Spirit Pages (continued)
G5) Emotional reality always precedes physical reality.
Physical reality exists “within” the context created by emotional reality. This is because there is no actual physical plane or physicality. The naming of the physical as the physical is itself ironic. The physical world is the least real thing in existence. It is the least real because it is, like everything else, made up of information, but much less information than emotion, thought or states of being where mind and body are one in the same.
Matter has so little information that it is nearly inert in terms of its own consciousness. It is conscious, but not self-conscious. The consciousness of matter falls far below what we would think of as consciousness.
Because this is the nature of reality, and emotion contains more consciousness/information and is higher on the food chain of truth, it has to be the source of the physical world, rather than visa versa. Higher realities act as wombs for lower realities, as they are simply projections or fantasies of higher consciousness. Because emotional reality is a higher reality than the physical, it also fully contains the entire physical world as a fantasy.
For beings in the physical world, it is all there is. Just as a person who has lived their whole life in a small town might never have any clue that things are different in other places, so does the physical being suffer from provincialism. However, human beings have emotional realities to deal with alongside their physical reality. These emotional realities often react and respond to the physical circumstances around them.
So, it would seem that in the physical world, the emotions are slaves to physical circumstances. Actually, emotions entirely exist in an emotional environment. The physical is a sub-idea of the emotional reality, and as such, everything in the physical world is in fact made out of emotional reality. This is at first a confusing and contradictory sounding statement.
Quite literally, every object in the physical world is made of emotion. This is the same as a dream, where events, objects and so forth only appear in forms that serve the purpose of generating emotions that need to be generated. You have the emotion of frustration at a subconscious level that you didn’t have a chance to express, so the dream generates a frustrating dream situation to elicit the proper emotional reaction.
The frustration isn’t generated by the events in the dream, although that is how you experience it. There is no long line to wait in, no traffic jam or any other physical reality to contend with in the dream world. It is all in your head. However, you do have unexpressed emotions and the means to manifest a pseudo-physical reality to create scenarios to release those emotions.
Ultimately, the master has to appear to be the servant because of the fracturing of the self that occurs in the dream world. The “self” in the dream doesn’t remember who you (the dreaming person) is or where you live or anything about you unless it is in the dream. Your character only knows what it knows. It is a different person than your waking self.
The pent up emotions in the sleeping self can’t receive their necessary release unless they are lived out in dream form. In order to be lived out and likewise allow the emotion to control the nature of your experience, your emotion has to have the power to generate an identity that it controls totally. It decides who you are, what you feel and why you feel that way to manifest the exactly appropriate emotional experience.
This description of the dream process of manifesting a self is the exact process used by emotional reality to manifest a physical self. The only difference is that the experience is collective rather than singular and the experience is bound by rules and restrictions. In this way a “sealed” environment is created that is necessary to convince beings in that reality that their experience is totally real.
In turn, this reality makes the experience of emotions in physical reality particularly strong because now there is so much at stakes. One believes that one’s life itself hangs in the balance and there is a feeling of lost opportunities and unforgettable pain created by the claustrophobic atmosphere. So, the physical becomes a place to express many passionate and painful emotions.
In order to fully understand the physical plane, we have to understand that it is entirely made of emotions. To do this we have to acquire the ability to emotionally “feel” our physical environment and experience our life as an emotional expression rather than a physical reality. Emotion is always right there, in your face, but you often only see the circumstances that generate it. We can now turn and face physical reality at the emotional level.
Exercise: Seeing the Physical World as an Emotional Reality
In this exercise you will just need a quiet place to sit and relax. Get comfortable and imagine a giant cube floating in space. This is emotional reality. Go inside the cube and explore. You will find that this place contains the highest highs and the lowest lows, as well as everything in between. You will have a body and there will be an environment. There will be great beauty and great darkness, in different areas. There will be a great deal of emotional satisfaction in interacting with others. You will know people well without even speaking to them, because you will be able to feel what they are about.
After exploring this reality for a while, take an elevator to the physical reality sub-level. This is an area within emotional reality where the illusion of physicality is created in order to generate emotions that wouldn’t be available without that context. When you reach this area and get out of the elevator you will not be involved in physical reality, but will experience it as an emotional reality being observing it.
Walk around and find people in the physical reality you find yourself in. Feel how each person is made of an emotional reality, and what that feels like. Notice how each person’s emotional reality is like a fingerprint, unique and individual, even though it is always changing. Each person is built to specifically generate a unique set of emotions.
Observe the interactions of others and notice how each person is an island of emotion, discreet from the emotions of others. Now, see yourself as a physical being involved in your everyday routine. Feel yourself as an emotional reality and your environment and present circumstances as well. What specific emotions are you really feeling that really define who you are in this situation? Make a note of these feelings in your journal. If you wish to, visit other significant people in your life and feel their emotional makeup.
G6) Emptiness of form is subconscious in its true form and forms are areas of consciousness moving into becoming “consciously” consciousness; nothing in existence or the inner being is “empty” or “devoid of” anything in reality.
Emptiness is only a creation to manifest subject/environment distinctions.
Subconscious forms, which are “voids,” are areas that express the base of consciousness without a particular object of desire for that consciousness. The consciousness of void is a feeling of existing and certain feeling qualities that aren’t developed enough to identify an outside world or a sense of having any self apart from something else.
Physical forms are feelings with a sense of being but also a degree of self-consciousness. There is a sense of being a thing in an environment of things. Although those things don’t interact to any degree, there is a sense of occupying space and that the space occupied is a kind of vague self.
As discussed in G5 above, all physical things are made of an emotional reality, which is primary. The physical nature of our world is secondary in that it really only exists to cause a specific emotional reality. As such, there is no such thing as a “void” in emotional reality, as there are only various degrees of feeling there. A void of emotional reality in emotional reality wouldn’t make any sense. There could only be various degrees of emotional complexity and energy.
All reality is ultimately an expression of That Which Is, which manifests identities and “voids” and other things equally. Ultimately the quality that we call consciousness is parceled out to these various identities in varying degrees, and all things are constructed from that awareness. Beings in Spirit are aware of TWI to a certain degree at all times, and so are aware of their own identitylessness. Ultimately, even things which are made of a minimal amount of consciousness are just as much a part of TWI as fully conscious persons.
That Which Is is superconscious, meaning that it is beyond consciousness as we normally think about it. Even the highest Divine beings do not come close to the consciousness of TWI. In fact, the journey from human consciousness to TWI would essentially be infinite. TWI represents something vastly beyond what we think of as consciousness, but that does not mean that we could never experience it. We can and eventually will experience it in some form.
Consciousness is a model, and like all models it is incomplete. It is limited by the idea of separate selves perceiving each other and the world. That limitation keeps consciousness at a low level in relation to TWI consciousness, which is not based in self, although it can perceive all selves.
Exercise: Emotional Voids
In this exercise we will explore the feelings of our emotional voids and discover the feelings in these “voids” that make them what they are. It should be noted that there is no such thing as an emotional void, but there is the feeling within ourselves of an emotional void.
Begin by getting relaxed and comfortable and having a pen and your journal handy. Begin by seeing your emotional self as a world with oceans and mountains and other earth-like features. Get a feeling for this world and move around in it, feeling it.
When you feel like you have a basic understanding of how this world feels emotionally, look up into space. Move into outer space and feel it emotionally. Move even deeper into this void. You will notice subtle emotional states. They will not jump out at you, but feel like a dull, vague and yet fully recognizable collection of feelings. What emotions are you feeling here? How have you been neglecting these feelings?
Make a note in your journal, quickly, of any feelings that you have run across in this emotional void. When you have finished writing, pick one feeling and focus in on it. Make a ball out of this void space occupied by this particular feeling and bring it down to the surface of the planet.
Now we can focus on making this void into an inanimate object. In this way we will be moving the emotion further into our conscious awareness. Allow the void-ball to assume the form of an inanimate object. You don’t have to specify the form, it will appear automatically. Now, hold this object and re-feel the emotion from this new form.
You may have noticed that the emotion has become more intense and dynamic, as if you could feel it more vividly. Now we will add the element of dynamic growth and change to the object. Transform the inanimate object into a living tree. Again, don’t worry about the form but let it happen naturally. Now, touch the tree and feel the emotion as it is in this form. You may feel that the emotion is shifting, growing and changing by the second. You can see how the emotion, even if it is “negative,” is part of a living, dynamic process that is part of your real and genuine self. It is transforming into more and more positive patterns as it learns and grows. This process can happen because you have been willing to take a “stuck” and inert emotional state and give it your attention. This is the power of not denying your feelings.
So, as you have seen vividly, the world of emotions does not contain any voids. If you are experiencing an emotional void, it deserves your attention in order to transform it into something more positive. But before that can happen you have to be willing to fully feel even your most “negative” feelings and see their potential value as valid parts of you.
H) You can be involved in many different time lines at once, or a non-timeline.
This kind of experience is essentially too much for a “normal” human state of mind to wrap around, but it is possible given a breakthrough experience. Certainly in Spirit the experience of living in multiple identities is a real possibility. However, one must be able to let go of human standards of experience in the process.
H1) The absence of information is the illusion that reinforces all physicality.
The illusion of our physical existence entirely exists within our own mind and is entirely generated there. Nothing exists outside of ourselves. Even other people exist internally to us, as does God. All existence is internal to mind. The mind we identify with contains all other identities internally.
The information that we allow ourselves to have access to defines our physical identity. It is the absence of information, our ignorance, that ultimately defines us. It keeps us physical and keeps us in suffering.
Suffering and physicality are one and the same. Physicality is more than the physical world. There are astral and mental worlds that have a kind of physicality, although it is more ephemeral and flexible in nature. If we had access to more information, we could exist on a higher level. We are limited by own ignorance.
This ignorance comes from ourselves in Spirit. We have imposed this ignorance on ourselves in order to keep ourselves in a physical experience. Every experience we have that is lower than Spirit is in effect based on one kind or another of ignorance. It limits us to this or that circumstances, even in the cases where those circumstances are desirable to us. Our prison can be a heaven as much as it can be a hell.
We are in Spirit right now, imagining what we are seeing in the physical. When the idea of the physical experience is considered, the mind creates the corresponding illusion. Physicality is not possible in reality. Mind has to imagine what physicality would look like and feel like if it could exist and then creates that experience. But real physicality is impossible; it can only be imagined.
Pain is part of physicality and it too cannot be real and must be imagined. But there seems to be an inherent disconnect in this because pain hurts, and thus it must be real, since it has fulfilled its function of inflicting discomfort. But this is an illusion that is generated by a process of false memory in the mind. Each moment we reconnect and then forget who we are, remembering something that never happened. This memory is our “present.” Our only true present is in Spirit. The series of memories we experience seem to be our present experience in the physical.
Mind is infinitely flexible in its ability to adapt to the conditions that it needs to create to get what it wants. But, as the desire sustains what is seen, so do subtle undercurrents in these illusory scenes work to release the self from the scene over time. As the attachment to the scene is worked out through the fulfillment of our desires, the entire basis for the falsehood of this experience is gradually undermined until it can no longer stand unchallenged. Other illusions arise when previous ones have been consumed. When the desires for are completely consumed then the Spirit identity of the person can arise in them again.
Absence of information does not exist in reality. In Spirit there is no absence of information, nor is there a cost or a gateway or barrier that has to be passed to acquire it. All information is free to all. But the information available to a person in their physical experience is predetermined by them and more importantly it defines who they are, what they think and feel and how they will live. It also decides what choices they will make and where those choices will lead them.
Information appears to be external to the self in the physical, but it is entirely internal to the mind of that person, as is their body, circumstances and so forth. They all exist within the mind of the person having the experience with no exceptions. It is through the healing of this knowledge gap that the person gradually realizes that they are living a self-created life. This is the piece of information that pops the bubble of the false self and returns them to the Truth ultimately.
Especially in death, a person will see many things that amaze them and challenge their preconceptions. But they may or may not reach a level of comfort with the idea of internally created reality that allows them to experience it. They may experience a sort of blurred arena of experience where reality is both internal and external to some degree. However, the ultimate understanding is only accessible to them if their mind makes contact with that idea in some way and can make use of it.
What determines this readiness? Again, it is not luck or external agency, but the internal self that determines what happens and what this self knows. The after-death self is just as rigged as the physical self until the person returns to Spirit. They may be satisfied with lower levels of experience. Their true self in Spirit is the ultimate determinant. But there is a key of control here that we have not yet quantified, that lies within the false self itself.
You see, the false self is in some ways the ultimate determinant of the situation in terms of what it wants. If we look at it closely, it appears to be a total victim of the self in Spirit. But, it is also the embodiment of many desires. These desire are what it fights the hardest to prevent itself from seeing. This sounds contradictory but it will make sense in a moment.
The illusory experience can only occur to an illusory self that embodies desires for illusory experiences at their current level of physicality. In other words, even they are not exempt from the rules of Spirit. They cannot be forced or cajoled or tricked into having an experience that they don’t want. But, their conscious mind and unconscious mind are split, thus allowing those desires that keep them in their illusory world out of their realm of conscious knowledge. They may be conscious of a few or many of these desires, but if they think they don’t want to be alive, they are not aware of nor can they calculate their own true desires. Not seeing them, they are assumed to not exist.
We may live a frustrating life and be frustrated at various levels. Our frustration embodies our desire to have certain experiences and then our failure to have them when we want them. Our frustration can cover many real desires that we possess. We think they are impossible or too improbable to consider. This leads us to give up on them. But this lack of fulfillment doesn’t kill our buried desires, it only puts them in stasis.
The body contains all possibilities. Every possibility is limited to that body. The body is the expression of an idea of being in a physical world (that in turn requires a body to experience it through.) The body contains all the physical experiences it will have in its life. It contains all its past experiences. So, the body is the means of expression of being in two worlds at once, an internal world and an “external” world.
Hell, or suffering, is the experience of being pulled totally out of one’s self, against one’s will, and subjected to what one doesn’t want as a totally external experience. Physicality is hellish because of the gap between conscious and unconscious mind. It is this gap that allows ignorance to confine us and “external” situations to compel us. Mind becomes another “thing” like our body, something somehow outside of ourselves.
Heaven, or bliss, pleasure and happiness come from withdrawal from an external relationship with the world and an increasingly internal relationship with our own mind. During this process, we take the previously external world and make it internal and symbolic, an aspect of our own mind. We become more and more completely conscious and in ownership of our mind as well. Having clear knowledge of what we want and then simultaneously conceiving of the fulfillment of it and experiencing it as an event inside our own mind, we experience bliss and happiness, peace and joy, and so forth. Until we are entirely “internal” we do not know what we want. We think we want things that can only momentarily give us pleasure.
Truth frees us by allowing us to see that we only want the internal, where all information is available to us, including the most important information of all, who we are, what we want and how to have it. We really do not have full access to this knowledge as long as there is any degree of externally experience world.
As a result of having imagined Spirit, you have essentially guaranteed that you will experience it after you die. But this physical life will help to burn off any remaining desires that involve you in physicality. And when you get into Spirit as an entirely internal world, you will be surprised to see that the things you thought you wanted out of the physical world were not so much pleasures and joys as they were very abstract kinds of understanding.
Exercise: Bringing in Internality
In this exercise we will attempt a kind of tug of war between our internal and external experiences. We will seek to make the entirely internal experience more real, and then see for ourselves the impact this has on the quality of our experience. Then we will know without a doubt that entirely internal experience is the key to our happiness. Then we will be able to access this at will.
First, get relaxed and comfortable and have a pen and pad ready. Focus your mind on a single idea, such as a place from your past with strong emotional resonance for you. See yourself clearly in that place and get into the feeling of being there.
Allow yourself to relax more and imagine that you are standing there with a copy of yourself. This copy will represent your being in an entirely internal experience of reality. That means that he or she will experience external experiences as being entirely within the mind.
Between the two of you there is a rope with a red piece of cloth tied to the middle. There is also a line drawn on the ground with spray paint that marks the midpoint on the floor between the two of you. When the cloth passes more to the other self’s side of the line, your experience will shift more to the totally internal. When it moves in your direction, it will move towards the more external experience that you normally have.
Begin by pulling the rope taut. The other self does the same. The red cloth is over the line and is hanging down low enough to touch the mark on the floor. Now, very gradually, while still exerting some pull, allow the other self to move the cloth and the rope very gradually toward him, so that the cloth moves over to the other self’s side of the line more and more. Stop at the midpoint between him or her and the mark on the floor. As you do this, you will feel a shift in how you perceive yourself and how you feel.
Pull back a bit and move the cloth to its original position over the line. Do the same thing as before, but this time allow the cloth to move to the three-quarters point between the mark on the floor and the other self. Now, think of two problems you are currently having. While holding the visualization, think about one of the problems. Write down in your journal how you see this problem in the light of your current state of consciousness. It should be as if the self you are in the visualization is talking to you, giving you his or her insights. Then, do the same with the second problem.
