as we’re still friends…
What did you think of me
When I thought that we were twins?
More like polar opposites
Coming round again
You don’t have to call me
Don’t call me till then
I’ll miss you bad
But as long as we’re still friends…
I won't call you
Won’t call you till then
I’ll miss you too
But as long as we’re still friends…
I stand here listening
To the gurgling
Of a brook I cannot see
And realize
I’m not sad enough
For who I’m meant to be
So break my heart,
Leave me alone
I’ll hold out hope
Till it’s past time to go
A child again
I grasp the branch
Of a tree that takes me back
I’d climb it had I more time
And perchance no one would ask
Break my heart again,
Lead me back to where I’d been
Leave me no hope at all
That you’d come back again
Intimacy, my enemy
I don’t know why
I overlook the obvious
So oftentimes and sigh,
Break my heart,
Leave me alone
I’ll hold out hope
Till long since you have gone
Break my heart again,
Lead me back to where I’d been
Leave me no hope at all
That you’d come back again
Ashes to ashes
Dust to dust
The sand runs
And I'll be who I must
Same as I was then
What I thought I left behind
Years and miles ago
It's a beautiful drive
With the windows down
A beautiful day
For leaving town
Can't escape my fate
Leave him far behind
Though I thought I got away
But it was just the clouds that changed
Not me or him
And I am who I am
Ashes to ashes
Dust to dust
The sand runs
And I'll be who I must
Same as I was then
What I thought I left behind
Years and miles ago
It's a beautiful drive
And God smiles down
A beautiful day
Homeward bound
It's a beautiful drive
With the windows down
A beautiful day
To leave this town
You looked me up the other day
In your old yearbook
I didn't want to see but had to look
That's what I was hiding
That's what's really true
All those years I hid from you
Now, I know,
It flows both ways, the sand
But always leaking through my hands
Ashes to ashes
Dust to dust
The sand runs
And I'll be who I must
Same as I was then
What I thought I left behind
Years and miles ago
I was cryin' and typin',
Telling you goodbye
When I wanted you to stay
Unconditional love
Or so it seems
I have to let you go
If you’re weaker with me
I cried so hard
And I cried so long
Everything was blurry
The whole ride home
I’d been looking for you to validate me
And to prop me up
And so I sapped your energy
When your love was enough
What’s wrong with me
Will always be wrong with me
But I won’t again expect you to save me
Your love is enough
Your love is enough
I lay in bed
Half the night
Tossing and turning
Wondering
What it all means
And what is wrong with me?
I kept trying to figure out
If you liked me
And did you like me then
How was that final visit
Really meant to end?
Were you through with me
Or did I give up on you
When your love was enough?
I finally fell asleep
And found you again in restless dreams
Different places
But mostly just the way it seemed
Till at last I was alone
And received a telegraph from you
The writing was bad, but I could read it
“I love your smile and your eyes,
And I do love you too.”
And love is enough
What’s wrong with me
Will always be wrong with me
But I won’t again expect you to save me
Your love is enough
Your love is enough
They made a mess of me back then
And sometimes I forget
But part of me doesn’t want to
And doesn’t want to heal just yet
God, they made a mess of me
And I’ll NEVER be alright
Till the day you come back
Somewhere in my night
So I give in to sin
The way of a fool seems right to him
I’ll never get away
They made a mess of me back then
And I’m no less a mess today
I need it
I need it
I need,
And this need is killing me
Went out on a whim
My feet don’t fit no limb
Turned to her
When I should have turned to Him
Another rut, another fall
Shoulda turned to God
But turned to alcohol
I should gauge both my eyes
Cut off my parts and tear out my heart
But first destroy my mind
That’s the place to start
They made a mess of me back then
And sometimes I forget
But part of me doesn’t want to
And doesn’t want to heal just yet
God, I’ve made a mess of me
And I’ll NEVER be alright
Till the day you come back
Somewhere in my night
If I was healed
it would be like I lost something
Like something of mine
was taken from me
I would feel cheated
if I couldn’t tell people about it,
whine about it, cry about it,
remember well enough
to remember how bad it is;
have it to explain
why I have been
like I have been
all these years
and why I am
the way I am
An excuse, but more than that, a reason
And the vain hope people would feel sorry for me
I need it
I need it
I need,
And this need is killing me
a chalk outline of our love
a fossil of what God made me
a refusal to grow up
or to let you save me
be a boy, embrace my joy
protect what you gave me
fightin the way things work
as I’ve always done
but I know one thing
i know one thing
i know one thing
i know one thing
God loves me
and this ain’t a game
heard him say, “don’t go back
the same way you came”
i needed a new friend, I guess, all along
it seems to be you that I need
you talked like it hadn’t been three weeks,
and I’d done nothing wrong
i made the decision not to fight,
wandered alone forty years,
a wilderness I came to know and like
never turned and fought my fears
but I know one thing
i know one thing
i know one thing
i know one thing
God loves me
and this ain’t a game
heard him say, “don’t go back
the same way you came”
