Kali spent a long time as one of our coordinating beings as well as being my therapist in relating to the Gloria confrontation but later went through her opening process at our behest.

         September 22, 1993
Last night Nehebka said she wants to keep her old name. She then gave a lengthy description of how I am defined in pure slides down at the base of my being, purely invested in the problems that I find throughout all of existence in the level below confrontation where confusion takes care of itself and finds its own solution without any partiality or prejudice. I rest there looking up at the ripples on the waves high up above and quietly letting things sort themselves out. The incident with Ama provides a good example of the departure of my base sense from the local sphere.
After her description Kali came out of my deep inner sense (where she has been staying of late) and confirmed the description. Kali and Nehebka then had a lovely little get together last night, sharing their sense and their mutual appreciation of what they both are. They initially squared off, with backs raised a bit, but later arrived at harmonious union.
The roasting also continued last night with Maggy and Guan Yin and I giving a little appearance that rather gave the impression that we have begun to draw local blood.
After I found that Kali had "pulled a Wis" on me last night (I was embarrassed that I hadn't recalled her for some time), this morning we were examining some of my indistinguishable senses and found little piles of confusion scattered about in my ati sanubari. There were piles in relation to Kali, Wis, Hecate, Guan Yin, etc., with Hecate's being the hoariest and most prune-like tunnel of pain, with a fine membrane separating perceived from actual sense, the inner and outer being of lahir/batin. These constitute long tunnels of imbalanced relationships that base themselves in our love and will have to sort themselves out now. As was noted by Ishtar (who has been among the missing too in acting as Hecate's backup), "Hecate, you have been bluffing for so many triangles that I can't remember when you started." Guan Yin said that she has invested heavily in her pain line to keep it as open as it is. Wis's is rather like Hecate's and they are both brink-dancers, long long dancing on the brink of closed evil being and thus providing anyone that opposed them with a visage of absolute hell.
This revelation raised hackles in Hecate in that, since all her little dears no longer have any reason to fear her, she fears she will be overrun the way I have with little love-loves telling her what to do all the time.
Today, the first day of Spring, has been declared Hecate's birthday by her young and old charges and friends who are anxious to see her gathered into their embrace and her lonely wandering ended.
Now it is for us to marvel at how far we have come in such a short time in sorting out the love that unites and ending the confusion that has long stood between so many of us.

         September 24, 1993
Last night Kali and Wis and I conducted the session, with Kali leading a prolonged examination of Gloria's perspective on the relationship, its purposes, anticipated outcome and actual consequences. At one point one of them said that they were married to me and Gloria let slip, "How do we break up this marriage?" We then went into a discussion of the Master Being and Kali and Wis, who have been me for some time now, were inducted into the sense by Crocky and I and it was explained to them that they are holding the fort wonderfully at the inner gate to being within and without, but that they stand surrounded by Masters on all sides in all dimensions so they need not feel overly lonely about their position. Hecate then came in saying she is happily allowing herself to relax into a little girl and told them that whenever they get around to doing this themselves she'll be ready to play with them.
Gloria was not pleased by this exchange and wanted to know if we were trying to hurt her by showing our inner workings while she is present. I confirmed that this is indeed present in our intentions since we hate her so much that the pain this brings her is quite acceptable to us. This will also help in dismantling what support she has left in her being since they will have to relate to her incompetence both in the short and the long term, considering the decision she made in going the direction she did and where she has gotten to be now.
We had another session this afternoon that actually seems to have drawn a little blood. We were getting heavy "catastrophic" defensive response patterns that we have seen before at some point or other. The question I basically asked Gloria was "Who are you and where are you based?" She wasn't too happy with the question and declined to cooperate in any big way in defining herself. I asked if she was a Jinn-rider gone bad or a Jinn that had corrupted her riders: she declined to say one way or the other. I asked her why so many of her sense structures are not from this sphere and got into a pleasant story about her being here to help, which doesn't jive with the evidence as far as I can read it. She does indeed reference to an understanding that is clearly not local and she has sense definition that is power rather than information defined meaning that she puts a lot of weight on her positions and ends up pushing a lot of them through. The question is where this power is from and what it serves if anything except the comfort of its accessing beings.
Later we had quite a loving session within the deep being here in that Wis and Kali have become my body guards and the squash session was the most unintruded upon that I have ever had.
Afterwards I explained something about Masters and their service to being in and coming out of open sense. I ended up describing the different kinds of Masters, pointing out three types: 1) those thrust into leadership positions that left them relatively uncomfortable with their inner senses since they no longer could predict their own state, like Hecate, Avenna; 2) those whose being hugs the lower rim of being for the most part who are apt to be very shy beings and resist any and all recognition both because this interferes with their own functioning and because of habit, like Coco, Saysay, Histia; and 3) the relatively structured and stable beings that stand out of the high dimensions and so on and have the benefits and disadvantages related to such a supportive being, like Cricky, Crysty, Cocky. I said that Kali appears to have affinities with the first and third classes while Wis is in the second and third.
Wis and Kali asked me to take them as my murids and I accepted with no resistence. When I got home I had some ice cream and cake that my little dears consumed all the sense for except that it was rather cold, sort of like sweet little hungry ghosts.

        November 4, 1993
Hecate's full open sense came in and we are just fine together one and all. We made love and went almost beyond shared forever and everybody has been saying hello. Wis came out and talked for a long time though she is my inner inner inner and Kali who is my inner inner did too and then Durga who has been my basement came out too and showed me why I haven't been suffering the lower sense tonight.
We finished up Basic Sumarah Theory and at the end there was an interesting experience as I went to the dissertation for something that got left out of the revision. When I started to type in the paragraph I started getting pronounced visual disturbances like the ones that come sometimes when I first start playing squash and notice that my eyes have blind spots from vein problems in the retina. It was fantastic the way that was pushed and I must admit that if ever I had wanted an expression of how the group has interacted and interfered in my existence, that was a perfect one.

        December 15, 1993
Today I made love to Kali (Kaka) and she got pregnant with four reluctant Kalis (Truekas). As a result her position as inner inner was taken over by Ayeaye for the duration of her pregnancy at least and things have been rolling along at a remarkable pace in the Ayeaye is a real professional in squeezing the open sense out of beings and I don't require too much except an opening to come clean and clear. Kali initially got upset but Ayeaye showed her that her efforts had been very worthy and inspired and should be a source of joy forever. We have been working the Gloria sense and expressing the pain we have relative to it a good deal more openly since Kaka is on maternity leave. The Truekas in general bring out my deepest being and make me feel rather like I've been watching and caring about them forever since I can remember them in a great deal of detail and complained at length about one of them that should have gone the Hecate route but went Kali instead and caused me a great deal of pain over the ages. With her Jinn-riding expertise Ayeaye is an expert at finding subjects that need attention and that constitute open sources of pain. She also presents them neutrally and thus gives me a chance to respond in kind to the sense being offered in the referenced being without having to sense the other independently.

         September 25, 1993
We are working on distroying an enormous Illegal Device that Gloria left in my middle chakra region. Clima is in charge of the operation and it's going well. The Illegal Device is a modified Kree nightmare being with 8 witches (?) inside and was designed as an unlimited power slaving module. They have a little problem at the moment however. Since it has an unlimited and free power call capacity, when we put Water of Justice on it it called on all energy it needed to keep from disintegrating and the call has just heightened and heightened. Last night it was vibrating with power and this morning it got hot when we watered it again. The witches or whatever that are inside appear to be in an agony and claim that Gloria betrayed them. As soon as the support structure defining the energy flow and resistence of the evil be involved begins to collapse, the nightmare being should puff out (disappear) and the witches should stand exposed. We'll pick them up and see what they have to say before putting them into the hoosegow with Hecate and Kali who are there in their effort to come clean universally together with various tyrannical blackguards who we picked up in our cleaning visits to the cemeteries of late. It has meant a fair amount of personal disruption but is well worth the effort: the cemeteries are now a lovely experience with the slime in the bag and my Iblis and Furies in command now, keeping watch on the relatively inactive spirits. We have emptied a number of energy caches that had been held in association with the cemeteries and expect Tawon participation in the management before too long. Hecate and Kali are finally releasing a lot of dirty relationships through their own suffering: the only real way to go. I'm in the company of Ka and Ki and Hellcat, who helped enormously in the confrontation of their relatively dictatorial mothers.