Title : Hold Me
Author: Tirduj
Rating : good question
Category : DRR
Disclaimer : Characters aren't mine, we all know the 
owners. 'Hold Me' is a song from Savage Garden. I didn't 
know it exactly 4 minutes and 50 seconds ago, I like 
the lyrics, too bad I didn't write either them and the 
music! The lyrics are at the end.
Summary : Reyes and Doggett are on the run after 'The 
Truth'.
Spoilers : Release, the truth
Author's note: Thank you, Sunreyes for your beta 
reading ;-)

They had been on the run for so long, a year now. They 
hadn't been able to stay anywhere for more than two 
weeks. From city to city, from motel to motel, they 
had run away from New-Mexico, the enemies, their 
lives. Sometimes they wondered what had happened to 
the basement office, their places. Did the neighbors 
wonder about where they were. What about their 
friends? The police were looking for the two of them, 
they must have questioned everybody they knew. They
both had been tough, never complaining, avoiding the 
police, running without paying in the middle of the 
night when there was no money left, doing little 
jobs, staying anonymous, helping each other when the 
morale wasn't good. But this day was different: it 
was the anniversary, they were fugitives for a year
today.

It had been raining all day, Reyes entered the motel 
room to find that Doggett was not there yet, it was 
late though, almost 10 PM. She had worked all day at 
the diner and was exhausted, soaked, depressed and 
she smelled like fried food. She would have really 
used a little comfort from John. She headed to the 
bathroom to take a shower, hoping that he would be 
there when she got out.

But John was walking aimlessly in the street as 
depressed as Reyes. He had woken up this morning in 
an empty bed, Monica had already gone to work. His 
first thought had been for that sad anniversary and 
it had been on his mind all day. After work he had 
started to walk knowing that Monica wouldn't have 
been in the room yet. And now he was still walking 
deep in his thoughts. His clothes and hair were all
wet but he didn't care. He thought of the problems, 
of what had happened since last year. His former 
life had been so great, even after he entered the
X-files unit, he had had a good job, friends, a 
'normal' life. He had had Monica, oh he still had 
her but it had been different... *before*. Sure, 
they had had to be careful in their 'involvement', 
but it had been sweet, more secure and the happiness 
he'd never thought he could have again. Now they were 
able to love each other freely but on the run, they 
could hold each other's hands but had to watch their 
back for their life rather than only their jobs, they 
could kiss but had to keep an eye in case the police 
came. John didn't know if he could bear it anymore, 
he felt so hopeless, so lost. He glanced at his watch.

"Shit...Monica!" And he ran back to the motel in the 
rain, every step of his splashing the walkers, he 
crossed the path.

When he arrived Monica was sleeping on the unmade bed. 
He looked at her for a while standing in the middle 
of the room. 'She's so beautiful' he thought. He 
walked slowly to the bed, sat beside her and gently 
stroked her face. She woke up at his touch.

"Hi," he said softly. She sat up quickly.

"John! Where have you been? I was so worried you know."

"I'm sorry," and the tears he had been holding back all 
day began to flow.

"John? What..." She hugged him, not knowing exactly what 
was going on.

"I'm so sorry Monica, so sorry." He was now crying like a 
child in his lover's arms, his face buried in her soft 
hair.

"John, it's okay, you're here now, you're back. I didn't 
mean.."

"No Monica, I'm sorry I'm late, I'm sorry we're on the run, 
I'm sorry we live here in this hotel room, I'm sorry we 
haven't the life I'd dreamed for us."

"Oh John!" She hugged him a little tightly and pressed 
little kisses on his ear and neck. She now knew what was 
happening, he was cracking up. She'd never thought she 
would see John Doggett cracking up again after that day 
on the cliff, but here it was and she had to be tough 
for him. He had been here for her for so long.

"John, do you want to talk about it. It will help you."
He shook his head no.

"John don't be silly, why don't you want to talk about 
it? Because you think that John Doggett doesn't 
need any help?!"

He didn't answer, she was right and he knew it.
"It's just that I feel hopeless, I don't know what we'll 
become...I think I'm... I'm afraid."

Monica didn't say anything but she knew too well how he 
felt, she had felt it too. She helped John lying beside 
her and she held him all night whispering the words she 
knew would help him to go through this. The words he 
had told her the many times in this past year when she 
had cried in the warmth of his arms.

The End

Here are the lyrics :
Hold me (Darren Hayes/Daniel Jones)

Hey
If we can't find a way out of these problems then 
maybe we don't need this 
Standing face to face
Enemies at war we build defences and secret hiding 
places 

I might need you to hold me tonight
I might need you to say it's alright
I might need you to make the first stand
'Cause tonight I'm finding hard to be your man

Hey
More than angry words I hate this silence it's 
getting so loud
Well I wanna scream
But bitterness has silenced these emotions it's 
getting hard to breathe
So tell me isn't happiness
Worth more than a golden diamond ring
And will it do anything
To calm the storm in my heart
I never been the praying kind but lately I been 
down upon my knees
Not looking for a miracle
Just a reason to believe

Do you remember not long ago
When we used to live for the night time
Cherish each moment
Now we don't live we exsist
We just run for our lives
So alone
That's why you got to hold me.