Hello, and welcome back. Today I want to describe the process of manifestation again, reiterating some points and talking about how we can move more cooperatively with the evolution of our desires. Desires undergo a birth, a growth and manifestation phase. The growth (middle) phase of a desire coming into manifestation is where you experience pain because you see things you don’t like about the desire and yourself and you experience fear about your ability to manifest the desire in the physical world, or fear about how the desire will impact your life. The pain causes the desire to be frustrated by not being allowed to come into manifestation. You hold onto the fantasy level of the desire and refuse to release it into manifestation.
For example, you become attached to your romantic desire for a person who is unattainable. This is a fantasy phase of the desire where you imagine how the person will make you feel. This is necessary in order for the desire to become fully formed. When the desire is stuck in fantasy, however, there is pain because you can’t release the desire into new forms. In other words, you are attached to that particular person as the object of the desire. The ultimate form of the desire will be an attainable person who fulfills those feelings for you just as well. Subconsciously, feelings of unworthiness and fear of failure hold you back from allowing the desire to mature into a real relationship. So, it is fear of the evolution of the desire that ultimately holds you back. Ironically, it is resistance to the process of evolution that causes all pain.
The pain of a shift of consciousness is encountering resistance to change within yourself that has to be overcome. The breaking of patterns involves attaining a higher level of understanding and then identifying with that new state. Pain externally corresponds to attachment to old patterns and falling back to them. This creates conflict with the manifestation of the desire as conflicting desires. The only way out of that conflict is for all desires surrounding the desire to be allowed to come into full manifestation. Otherwise, they will remain stalled in fantasy and will also hold back the manifestation of the desire. Therefore it is important to be able to identify those desires in resistance to the manifestation of a particular desire and to allow them to be released into manifestation.
The means by which a desire can be released into manifestation is to give away and release any current stage of the desire. For example, you may have a desire that is stuck in the fantasy stage of manifestation, such as wanting to write for a living when you are in resistance to having a new full time job after becoming unemployed. The writer goal may be stuck in fantasy to a certain degree. That means you may be writing but not making a living off of it. Now we need to identify the factors that are inhibiting the fulfillment of that particular goal. The following exercise allows us to work with this process.
Exercise: Broken Star Desire Manifestation
See the desire you have chosen to work with as a flat, star-shaped piece of wood on a table in front of you. Those aspects of the desire that are inhibiting the growth of the desire are gray. The healthy aspects are blue. Pound the star with your fist a few times and the single blue element and one or many gray elements will be broken apart. Count out and separate the gray elements. You might, for example, have three. When you hold each gray piece, count from one to five with the intention of understanding what it means. You will see and feel images that will communicate the meaning of the gray piece. Hold each piece, one at a time, and take a few moments to fully feel what it means. Then, write down in your journal what portion of that desire it represents.
Using our professional writer example, you might find that one piece of the star represents a fear of boredom, of becoming isolated and alienated from ordinary society. It could also contain an element of loneliness. You see yourself becoming a bored, lonely shut-in. The second star-fragment could be anxiety about your financial status. It could mean that you fear financial uncertainty and not having the safety net that a permanent job provides. You could see yourself living in fear. The third gray star-fragment could be a fear of being dependant on the approval of other people to make your living.
So what do you do now that you have identified these sticking points in your desire? You can turn each issue into a desire which you will write down and consciously acknowledge. Begin by picking up the first gray piece and read what it represented to you. Now, count from one to five with the intention of turning it into a desire. As you do, the gray piece will turn into a red glass ball. Now, count from one to five again with the intention of completely understanding this desire. Write it down. Now, repeat the process for the rest of the gray pieces.
In the example, we could find that the issues have morphed into the following desires. “I desire to be a professional writer, who has an interesting, vital life involving society and other people. I desire to make an excellent living writing and to enjoy financial prosperity and freedom from it. I desire to be able to write what I want, even if it seems at first to be to a non-existent market. I want to create my own market by generating interest in what I have to say.” In this way you have specifically addressed your concerns in the new body of the desire itself. When you finish, transform all the red glass ball-desires into blue star pieces and reattach them to the original blue piece. Reshape that big blue piece back into a star.
Now that you have a complete blue star that represents your newly formatted desire, carry the star down to a flowing stream that represents the process of manifestation. Reread your original desire first (the original blue piece) then all the other desires that came out of the gray pieces. Release the blue star into manifestation by placing on the surface of the water and allowing it to float downstream while saying, “I release these desires into manifestation”. It is important to remember that our life is entirely made up of our own desires, and that we are only consciously aware of a few of them. But, by applying ourselves, we can become conscious of more and more of our desires. By owning them consciously, we move increasingly into the role of creator of our own lives.