so i have been cast out
abandoned, ignored
forgotten, disavowed
my actions too alarming
to keep me in your good graces
your sunshining day
your bubble, your lie
your imperfect world
left here to rot
to steam, to stew in my own juices
to wallow, to suffer
in my ruined kingdom
i should vow vengeance
seek retribution, blood for blood
justice for your crime
but i will not
i will wait
and i will watch
and the universe will make this right
and then you will pay
because you are wrong
about me, yourself, your world
and it's too late to save you
your soul is already damned
and this pain you've given
you've left, you've planted
will return to you and yours
times three, in spades
until you suffer beyond what i have
and then you will know
what it's like to be me
to ache, to yearn
to be left with nothing
but all that you've given
and when that moment comes
your thoughts will be of me
and you will wish it was different
better, that i still smiled for you
still cared, still needed
still dreamed and lived
and that these things were for you
but it will be too late
this i swear
love,
me