ALIENATED RANTS
It's 2001. And yet Baroness Young is still going on TV and saying that everyone should be married, and there's no other way to live. The interviewer tried to tell her about a young boy who had committed suicide. He tried to explain to her how the attitudes she were giving out about gay people were damaging. Her response was that he would be better off going out with a girl.
She doesn't just believe what gay people are doing is wrong. She believes cohabiting is wrong too. And what you get from watching her on tv is the sense of superiority she has. The interviewer told her that christianity should be tolerant of all people [this is what his church told him] She asked him what he meant by that. He also brought up the issue of gay people in long term relationships and how they need rights. Of course she just kept going on about marriage.
It didn't make me mad, it was incredibly boring listening to her go on. She mentioned older men and how they would prey on younger boys, she also pointed out older men are interested in young girls. But it's not heterosexual men she's attacking, it's gay men. Especially young gay men who need support and won't get it from their families [unless maybe they're Brian from big brother]
I don't know what to say about this woman except that she's a fool. God knows what she would say about Nicky Wire. She would no doubt be very offended by him. The interviewer tried his best but she wasn't listening, if she knew what he was talking about at all. The interviewer was married and he obviously had no problem because he was secure in his own sexuality.
I find it very strange how some people are so concerned with other peoples lives. She said she's doing it to protect children but children grow up into a world of ignorance, hatred and fear. And it's the adults who teach it to them. She mentioned paedeophiles in the same breath as gay people. She does not believe that people are born gay. She thinks they can somehow be coerced into it.
She is like a stuck record, stuck in the same groove until she one day dies and finally shuts up. She will go to heaven and be very happy there with all the other intolerant bigots. I never get upset anymore and if I do, I don't express it but seeing as she has freedom of speech then so shall I.
Many well known heroes had gay relationships including James Dean and Marilyn Monroe. And look how many people admire them. They were cool, and their icon status will remain for a long time after Baroness Young's around.
People of all sexes can be beautiful [including people who defy gender barriers] the world isn't like Baroness Young sees it and whoever you like has absolutely nothing to do with her.
BODY WEIGHT
This was written by someone I know, it�s taken from their online diary. I also included the conversation we had about it afterwards. I hope it makes you think.
I heard something today that really upset me. So, for the record: Body weight DOES NOT MATTER!
If you're fat it doesn't mean you're ugly, if you're skinny it doesn't necessarily mean you are pretty.
I personally hate both of those words. They're words designed to put people down. I just used them because people don't understand anything else.
When will people learn, we all come in different shapes and sizes? It angers me to think that anyone would make such wild generalisations.
Fat, thin, who cares? So long as you don't go either way to please someone else then both are FINE.
Not many people are happy with their body weight, but people don't have to be put down because of it. Rant over.
me: Sean for one is not thin but he is beautiful. It's true, not how most people think I know.
them: I know, but Sean used to be thin and I personally think he looks better now. It's not to say he looked bad or anything before, he just looks better and healthier now. Same goes for James, how ill did he look GT era???
me: I know, you could see his bones. I thought boy bands starved themselves, it shouldn't be a rule the Manics have to follow.
them: Yeah, it's all so wrong and a reflection of what is and what's not acceptable in today's society.
me: So how did it come to be that the Manics are being judged by the same standards as a boyband, I thought that's something they were against, morelike, what happened to the fans.
them: It's all very sick.
me: Makes you not want to be a fan sometimes.
them: Criticising a bands' weight isn't part of a fan's job description. What makes them think it is.
Here�s some rants by me.
Monday, Sept. 10, 2001 - 3:43 am
She hated everyone and everything. She knew how cliched that sounded, because she knew Sean did too.
"Nothing ever happens, nothing happens at all, the needle returns to the start of the song, and we all sing along like before, and we'll all be lonely tonight and lonely tomorrow"
She could relate to the song on the radio.
"American businessmen snap up Van Goghs for the price of a hospital wing"
It's ok for Sean, she thought, he can just smash the occasional drum kit, what am I supposed to do. She could just imagine getting a drumkit and smashing the fucking thing into nothing [with or without drumsticks] But in real life... all she could do was tap on the keyboard exceptionally hard and hope that someone out there felt the same as her. She couldn't really be THAT different could she? It felt like it sometimes. Like an alien who'd landed from another planet.
She knew she was going to say something extremely offensive but right now she couldn't help it. She hated the spoilt middle class fans in their bedrooms who, for entertainment, would laugh at Sean or Nick Nasmyth. She wanted to make them pay [I thought about removing the middle class bit but seeing as I had a rather priviledged upbringing compared to some, I'll leave it in]
But they wouldn't be reading this anyway, they'd all be on some message bored talking about absolutely nothing of importance. Maybe the occasional one would be leafing through their copy of Everything hanging onto every word thinking how wonderful it all was. Was it. Was it really?
She knew she should stop there. It would be advisable before she ended up offending the entire world. Fuck it, she thought, you've offended me. She knew people would read the diary and think she'd lost it. They'd treat her funny the next time they talked to her, asking if she was ok, wouldn't they. The ones who understood wouldn't. They'd feel the same frustration at this world and the people in it.
It reminded her of a rant in an early Manics zine, the kind of rants where people wanted to make other people pay for what they'd done. Maybe that's what she missed about it all. While hating the fans who wanted to live in the past she missed that the attitude was no longer there. The time when everyone wanted to make the motherfuckers pay instead of talking about Nicky's wife. There were always fans like that, she thought, who'd become suicidal at the mere thought of Nicky being with anyone else but them, or anything other than a poster on their wall.
But there were people who wanted to change things. And although she knew you could change nothing, she was still angry at the entire world. The news on the radio and they're killing more animals. Stop eating them then, she thought, the idiots. She really couldn't be bothered to waste her breath anymore. Til next time...
Monday, Oct. 15, 2001 - 9:02 am
I don't mean to analyse Manics fans and wish they could be different. It's just I don't get what being a fan is about anymore, what do they think the reason of it is? To me it's about the music, not ever saying Sean and James are fat. It's about James guitar playing, Sean's drums and Nicky's lyrics [oh no, not to some] If I was them [the Manics] and read the fans saying that they're fat, I wouldn't want people like that for fans. Just like Kurt didn't want typical sexist guys who didn't get what he was singing. He said it. I wish the Manics would say something. They only ever criticise the fan stereotypes, like the Richey fans or the EMG lads. But what about the prejudice, they could say they don't want their fans to have those opinions. Wonder what the fans would do then. Probably start going on about how it was so much better back then and the Manics could never be the same. Thank god they're not the same. It's a myth it was better. So them saying that means nothing.
Saturday, Oct. 20, 2001 - 4:08 am
I hate Manics fans who can't talk about Sean without using some variation on the word fat or still act shocked if they see one of his quotes [usual reaction "he speaks?!"] I hate PR people and the Press [they are as bad as eachother, all creating a myth for you to believe] Some fanzine editors are the same. I hate people who do websites and look down on others from a great height, because they think their site is better [no they just have a superiority complex] I hate people who say they are against homophobia then come out with s*** about gay people. Homophobia includes negative comments about gay people of the same sex, but some people don't realise that. Some women think they're not homophobic if they love gay men, while at the same time hating gay women. It's not even funny, it's pathetic.
Transcript from the message machine of filmmaker Nick Broomfield; the voice is unidentified
Nick, you a--hole, I TOLD YOU not to screen that f---ing film at Sundance, NOT when I didn't have enough time to get Harvey or Bob into your condo and WHAT was the stupid f---ing idea, letting Redford off the hook by being on the documentary jury? Hello a---hole? Do the words "resign in protest" mean anything to you? Hang on -- Hi Mr. Minghella! That's Anthony Minghella, famous director. Don't ask me why he's got an English accent with that Italian name, my agent says The English Patient was a great film and I should have been in it instead of that b--ch Juliette Binoche. I've got him on my list of people to become friends with.
Anyway, what was I saying... oh yeah. F--k you Nicky. OK, so people started really paying attention to me because of Kurt but hey, I was f---ing fantastic in The People vs. Larry Flynt. Then you get this GREAT idea of making a movie about -- what, I don't know what, and tell the truth, neither did you. The fact is, you needed me to make sense out of your movie just like every man who's been in my life. You needed me to give you direction and a point and a reason. All that crap about Courtney and her lawyers, very nice, really, make me sound like I'm Madonna-level paranoid.
But where would you be without me, Nicky, shoving a broom-field in a tube station, Nicky. Without me all you've got is a sad, crappy little documentary that belongs in a basement with all my other loser ex-boyfriends and p.s. to everyone, I AM friends with Michael Stipe and you're all losers. So what's your point? I've got your number, a---holes. Oh oh, LOST IT. Broken fingernail. That's how little you all mean to me.
Jesus, there's Jim Cameron. I'm out of here. But one more thing, Nicky. Just for the record: Kurt was the artist but Courtney's the star. Got it? There isn't a Kurt and Courtney without me, baby. Stars make movies and I made yours. Without me, where would your DOCUMENTARY be, huh? Driving around Aberdeen, Washington, that's where.
Me Vs. The Rest Of The World!! by aoibheann
My god if I had a penny for every time someone told me they wished they had the nerve to go out looking like I do I'd have enough for 10 KoRn hoodies. And that's saying a lot. Just because I wear different clothes doesn't mean I'm different. But I actually am different from everyone else so I guess it's ok.
The amount of people who slag me behind my back for wearing a dog collar is amazing. But everyone has the right to an opinion so I don't care. I like wearing a dog collar coz I think it looks cool. But I guess I think it's stupid when people wear teeny tiny tops so I'm a bit of a hypocrite. I don't insult them though. I also don't suck up to them and go "Oh my god I want a top like that" unless I really do. I also don't go around calling them slappers behind their backs.
What's so different about wearing hoodies, baggie jeans and Converse shoes? That's what I'm comfortable in so I can wear it if I want. As I said, everyone's got the right to an opinion but they don't have the right to tell me that I shouldn't wear it or that I look like an idiot. If I like how I look then no one else can tell me I shouldn't. Anyway they should be far more worried about their own appearance if they have to go around insulting me. They are just trying to reassure themselves that someone looks worse than them. Because I like how I look they don't think it's right that I should feel that way. I can't do anything if people feel they don't look nice but I also shouldn't have to listen to them insult me. Or hear about it from someone else if they were insulting me.
Why do people care so much if I want to wear black clothes? I like the colour black, therefore I wear it. I hate the colour white but I don't go around telling people they look like idiots when they are dressed in white. So why do I get "Oh you shouldn't wear black so much" and "I don't think black suits you." I don't care whether you think black suits me or not. It's my life and I will live it however I want.
People are always insulting my taste in music. Well that's ok. I've been called stuff coz I listen to Manic Street Preachers and Placebo. Well fine call me what you want. Because if I have to sit and listen to the bulls**t that makes up the charts then I'd rather be called names. I don't know how people can sit and listen to Westlife. They are the highest class of insult. They mime, a manager put them together, and all they have to do is smile in interviews coz Louis Walsh is telling them what to say. It's insulting to call myself half-Irish when they were spawned from this country. It's disgusting to see all these young girls crying on TV when they get to meet their "idols". Westlife don't care about the fans. They don't know anything about the fans. The only reason they get to the top of the charts is because there is so much media hype over them. If one of Westlife had an affair with someone and it got out their record would go quadruple platinum the next day. I cannot see why people insist that they are musical geniuses. They don't write their own lyrics, they don't write their own music and they don't play their own music. What makes them musical geniuses? Most of their singing is computerised. Anyhow I'm only using Westlife as an example. There are hundreds more I could have picked on.
People say they love my bedroom. But I happen to know that certain people just said that coz they were in my house at the time. They went into school the next day and told everyone that it was freaky and stupid. That person knows who she is so I won't say her name. It just makes me mad that she didn't tell me she didn't like it. Was she afraid she'd insult me? Coz if that's so then she's got it so wrong. And yes I'm talking about you. You know who you are so don't look at me like that. I've had worse things said about me by this certain person so I don't think insulting my room is very important. My room is my own private space and I will decorate it how I want. Just because you say stuff doesn't mean I listen. I don't need people going around telling me my room is horrible. Yeah it's different but since when did different become a bad thing?
This stuff that I'm writing now I can already see people going "God who does she think she is?" and "Wow what a freak". And no I'm not being paranoid coz that's what people always say about me. But people take it too seriously. They take it personally. Well fine if that's how you want to interpret what I'm saying then go ahead. I don't give a damn what YOU or anyone else thinks of this. Right now I'm venting all my anger. And it has to be done but I'm doing it in the most peaceful way possible. I'm not throwing a fit on the kitchen floor I'm not screaming at someone I'm typing. And if you don't like it then why the hell are you reading it? If you were offended by of any of the stuff up there when why did you read all the way to this? Because you wanted to see if I would apologise right? You wanted to see that you were right and I was wrong. Well I aren't taking any of this back so sit down and read it for what it is or be offended. It doesn't matter to me. I just wrote it. It's not like anyone's going to tell me what they really think is it? Nope coz they don't like doing that. Well ok that's fine. Go ahead sit there and think "This is terrible. She shouldn't have an opinion about this sort of thing!!" You aren't going to do anything about it are you? No. That means I can say anything I like and you won't and can't do anything about it. So hahaha you are all fools.
You can go ahead and insult me you pathetic, sadist people but know this: I don't listen to your crap. If you find me insulting to your precious school, children, community, image, family, county, country, planet, solar system, galaxy then I say "GOOD!!" coz I'm only here to insult you. You make my day when you give me disapproving looks. It makes me laugh when you tell me I'm a freak. You just don't realise how self centred you all really are.
If you are what people call normal then I thank heaven that I'm weird.
Coz if normal meant being like you then I'd rather be a freak.
EDUCATION: A PERSONAL EXPERIENCE from stormy.org/edupers.htm
In the spring of 1965, I was running through the jungles with a lethal rifle in my hands, yelling Kill, KILL, KILL! And I would have done it too. But I was lucky. I was running through the training jungles of Louisiana, brainwashed by the U.S. Army Basic Training. I never went to war and I never killed anyone. But I could have. If the U.S. Army had told me to kill YOU, I might of done it.
Remember Mi Lai, Kent State and Waco. And are you that much different than the Vietnamese and Cambodians, in retrospect? We are all people on this earth - this global village - brainwashed by an ancient reverence for the fiction of authority.
What was it that got me into a state of mind that would have me do something so alien to my very make-up: to kill another human being just because an authority said to? It didn't start in the Army; it started in government schools, where the history of war and patriotism are glorified. And I know I wasn't alone. There were 200 other young men in my company doing the same thing, and 1200 in the battalion, and over 3 million went to Vietnam.
In retrospect, it never occurred to me that something was very immoral about the whole operation. Nothing in my family, media, or government education prepared me to question the authorities. Something is terribly wrong here: we must face reality!
The schools had twisted and molded me to take actions that were horribly grotesque. I deeply and personally resent that. This long-playing, tragic world series must be stopped before it happens again, and again, and again...
Teachers don't realize what they're doing; they were brainwashed by the previous generation, in a destructive, endless chain. Will Rogers said this about congress, but the same applies: "Teachers are the nicest folks in the world to meet. I sometimes really wonder if they realize the harm they do."
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