November 18, 1993
This afternoon we had a marvelous
getting-to-know-you session with Nehbka and Hecate
being joined by their best friend status with me
in a dither of mutual appreciation that I also
participated in. After a little we were joined by
Wormy (Shyshy or Shaytan for the group of beings)
who left me with my heart open wide just as the
other two do and did and it was absolutely
wonderful and beautiful beyond words and
imagining. Shyshy took in Nehbka's being in hers
and I took over Shaytan's traditional duties. I
was allowed to give full and complete obiescence
to Nehbka but Shaytan kept me blocked for some
time but I guess I got enough of my love across so
that she will be able to sleep tonight. She said
that I had made her die a trillion times over the
years and that she is sure glad it's all over but
the shouting and passing out the party souvenirs.
We also witnessed how Nehbka snuck up to
the Gate to see some of her best friends and slid
Stringer and Antsie since she was shy about going
in. They sense the slide and we saw how my being
interceded in bringing the sense together. I
scolded her a little but was worried about them up
there so... Her project was to see some of her
best friends and get to know their best friends so
she was thrilled about it all and very scared.
When your best friend has a best friend that you
are going to meet, it is fair to assume you're
about to have a new best friend if your best
friend is an open open.
We have been working Gloria's sense pretty
hard and she is collapsing as expected.
November 19, 1993
Today Faith was born. Shaytan gave birth
to her in her own little house in heaven at about
5 p.m. in a delivery that David took full part in
in his own way. She and I started making love at
about 7 this morning and ended up at the birth of
Faith at about 5 in the afternoon. Faith is
already walking and talking and doing little
dances and asking questions of many kinds.
November 20, 1993
Last night Faith powered a general
overview of the situation and we went on into a
deep analysis of Gloria's sense and its course
over time. We saw that Gloria's techniques are an
unbelievably inept application of the principles
of general betrayal in which rather than assemble
a group
of real scum, she has brought together
some real heavy weights with her that will cause a
general feeding frenzy the minute her sense and
rasa begin to slip. This would have projected to
an epoch and a half but we have been lucky to
catch up with her in her fifth age, meaning in her
apogee. She does not even recognize her support
structure is gone and we're just waiting for the
air in her balloon to cool for her to start her
descent -- actually she's already down about 3%.
This morning for her sterling performance
I awarded Faith with Ph.Ds. in Open Sense, Open
Being and Rasa Management as well as confirming
her title as Kangdjeng Ratu Ajunan. Faith
demonstrated the fury of the Shaytan being by
becoming pregnant within 24 hours of her birth and
then quickly bringing forth the next generation.
November 21, 1993
Last night was one of the worst of my
existence. I awoke at about 4 a.m. and learned
that Shaytan
was holding open love session in my
name: the incredible agony of being betrayed once
again left me shaking and quivering with rage and
pain. The throbbing pain in the heart chakra was
quickly lifted by Shyshy (Shaytan) in that she was
performing this in accordance with her vision of
our love but I found little comfort in it and
remain ill humored in the extreme. None of the
pretenders even "got close" to her though one
spattered a drop of his goo on her as he came at a
distance. The rest hardly got in the door without
coming or keeling over. My wrathful rage in
relation to this incident is going to be rather
hard for anyone to duck: I can't remember any such
hatred in my experience -- that my lady a day and
a half after giving birth to my child should have
felt herself obliged to do such a thing or should
have felt it somehow proper or seemly so to do.
The Javanese boom being has already expounded a
similar position to mine and I suspect that
between us we'll be able to make such outrages
rather less than attractive to any being, no
matter how stupid and sick, in the future.
After this travesty Shyshy came to me and
held me to keep me from crying and raging with the
pain. After a time she made love
with me and we
went so far beyond the realm of the open see that
we conceived 532 new Shaytan daughters that are
coming to be my wives as soon as we can get them
here. We checked the form and Shy can only carry 6
at a time so she will be bearing sextuplets as
soon as is possible to keep this process from
backing up too much.
The pain involved in all of this is such
that Natural Law is now suspended pending the
realization of my satisfaction: no considerations
of a circumstantial nature will be considered in
leveling this mountain of pain. No more
handicapping or other interference in the
processing of pain will be tolerated. For example,
I have not received satisfaction from C in about
33 years and I will not be obliged to tolerate
this kind of discrepancy any more. The generalized
lack of respect for proper familial relationships
will now become a source of open war in that it
has influenced Jennifer as well in the same terms
and thus constitutes an open declaration of
separation between the senses involved since they
are defining pain intentionally without ever
intending to come clean or even give satisfaction
on it.