IM: weirdketika
email: [email protected]
unsafe, unreal, unconnected
we were too unsafe,
so unprotected,
but then again
that's the story of my life
didn't hold me back enough
wasn't restrained from myself
let the world have me
arms wide open
and they let me in to see it all
i joined a world that many do not know...
joined a life many would not like...
nocturnal, loving the night
nightlife is interesting indeed
as those around me are freaks
taught me things I never knew
took me out of my shelter
do I regret this, I"m not sure
should it have happened,
I think not...
but the poison was already inside my soul...
brought to my lips long ago
exposed,
unprotected to the world
i was left out in the open
and they took me in...
with arms wide open
and showed me life in a new dimension
Kiss the lips of a frog and try to make him a prince
see him turn into a toad... does it make you wince?
give a boy a lap dance to try to make him a man,
see him now regress in age, bear with it if you can
bite a toy and try to make him real, wait a few days only to see,
your toy is more a toy than before, its all he'll ever be...
french a dog if you will, see if you can make him change
realize he can never be more than another pain....
don't you see the cycles you run? don't you wanna pick up a gun...
and make it all go away... I'm here to hold you down
and to show you another way...
come to my arms, I'll set you free,
and bring back light to your days...
these boys here will beat you down, make you feel like a clown,
they will make you cry all day, come to me, I'll make it go away,
look to girls like me, know that we are here for you,
we'll take care of you, make sure you're safe
and protect you from all they may do.
they left me exposed
out in the open
did they not know
what this would lead to?
all alone
ignorant to the world
i fucked up real bad
can u blame me?
being blind
being stupid
i followed those i found
to trust the world
is a terrible thing
'cause the world will kill you
slowly but surely
maybe the world didn't kill me
maybe I killed myself
but why would i do that?
to kill oneself to feel loved...
untouched, unloved
I needed so much
yet got so little
I was dying inside
but not a word I said
quiet I was
about all I dreamed of
of the thoughts I had...
I wanted to die
I couldn't go on like that
with nothing, no feeling
it burnt me from the inside out
the scars still remain
my healer still must come
but the scars will remain
I wanted to be pretty
I wanted to be loved
I wanted so much
but so little I received
what I did for so little
I wanted to be pretty
I wanted to be loved
I sold my soul
to not be untouched
like a caged bird I sing now
do not fall the way I did
tears sting my eyes now
to remember what I did
to myself
but never again
don't leave me untouched
don't leave me unloved
or else it will be
like it was before
soldiers wave to me in the darkness
I see their light through the mist
but I should not go tonight
someone please help me resist
the promiscuous object of their affection
I am their source, their slave
someone rescue me from the hole I'm in
for their faces will always be grave
what would their fathers think of their actions?
although its not like my family even cares
to them I'm just another mouth to feed
they couldn't even pay my ticket fare
in a hellhole am I forever stuck?
does seem so with my everlasting luck...
I am the prostitute, they are the soldiers
our rendevous are secret, forbidden forever
I do what I can to please them
Did I dream to end up like this? never
this wasn't the life I dreamed for
this kills my mind so much, its too much to bear...
oh please, someone, end my misery...
won't anyone show that they care?
i"m the fucking whore that they need
to them I'm here to beg and please
its not like I wouldn't have ended up this way
being raised as another damn tease
so look down upon me now
as I lie on your floor
I am the bitch you wanted
could you ask for more?
so confused inside
unsure of where I'm going
I need a light
I'm torn up in my heart
I dream of comfort
warm arms protecting me
instead I find
people always using me
Do I really love him?
Or is it lust again?
Is the magic real?
Or am I lying to myself?
to force a fake happiness
meant to last
forevermore
but never can it be
that I will be loved
unless a wish be granted to me
from the boys that I love
the beauty of sunshine
I hold close to my heart
the beauty fo your soul
makes me fall apart
because I can never be
as wonderful as you are
I can't aspire to that extent
I'll never get that far
I try to be a good friend
as much as I can be
but sometimes I fail at this
because I'm so obscene
not a true prostitute
but something of the like
people don't seem to accept me
guess I'm too much of a dyke
no, wait, I should stop this
stop insulting myself
but its what they make me feel
tho its not good for my health
I see you and your smiling face
instantly I feel great joy
but darkness soon falls upon me
remembering I'm just a toy
so tell me now what you think
of who I really am
few people do I let judge me
so this proves you're a man
I'm not the girl next door
so innocent and so pure
that's not me at all
I wish there was a cure
for all the sicknesses I hold
underneath my skin
but inevitably there is nothing
so I just let them win
I am but a flower
delicate and most fragile
broken at the stem
when I was just a child
I cannot get back
what has been taken from me
so I write about everything
to let others see
but light will always prevail
in my heart and soul
'cause you brough sunshine back to me
when I was sick and cold
Hug me? Hold me? Heal me?
Maybe in your eyes a whore I may seem to be...
but I am a friend and more, you see...
so let me hold you in my arms,
good friend,
I'll be by your side until the end.
use me now
forget me later
i won't remember you
you won't remember me
this is our happiness
fuck without love
drugs without thought
tis our life
this wasn't our dream
not our future either
but it is what we do
now give me a drink
scream along to the lyrics
that deafen the world
live for men's pleasure
not for myself
live for the drink
and little else
fuck me now, maybe later
doesn't matter, just like your name
let me destroy myself
i love u,
u hate me,
u love her,
but she hates u,
she loves him,
but he hates her,
which brings u right back 2 me
--Chelsea
more than like
less than love
were you sent
from up above?
a dreamy guy
with hugs to spare
how could I ever
pretend not to care?
My love, dear babe
kill me if I hurt you
'cause your love for me
is always so true
your lips forbidden
your smile immaculate
best friends forever
always I'll love you like this
I beg you
please don't hurt me
I've been hurt before
please don't use me
unless I really want more
please don't understand
why I cry so much
just hold me in your arms
heal me with your touch
don't let them hurt me
or bring me down again
just keep me safe forever
or maybe just for now
hug me, hold me, heal me
for a ho I do not want to be
Hold me close
Caress my skin
Kiss my lips
Feel me within
I trust you with life
I love you with all myself
I want you forever
but I am scared to commit
Bring me joy
Bring me light
You hate the day
But you fill my nights
Dreams are how I see you
But in reality, you're unreal
Like an angel to me
In the body of a man
Tis a child in you as well
But I love him too
He makes my days interesting
With whatever he will do
How can you be all in one person
When you are so much in one
You give me confidence
And continue to amaze me
No one meets perfection
Least of all myself
But you bring a joy to my life
That outlives perfection in itself
We can dream a dream, we can wish a wish
nothing will ever be clear cut in stone
as we wait forever for a happier day
but dank darkness is all we find
the birds around us always cry
no food for them to eat tonight
the justification for this cannot be found
nothing is well in our lives at all
we're all starving in the streets
hoping and waiting for someone to come
but there is no one and nothing
the emptyness around leaves us cold
our worthless lives filled with sorry
because for us, our children, there is no tomorrow
run around naked
and act like a child
we're all real devilsh
as we run buckwild
no love involved
only pure lost
doesn't even matter
if each other we trust
fuck me now
cuz I'm your bitch
burn me tomorrow
'cause I'm a witch
satanic rituals
never out of fashion
rape each other now
with great passion