I keep on drinking
In case I meet somebody here
Or especially if I don’t
Every day is just the same, but it’s okay
Just don’t say it’s just biology
Little do I know
I’m looking for something to write about
Anything at all
Just to make it all alright
I’m driving so fast, I’m laughing now
Like a blind girl on a roller coaster ride
I’m breaking the law
And I’m high
Back in the summer
Of eighty-three
Somewhat wild and crazy
Thinking I was free
Running from something
Didn’t know it was me
How did you like me, back in eighty-three?
I keep on drinking now
In case I don’t arrive
Or especially if I do
Every day is just the same, but it’s okay
Just don’t say I’m alive
Now that I know
I’m just looking for something to write
Too late to find something
To make me look alright
I’m driving so fast, I’m laughing now
Like a blind old man on a winding road
I’m breaking the law
And I’m high
But back in the summer
Of eighty-three
I was wild and crazy
Thinking I was free
Running from something
Didn’t know it was me
Driving round in circles
Back in eighty-three
Little girl on the side of the road
Could’ve been you a few years ago
A somewhat younger boy in tow
Shawn Johnson in a video
The one laughs, the other smiles,
So naturally
A boy like that is who you really need
But that boy was never me
I feel at times like I wasted your youth
Waiting for me here
There’s no meaning to a dream
Dreamed alone in fear
What happened to us?
What happened to me?
Me, that’s just a lie I told
You needed to believe
Many times, I’m not even here
I’m somewhere in my mind
Other times I’m chasing the drama
Instead of living life...
David was thirty-four
His oldest boy was five
When his wife, and his son
Had to say good bye
How could you stay away a minute
As long as he was here?
When it’s even hard to say so long
To someone not so dear
I feel at times like I wasted your youth
I wish that I had known
There’s no meaning in a dream
That you dream alone
What did I tell you bout us?
Who’d I say was me?
That was just a lie I told
You needed to believe
Most times, I’m not even here
I’m somewhere out of my mind
Chasing the drama inside my head
Instead of living life
I last saw you
On the side of the highway
As I pulled away slowly
And didn’t say goodbye
I did not look back
To see you fade in the distance
Could not watch you grow small
So much I could not face
May God keep you
Till you return to me
Pretty black-eyed Susan
Please come back to me
The cars and the grass
And the road all swayed
Waves of heat blurred the day
The air too hot, the sky too bright
Without you to cool my soul
Or to make it right
I gave you my hat
To shade you from the sun
You made me like myself
But only for so long
May God keep you
Till you return to me
Pretty black-eyed Susan
Please come back to me
Whenever I see those flowers
In the grass along the road
I can’t help but think
Back upon that June
May God keep you
Till you return to me
Pretty black-eyed Susan
Please come back to me
May God keep you
Till you return to me
Pretty black-eyed Susan
Please come back to me
Pretty black-eyed Susan
Please come back to me
I'm going to rattle on a bit
Unless you really mind
For I'm nothing more than seeds
Withered on the vine
I'm not the person I set out to,
Or even used to be
I tried to blame that on you
Or anyone but me
In the valley of dry bones
Where the vulture picks me clean
We're either living or we're dying
There’s no in between
In the valley of dry bones
Where the vulture picks me clean
We're either living or we're dying
There’s no in between
I tried to complain to God,
“God, I have been cheated”
“I won't argue that with you,
It’s you that you’ve defeated”
I've wasted all my time
On things that didn’t matter
All these things are not the same
Some of them are better
In the valley of dry bones
Where the vulture picks me clean
We're either living or we're dying
There’s no in between
I have failed my dreams for you
How it should have been
Too many times to think I’d make it
Better in the end
Now that I have taught you
All I didn’t want to know
Sifting through the crash site
How can I tell you where to go?
I want to run away with you
While there is time
Take you to a better world
Than the one I gave of mine
Sometimes sad is beautiful
Sometimes it’s just sad
I want to pick up the pieces
Of a broken life
Arise from the ashes
And wait for you to fly
When you’ve lost your horizons
All your bearings gone
Remember that I love you
And sometimes scars are songs
When your needle starts to spin
Maybe it’s you, and not the wind
Just relax and take the fall
You’ll not be here again
Sometimes sad is beautiful
Sometimes it’s just sad
So, go, pick up the pieces
No need to say goodbye
I must let go and trust in you
If I’m to let you fly
So, go, pick up the pieces
Consider this goodbye
I’ll let go and trust that you
Will start again and fly
So, here I am
In the Sargasso Sea
In the Horse Latitudes
Where the monsters be
In the air float vacant faces
Some scurrying
Some paralyzed
Some resigned to die
As for me
I’ve been here before
Lost my nerve,
Couldn’t throw them overboard
I watched it all in horror
But could not look away
Others did what I couldn’t do
I guess they saved the day
Ah, but now
I’m here again
Someone calls me captain
But I know that I’m not him
Cause I know
He was here before
He wouldn’t just watch this time
As they go overboard
Captain of my destiny?
I’m different than the rest
Gradually it dawns on me
That we’ve no horses left
No decision I can make
I call no orders out
In the air float angry voices
But I cannot make them out
Almost enough ballast gone
To slowly break us free
I know we need a little more
I fear that they’ll see me
Am I what holds us down?
My darlings left for dead
I’d thought that it was them
But it was me instead
Sometimes the current takes me slowly
The way I want to go
Sometimes it leads me toward the fall
I've no effect at all
All my life I cursed the current
And sometimes the other boats
Swift and sleek they sail away
Where they want to go
But every night I dream of home
Cerulean blue and midnight foam
And the sea within my blood
Calls to me, "take her out again"
Mariners from these same stars
Drew meaning I cannot see
Tiny holes in the blackness
So faint and random to me
Fear and chaos ebb and flow
Pirates board undetected
What hurts me most, what I don't know
My rudder is defective
But every night I dream of home
Cerulean blue and midnight foam
And the sea within my blood
Calls to me, "take her out again"
My sin has swallowed me completely
And only this remains
After all that's gone before
Pick me up again
Walk me down the ancient shore
Where you set my fathers free
Hold my hand like you did before
And tell me who I'll be
Wearing just my hoodie
My hair hangs in my eyes
I feel a single drop of rain
And breathe the cloudy skies
Okay, I took your song
One day I’ll give it back
And on that day, you'll find me
Standing on the tracks
In my dream I hear you saying
You’ve always been my friend
And I ask you if you want
To go through that again?
Just a leaf upon the branch,
Up against the skies
But in my dreams, I am the breeze
When you close your eyes
Wanting to be new again
Waiting to begin
Dying sun, a thin air shudder
Somehow not so tragic
Dusk as winter washes colors
Still just as magic
Dreamed I was the air,
No leaf in the wind
But dreaming of the pile below
I see myself again
In my dream I heard you say
You’ve always been my friend
I hear myself asking you
If you've come back again
Just a leaf upon the branch,
Up against the skies
But in my dreams, I am the breeze
When you close your eyes
Wanting to be new again
Waiting to begin
You’ve been trying not to care
Since they told you it don’t matter
They all think you just inane
But you’re mad as the hatter
On the verge of breaking down
Since that time in middle school
Since the time they made it clear
You’ll always be a fool
Just another useless song
No one will ever sing
Those you beg to play it for
Aren’t even listening
The same lame song you’ve been trying to write
Knowing you can’t sing
Told myself I'd climbed the mountain
Didn't go down in defeat
But the only thing I know for sure
Is I didn't reach the peak
It’s not too cold
But it’s really dark
And I’m looking for satisfaction
But I can’t even find my way
And I can’t get no traction
My feets can’t go
And my hands are cold
I’m falling down this mountain
You’ve been trying not to care
Since they told you you don’t matter
Standing there all alone
And looking at the batter
On the verge of breaking down
Since that time in junior high
Since the time you walked away
So they wouldn’t see you cry
Just another useless song
No one will ever sing
Those you beg to play it for
Aren’t even listening
The same lame song you’ve been trying to write
Knowing you can’t sing
Whatcha trying to tell me?
How does this apply?
Another verse, another curse
Another reason not to try
In fact it seems it’s getting worse
I’m angry all the time
But surely there’s a reason
God didn’t let me die…
Been high outside on cool days
And I’ve always loved the sorrow
Music takes me where few can go
And I still dream about tomorrow...
Wounded, and I’m cornered
Trying to get free
Looking to escape and find
A way to go in peace
Fearing that I’ll never be
More than I am now
I don’t know where I’d go
Should I escape somehow
Wild and wounded heart
Ragged, bruised and battered part
Just the torn and tattered chart
I’ve had since the start
Blood on my hiking shoes
Blood drips in my eyes
My dreams like apparitions
Crowd the windy skies
Night is falling, and it’s getting cold
Feels good to feel this low
There’s a comfort when you realize
You really just don’t know
Wild and wounded heart
Ragged, bruised and battered part
Just a torn and tattered chart
I’ve had since the start
Wild and wounded heart
Ragged, bruised and battered part
Left with just a tattered chart
To find my wayward heart
Mourning the death
Of the season newly passed
The year that went before
Yes I remember
They said it wouldn’t last
So many things now I’ll not
Be able to do again
The times I wasn’t there
Tucking my kids in
Black days always follow
Like the rain and wind
Chances I missed
Chances that are gone
Days now over
Hearts that moved on
Another lost child
Stumbling up the hill
Running from mistakes and fears
Falling down and lying still
I got Carole King
For when I’m feeling low
Not wanting to go lower
Nether Lands for the cold...
Chances I missed
Chances that are gone
Days now over
Hearts that moved on
I can see my lost child
Stumbling up the hill
Running from mistakes and fears
Falling down and lying still
He'll have Carole King
For when he's feeling low
Not wanting to go lower
Nether Lands for the cold
I never thought till now
Somehow I never thought
All that time spent thinking
All the while I was dreaming
Those dreams I never caught
I never thought I’d live this long
Gave the future second thought
Never thought I’d be this wrong
Write this song
Dreamed I could be bought
And sold for a pittance
Enclosed is my remittance
Spend it well
Your money is not good here
In heaven or in hell
More than half over
How much more I do not know
But it’s the places that I realize
Only now I’ll not go
Call it midlife crisis
A failure to move on
Felt like this since six or twelve
And probably all along
My face in the sun
My hair in the wind
My days full of promise
Of how I was to spend
My life without thinking
Those days would ever end
I never thought till now
Somehow I never thought
All that time spent thinking
All the while I was dreaming
Those dreams I never caught
Days of sandlot ball
And AM radio
Times passing in the hall
All those years ago
Not knowing what to say
And it still hurts today
In my heart and head
Find myself going back
Just a little further
When the nights weren’t so black
Chasing fireflies in the grass
With the girl across the street
Out late on summer nights
Life seemed so complete
My face in the sun
My hair in the wind
My days full of promise
Of how I was to spend
My life without thinking
Those days would ever end
My face in the sun
My hair in the wind
I remember the promise
Of how it was to spend
My life without thinking
Those days would ever end
