The Trials of Love and Lust....
Saviour

I cannot express in words
how your love affects me
within your eyes there is
a light that few can see

so I wonder now how they
can hurt you everyday
you're like a child who had to grow up
too quickly, in too many ways

hush now, sweet babe
do not shed another tear
I am here to save you
and push away your fears
Them

voices in her head
she cries everyday
wishing she was dead
he doesn't know what to say

their love forever?
wanting to be together
not like anyone'll remember
their love won't sever

she cries at night
he holds her tight
with herself she fights
so he asked her to write

her thoughts she pours out
tears flowing down her face
she wants to scream and shout
she feels so out of place


never will she forget
how he loved her so
but she will regret
the time when she'll go
Hoping for Forever

can't find words to say
trying to figure out my next move
my heart racing so fast
how will I pull of being smooth?

nervous, excitement, hope
so much lies inside
my heart you're seeking
and I can't find a place to hide

we dance the night away
to the music do we sway

please don't let this end!
I've never been so happy before
such joy flows through me
with each moment I love you more!
Because I'm Loved

I love you more with each day
I want to love you in every way
so nervous I don't know what to say
I must keep all other boys at bay

'cause they know not of us
with time you've earned my trust
we'll leave other lovers in the dust
our racing hearts not from lust

in your hands does my heart reside
in our game of love, I cannot hide
by your rules will I abide...
you've held me all the times I cried

so forgive me, love, if you I hurt
sometimes I'm a whore in a miniskirt
I hate the way I love to flirt
so when I'm bad, throw me in the dirt
Anguished Heart

Bring me to heaven
Then send me to hell
Sing me a song
Then bid me farewell

Be my saviour
Then leave me to die
You light my days
But darken my sky

You warm my heart
Then let it freeze
You are my cure
You are my disease

You lie in my soul
You tear it apart
I push you away
But the pain won't depart

Your love brings me agony
As does your sight
You may me feel envy
Bitterness and plight

HOW CAN I LOVE YOU
AND HATE YOU AS WELL?
WHY TAKE ME TO HEAVEN
THEN SEND ME TO HELL

I don't want to see you
Yet I need you by my side
The days that I laughed
The days that I cried

Just like a beautiful rose
That I once did adorn
I went to go touch it
And was sting by its thorn...
-- Jaymez
Apology

I am sorry for any pain I caused,
the tears I brough to your eyes,
I've not been a good girl at all,
I hide under this disguise,

A beautiful heart did I once have,
But I blackened it to harden,
To protect myself and my soul,
and my most delicate garden,

a garden of roses red,
they invigorate me so,
but to touch, they prick you,
so you must let them go,

I am not the flower child,
I once dreamed to be,
I am a temptress of a woman,
yes, that evil lies within me,

I cannot be good for any man's soul
for mine is tortured so well,
I worry of the pain I put you through,
I know it was probably hell,

I never meant to hurt you, love,
though now many tears I cry ,
for all the pain I've brought to you,
sometimes I think I should die,

rather than bring more agony to those I love, I see what I do everyday,
the evil within me grasps their hearts,
I hurt everyone in every way,

myself included, yes of course,
that is only most fair,
I'd rather break myself to pieces,
than on you hurt a single hair,

but sometimes I cannot control,
the way I act or feel,
'tis why I'm not a lady
I could never be genteel*,

I love myself, and I hate myself,
for all the good and evil I do,
I run to men in times of weakness,
that is sadly oh so true,

I love my friends with my heart and soul,
yet bring them so much pain,
so here I stand, my final vow,
no more of my silly game,

I cannot treat people as they treat me,
it isn't fair to them at all,
the hell I go through is my own,
don't catch me when I fall,

someday I'll learn to be a good strong soul,
but forever in me lies a great big black hole,

so look away, love, tis not the time
to see me as an angel,
I am a shewoman, a devil inside,
raised from the depths of a well,

look at me not for I will steal your soul,
just pass on word that I exist,
so I can lure others into my big black hole,

I am no angel, I am no queen,
I am not even pretty or clean,

so look away, go away,
spare yourself this pain,
evil manifests in me,
leave me in the cold rain,

let the demons have me now,
tis my time to depart,
I am not a good person at all,
because I broke your heart.

*genteel - Old English
Forbidden Love

touch your lips to mine
a forbidden kiss
show another sign
of neverending bliss
love is for the cowards
I do not commit
gaze into your eyes for hours
in them, flames are lit
I touch your sweet soft skin
with my fingertips
how long has it been
since I kissed your lips?
don't leave me forever
and try to come back again
but we can't stay together
its not like it was then
love is too weak of a word
to describe what we feel
and like a broken bird
I must still be healed
are you my healer?
with your warm touch...
I don't want to be her
'cause I'm nothing much
You

hold me, love me
what about you?
show you I love you
brisk morning run
to forget any pain
we sing together
while dancing in the rain
I love you more
with each passing day
just promise me
you'll never go away
My Love

my love, with each kiss
I dream of tomorrow
lost in eternal bliss
I feel no sorrow

when you hold me, I feel joy
in your arms, I know I'm protected
your company forever do I enjoy
just promise me you won't leave me neglected

I want to love you the best that I can
I may be slow to trust you, I've been hurt before
I love the way you are, a grown young man
if love was a bird, I only hope it will soar

your kisses on my lips like warmth from the sun
hold me forever, my heart you have won
you fill me with so much love, I've put away my gun
I pray this won't end, taht we won't lose this fun

love and lust, I can finally tell them apart
I'll die if you ever hurt me
because I've let you into my heart
you have reopened my soul and let me see

somehow I know this was meant to be
Enjoy Now
forbidden love, everylasting joy
make these moments last
for as long as deemed possible
pray that slowly these times will pass

nothing lasts forever
I reflect with grief
but that's alright
cuz you stole my heart, you thief

kisses and laughter
invest in all this fun
never say it matters
until all is said and done

movies one night, a party the next
frolic gayly in our hearts
these times truly are the best
even when we're apart

show me you love me
never make me cry
I could never stop loving you
unless to me you lie
Love

love, peace, tranquility
time spent apart
makes times together better
dreaming of tomorrow
forgetting woes of yesterday
enjoy all the moments of today
'tis not unreal for once
tis all I can want and more
hope this bliss does not end
can only dream of the day's events
little more do I want
besides the freedom I do not receive
what freedom do I ask of?
the freedom to travel as I please
freedom from love I do not desire
onlly freedom to be me
awkward moments we will overcome
oppression from society we will face
the wrath of parents we shall endure
all for the survival of love
tomorrow promises greatness
yesterday we must forget
and today is the essence of all joy
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