1. My silence grows as the leaves outside are turning
The season of my meloncholy darkens my world.

2. But you love winter.  You skate out on my river.
Ignoring all my warnings that the ice won�t hold.

I come to you and fall, it feels like drowning.
I pull you in and under till you fight to breathe.
I cannot help you. Why do you try to help me?

* It�s only my soul.  And you�re not my saviour.
How could you know  all that I fear?
You move me, but I can�t go.  It�s only my soul.

3.  The rules are changing.  This puzzle�s incomplete now.
The man I am and hide behind is still just a boy.

4.  I�m just surviving.  You say I could be living.
But I am not familiar with the concept of joy.

Broken, bruised, you search for missing pieces.
You trust I have been honest when I�ve lied.
I do not need you.  But when you leave, I die.

* It�s only my soul.  And you�re not my saviour.
How could you know  all that I fear?
You move me, but I can�t go.  It�s only my soul.

+ Oh, my compass has failed me. 
 There is no lighthouse on the shore.
I turn away, but still I hear you tell me 
My love's worth fighting for.

* It�s only my soul.  Are you my saviour?
How do you know  all that I fear?
You move me.  I want to go.  But it�s only my soul.

Words Steven Stewart  Music Steven Stewart & Miikka St�lhane
� 1998

It's funny how my most personal songs (the one's I think are just about me and I'm almost embarrassed to play since I am laying my soul wide open for ridicule) are the songs people seem to connect to the most. My friends think I read their journals when I am writing from mine.