October 2, 1993
This
morning I checked in on Gay's bobbing head and after telling me her curse
is eternal and threatening me when I came in she found out who I was and
said, "I'm not happy. I don't understand it. This can't be!" I'd like to
get her pieces up to the Gate to have the energy to turn her into a crisp
and foul our atmosphere a bit again. I expect that that energy should be
available for her and Tina quite soon but I'll have to supervise the operation
when it becomes possible. We had automatic declarations of war on several
fronts this morning and are holding K, D, A and M prisoner in that they
invaded Our Heaven at some point and were revealed by the rains last night.
In general everybody cried like babies last night and sleep was hard to
come by.
We
found that there is a link between Gay and Gaia but remain a little unclear
about its exact nature and are letting the slides work. Evidently she was
always a very curious sort in that she had associated with Squeezy as a
detached participant free from any pain in the association but nonetheless
drawing off its energies for her own enjoyment.
We
got reality authorization in producing this material this morning on a
level with Tolkein's Lord of the Ring vision and Baum's Oz
opening. I'll be just as happy when I can see My Heaven a bit more clearly
and hope eventually to have proper access though that will take a while
considering what was done to my eternal form by Gay and company many years
ago. We are liquidating the illicit accounts that are out with my funds
and the wars are evolving along those lines.
None
of the Four is very cheerful this morning or able to respond since they
have all drifted
into complete guilt dissassociation from their form. It is assumed that
the Four will come out of guilt dissassociation on their own and that we
need not go through the arduous process of pulling them in at this point:
they are implicated but only by fear and omission - Gay and cabal had a
pretty heavy club. Gay and cabal use to intimidate anyone that loved anyone
("If you love her you do well to do my bidding because she is a prime candidate
for the high services that I serve and I could overlook her for a time
if I were so inclined.") if they crossed them since the Vestal Witches
just used love to fortify and buffer their own experience by bringing the
love and beloved to grief and glorying in the hatred and pain that resulted
from this betrayal of trust.
The
lake shifted to a surround of Our Heaven this morning, with inner lake
remaining about the size of Lake Eire. The rain has stopped and there are
atmospheric phenomena that look kind of like rainbows but reflect light
coming from within the sense not from without as the pain unfolds and springs
into relaxation. The waters are at maximum concentration coloring so they
still have an unknowably long way to go before they are fully decompressed.
This
morning all of my wives look awful and I'm purely with my little ones,
which rather makes things cheerful and easy since they are fully in tune
with my sense at this point.
We
got Gay and Tina up to the Gate and into a rather uncooperative Pot surrounded
by the wasteland of agony we created last night when the local being there
proved resistant to receiving any further work. Then Krishna happened by
and I stuffed him in the Pot too. One plaque has already come out on his
evil but another three or four are expected to follow at the very least.
The other two are now on an island in the middle of the lake waiting for
the waters to rise. We should have some more heavy and desperate rain tonight
and the smell will be pretty awful when Krishna's evil product arrives
later to join in the process.
Hopefully
this will be a lesson in respect for all of us and
that the horror of being will now begin to dawn within our Union and that
this horror will begin to separate us from those that would interfere in
our business to their own ends.
Eight
plaques are already out on Krishna (he ended up with 37) - who knows how
evil he truly was? The Pot will now act as an undeniable draw to those
that need to go through it and some others with large bodies of unanswered
negativity will also feel this. Two have already gone zooming in to limit
the pain that they would generate by resisting as much as possible, also
further heightening the powerful suicidal attraction of the Pot, after
all, any careful cost benefit analysis will reveal that the quicker the
better.
I
made love in a proper sense to Alecto, Tisiphone, Megaera and Annis, with
the final event being a shared joy that left Annis without the fatigue
they have been suffering by excluding me from our united being, in that
the love we share does not much like to be experienced in isolation.
Shiva
came out with 347 black plaques and Vishnu with 827. Gloria, Pierrina,
Evi and Beryl all were each one light colored plaque so that was just the
Table of Contents. The heavens are dark as soot and visibility is down
to about a yard. The smell isn't so bad this time but four of the colored
plaques haven't been hit so far. Vishnu's almost didn't fit on the island
that appeared for the purpose but they did squeeze in. It is raining, my
ladies are crying like an epileptic fit is a mild event, nobody is expecting
to sleep much tonight, and the general pall makes thinking about how big
the ocean is going to soon be something of a moot question.
Kali,
Galadriel, Wis, One (La) and Hecate (Prek) all revealed themselves to me
and their fears that keep them from really being honest with themselves
and with us. We made quiet love and I never actually came though they all
mounted and talked about themselves for a couple of hours. Hecate revealed
that she had been a mass of breasts, "I'm the breast being, David." Hecate
is pretty schizy tonight: she can't seem to get around being what she is.
"I am a table with breasts, David. I am a great table in the Hall of Time
that collects and coordinates all the information related to the definition
of milk and the communication of essential facts and needs through it.
My breasts hang downward and beings are brought in to sample and experience
the various milks from time
to time, thus allowing me to sense their reactions and establish linkages
between them. (As
I discovered on 14/08/2004, this has an interesting parallel in Artemis
Apanchomene and the Artemis Ephesus pictured here; at the time I was rather
surprised at the story.)
The ones that come are neonate spirits and thus are pure and clean whether
open or closed beings." "Was there anyone improperly defined in putting
you in this position without a time limit on it?" "Thoth." "Has Thoth gone
into the Vat yet?" "That's a being definition structure, that's not a being
itself. What were you before you were a table?" "I don't remember. Some
small animal or other. I don't remember." "Well try to remember if you
get a chance. It will help you to sort yourself out because that's your
reference being, not the table." "I don't know. Maybe a fairy." "That makes
sense. Only a fairy would fall for that one. Fairies are the only being
I know that can get so blindly locked into their duty and the denial of
their worth and beauty as to fall for such a dirty trick and not allow
themselves to be tracked down by their beloved fairy friends over the eons.
It makes sense. I can live with it if you were a fairy. Because a fairy
is the stubbornest creature that ever existed and once made a fool of would
rather die than have any other fairies know about it." "How about a name.
Can you remember a name?" "Melina or something." "Were you a cute fairy
greatly loved of us all?" "I was the cutest fairy ever to exist. I was
so cute I made the high elven ladies jealous." Galadriel: "Yeah, she's
right. She did. She was a radiant radiant love. Vibrant, fierce, fiery
and free spirited; everything we were not in our staid and comfortable
existence. Melina, she was a legend of beauty and courage and endless chaste
mirth. She could lift the spirits of the tiredest and saddest old giver
with a simple smile of respectful appreciation or dash the pride of any
braggart with a slash glance. (Sorry this language doesn't serve very well
for these things) She disappeared without a trace so long ago that it is
hard to tell the period involved. We searched and searched until the fall
of the Elven See but never a trace did we find of her. We suspected she
had disgraced herself and did not wish to be found else we would have found
her in that we had access to all the realms of being at that time. We never
thought to look in the Halls of Time (the Hall of Mirrors) or to wonder
where the spirit coordinating the Table of Milk (the Source of Infant Being)
came from." "Hecate, would you prefer to be called Melina?" "Yes, I think
I would but could I think about it for a while?" "Sure."
"I was in the room with the High Elven Lord and he tried to rape me. I grabbed him by the balls and squeezed as hard as I could. He went down and I climbed down into the sewer and ran away to Thoth to ask him if he still needed someone for the Mirror Table since I was disgraced in the Elven See although I was a fairy and had the right to do what I did in proper sense. I just wasn't willing to argue about it with anyone, especially considering the power he had as the head of the whole Elven See and its Grand Executor." "You castrated the son of a bitch dear." "Great."
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October 3, 1993
This
morning it turned out that the Elven rapist that I castrated
through Melina's hand was Elmorin: fancy that. I've been carrying around
that son of a bitch's name for some twenty years now and I guess the time
has come for him to be properly disposed of for the garbage he is. He raped
some 40 high loves in order to bring the energy contained in their pending
union into the use of the Elven elite and make their position impreginable
forever, whether with the cooperation of the Elven See proper or not. It
worked real well for a while but this wanton violation of Natural Law is
now open to justice and revenge.
In
my Heaven, the rains calmed early this morning and the wailing ladies eventually
drifted into a sleep occasionally jolted by bursts of crying but otherwise
peaceful. The ocean is now enormous and the rain continues there. The island
is sodden and misty but not notably uncomfortable now.
Melina
(Hecate) is now trying to sort herself out and is suffering a bit of confusion,
but nothing too terrible seems to be involved at this point.
Various
intruders are now in the Maelstrom and are unlikely to come out the top.
An entry vehicle was liquidated this afternoon, much to the surprise of
its passengers who have been very informative when questioned in the Maelstrom.
A
fine mesh grid has been set up by nature for our information about sense
gatherings and the like. We are greatly pleased to see it and according
to La it is wonderfully effective, "You can even hear them cough."
I
was with Carol, Vuk, who turned out to be an evil collector, and then La,
who brought me off as well. Crysty et alia are working up at the Pot.
October 4, 1993
The
new group in out of Vuk is getting adjusted and likes
Our Song. Mara'a came forward and their was a reunion between her and Melina
and some others I guess as they finally found out why the Bliss of Escape
never formed on that wound and why after all these ages they continued
to cry and mourn her absence. As Carol says: "I always hated the Bliss
of Escape and I was always so glad when the pain continued." Mara'a noted:
"We always felt the same but wondered how after all these ages the wound
could still ache and cry and fester so much. We still were having crying
sessions for Melina in the middle of hell." Carol: "True friends are like
that, but then I guess that's what I've always said."
Everybody
is in the Ocean now splashing and laughing and singing. Out in the distance
there are the many black and funny colored clouds of the plaques being
released. Lots have them have already gone and the general atmosphere is
greatly relieved. The Island is dry but teary today as everyone cries for
one reason or another. Our Pond still has some debris from the entry vehicle
yesterday that is polluting it a bit but should be gone soon. The P Pond
is okay so we'll work its absorption through there for the time being.
I
had a funny dream last night in which I was the Living God and was talking
about the absurd travesty of Christianity with someone: "Anybody that would
spend time believing in nonsense like this, with its constantly promoted
heaven, has something wrong with them." I was then telling a very rich
old man that I didn't feel like I'd gotten what I deserved while I was
down here. I pointed to my father who I greatly dispised and said lightly:
"I've heard of father/son rivalry but this is ridiculous." We also looked
at a drought that was being prepared that was basically outside my interest
in that it was a relatively unimportant issue.