im fucking done with this thing we call life i dont want to make the commitment to go anywhere to go to school to wake up its too much pressure i did it again i hurt someone i dont know how much of this i can take anymore i want to end it cut off my conections with the world be immersed in my world for more then 5 minutes i want to make a change im going to make a change i will pull life by its strings once like i did in grade 5 i did what i wanted it took a toll on my health but i want freedom im craving it i need it now if it doesn't come ill make it as life is short so make your self known right so rebel focus on your dreams instead of the inevitable the reason we think so little about death is because we fear it yet we want relief the pleasure of death is a lot for a man to take  but sometimes its worth too take that risk of not being alone and isolated the feeling of the earth revolving around you heck its so much power but its miserable and life breaking its insane too think about your self in this preswnt day its hard to be kind yet its easy to not give 2 shits on what people think which one will you take the path of selfishness or positivity i took the first option as i gave up on living long ago heck 2 years ago it was in grade 5 i broke myself n it was grade 4 this hole hell hole called my mental health died it vanished i got suspended over and over yet i gave no care to it yet it wrecked me and my reputainion as a hole now im just that one kid who has anger issues or some bull shit yet i dont give a shiti cant i phisicly cant care for people at this point its either a illusion or real theres only one fucking instance i care about someone but ive already talked about that so fuck you mr walsh if i had my chance i would of broken your reputation your life and your career you dirty nigger i dont care if oh ill be arrested take me to the fucking big mans house for all i care as im out for blood at this point its fight or flight at this stage its now just fight or fight the way its going i cant stop if i stop i drop and ive already dropped this year multiple times when i get the chance im gonna be someones fear and there best nightmare im gonna stab em with scissors a pen a pencil you name it im gonna kill im gonna stay upright and im coming for people no matter what they say i will do something big im gonna go big or get suspended these suspensions feel like eternity it hurts to do a suspension and now im gonna be isolated the entire day tomowo and ill hate it if i where a robot with millions of curcits the word hate will be written to each and every wire chip you name it people say there gonna be a vet when they grow up well i say im gonna be the guy who starts world war 3 the way im going i cant stop and i wont stop i will drop i will die i will lose if i stop life is a gamble of hopes and dreams well my gamble is hate and despair like im not the bad guy right RIGHT heh heh i am arnt i you little shit peter walsh his named engraved in the things i hate at the podium for 1st place hes that fucking bad im gonna burn that school to the fucking ground im gonna burn him alive i will reanimate his corpse as a decoration in my house im gonna tourter him till he drops dead im gonna turn myself in so i can fucking get executed my name will be engraved in everybodys head after i do what i will have to do multiple people in the past ive asked for help to overthrow peter there were to much of a pussy and left me for dead with there tail between there legs i would of pulled it off if they listened im tired of waiting for my chance to strike so im fonna make my own rules from now on i am a independent person that will make my own choices life and death until i drop okay HAHAHAHAHAH this is making me smile just by writing this it sickens me yet pleases me its like a rush of dopamine alright i love it