HAPPY BIRTHDAY TRICIA!
Well some interesting things have developed since yesterday. My friend, L, from Minnesota wrote me an e-mail and gave me her new phone numbers and address. I haven't talked to her in almost a year, so I gave her a call when I got off of work. It seems things aren't going well with her. When I knew her, which was in Orlando, she was seeing this terrific guy. He was sexy, considerate, and very cool. Well, it seems he has made a horrible transformation due to drugs. L recounted what had taken place in the past 6 months and my heart broke for her. They were a beautiful couple and I was sure that they would be married someday. But, now that seems to be a very distant possibility. He kicked her out of their house, luckily she was able to find a nice apartment quickly. To top everything off, due to lying, gossip, and jealousy at the salon she worked for, her co-workers' plot to get her fired worked. She was now jobless, in a new apartment, and a failing love life. So, I gave her a pep talk. She received 4 other calls while I was on the other line with her from old clients that wanted her to continue to cut their hair. These clients also knew a lot of the other clients who she didn't have phone numbers or addresses for. So, it looks like on the business front she may be o.k. She has rented a station (something that she was very leary about doing, since she was burned the last time she did it). With aching heart, after I hung up with her, I decided to do some magick in her honor. L, if you're reading this. HANG IN THERE GIRL, THE DRAGONS ARE WITH YA!
The next interesting development happened this morning when I came into work and read my e-mail. I had an e-mail from the first guy I slept with, whom I had recently gotten back in touch with. It seems he had read my website and was not very happy that I had used his real first name in my bio. pages. I never meant to hurt him. Those pages were mostly for me to let go of the past since I have trouble doing that anyways. I wrote an e-mail back to him apologizing profusely. I've since changed his name on my bio. pages. I also changed the name of his brother and the second guy I slept with as well. So, Hudson, if you're reading this entry, I am truly sorry with all my heart, mind, body, and soul. PLEASE FORGIVE ME!
It is now 3:30 in the afternoon and I want to cry. With all that is happening with L, the possibility that I've hurt Hudson (not his real name by the way, do you think I'm that stupid to make that mistake twice?), and a train accident happened this morning and 2 people are dead, I just want to be alone and cry. Damn my overly emotional side, not really, I'm glad I feel emotions, but today it just seemed to pounce on me. I don't feel nearly as down as I did on 9/11, but down nonetheless. I'm glad I have a place where I can write this out. It is doing me a wealth of good. Well, I'm going to wrap this up and sip on my chamomile and catnip tea. I'll talk to y'all again tomorrow.