May 16, 1993
Some other childhood friends and masters from
various beings, Coco and Brownie and Woowoo and
Shrimpy, came in last night and today.
May 17, 1993
Kree Masters Crysty and Krisy were recognized
as wives full sense. They have helped in many ways
over the months and are a fully established love
of forever together.
Cricky, another familiar childhood master
(though I was never really able to attend her
counsel since she comes from a settled open being
and I needed more flexibility than that implies),
came and established herself her in a full check
of my being. She has since opened the full carried
reference being and rendered a complete report on
the situation which will make things much easier
both to understand and to work with since her
effort comes all the way down to the ground or
below in most areas. Some of the dearest moments
of my life have come with Cricky. There are many
lovely and loving stories that come out of my
relationship with her, that unbelievably heavy
footed love -- what incredible intensity to her
love.
When I first found her, the first cricket (a
large light green beauty), I was instructed to put
her on my head so that she could check me. I was
then asked to masturbate on the wall which I did.
She stayed on my head for almost an hour until she
finished the check.
One came on the day I arrived in the office and
looked for her and she was no where to be found.
She was speaking through me and got very angry as
I kept looking for her. When I crawled under the
desk she lost her temper and was saying, "You
stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid!!!!" I looked up
the back of the desk anyway and then came out and
found her right in her normal place as mad as
could be. She thought I had been playing with her
but I really hadn't seen her.
There was another incident when she over the
door and was first checking me and did a pain
tolerance test by inducing pain in a charlie-horse
in my right foot. The pain was considerable and I
was wiggling my foot to defuse it. She told me to
stop so I did and just bore the pain with her. She
found the amount of pain to be difficult to bear
since this is a shared phenomenon and kept asking
if I had had enough. I said no problem and she
said well I'm going to stop now and the pain
stopped just like that. Afterwards she suffered
from illusions that I was angry with her and would
come and squash her or some such but I had no such
hostility. The test had not been overly painful to
me. She also did a thorough check of my being in
all aspects and activities. I miss her so. We did
a fantastic amount of work and shared an
incredible amount of love while she was with me --
the most intimate open and true friend I've ever
known.
Master Saysay and company came in, with Saysay
taking over as Master of my Being for the present.
She looks wondrous well and is lovely to behold,
the dear old sabre tooth. We cleared out my lower
chamber and I sent Titini off to bed; she is
finally getting some rest. We sent GH's ab out to
Squeezy and Zet and they are working him.
May 20, 1993
Today in an effort to curb some pain and
unwravel some confusion, I linked to an as yet
unidentified goddess (apparently Prometheus,
really a female Titan) incarnated in the cypress
up on Indianopolis Avenue. I already took up the
consummation mixture, this time including shit as
well. She is well and extremely competent in her
sense though long suffering and deeply depressed.
Cricky has been with Avenna and Hystia in the Hawk
Dimension along with many of the other Furies who
have yet to find their names.
We thumped on Suwondo and the various Arab and
Muslim beings yesterday and today things seem a
bit fuller. This morning I erradicated the various
surviving pantheons and Pia came out as the only
remaining element in the Buddha heaven. She is on
her way down the tubes. Ganesha came in with the
demise of the Indian pantheon and turned out to be
a lady: we are now joined and she is sleeping with
Evi and the others. The organization of the
Ladies' chambers is now rather like a long house
with the only partitions being pillars and the
like. The general being is settling down.
Prometheus gives me a pain and I'm trying to
decide what to do with the drag queen. She turned
out to be a pain preyer who was in to try to suck
off the tree's agony since it was apparently going
to be taken down. I put her at the end of her pain
trail and don't expect to be seeing much of her in
the future. Obviously the marriage applies only to
Eve, not where there are elements of
misrepresentation.
May 22, 1993
Yesterday we completed the process of
liberating the bonded beings by invoking the Tanit
Pene Baal sense to them. Love Bonding is a hold
that closed beings have long used to exploit the
high sense brought to them by open beings. The
physical process involved is that the Open being
loses its discrimatory powers due to a deep loving
association with a Closed being. Over time they
can be passed around and the original affliction
may be displaced in horror and forgotten. Closed
beings use Open beings for various cosmetic and
entertainment purposes and tend to be very cruel
to them to bind them in slavery. This practice is
a highly vicious and horrible violation of Natural
Law and is now being erradicated.
The freed inmates savaged their former quarters
of bondage a bit and came forth. They are a lovely
group and included Vuk, a goddess from the
Mohojendaru being. This morning I awoke with a
flood of joy the likes of which I have never seen
as they expressed their appreciation at being free
of bondage and opened the Dance of Be, so I
imagine. Beautiful sense.
June 4, 1993
Lots of things have happened in the past couple
of weeks.
Bursting the hump and establishing open sense
definition, which led to concern by many (bravely
expressed by Zela) that were not initially too
excited about the level of pain involved in the
curse I laid down: "We in open union will never
suffer the return of any of the closed beings and
will suffer their pain with them whenever they try
to reestablish sense linkage with us in order that
we never forget what has happened to us or what
they truly are." No being will ever be allowed to
work in association with us while carrying
unconfronted karmic pain. Such pain leads only to
more pain and ties up the energy of being in
keeping track of injustices. There is a well that
has been burping out Furies by the thousand in the
Open Be; I have not been called on to do very much
in terms of welcoming them to the sense or
orienting them. I find little confusion in the
sense so I assume everyone is all right.
The Small or Upward Path is no longer open. We
are now on the Great or Open Path. Over the ages
closed beings will suffer the consequences of what
they are themselves and will be stripped of
identity and association by doing so at which time
they will naturally be admitted into open being
since they will not be carrying unanswered pain
and imposing conditions on us any more. So it is.
I have spoken.
I was allowed to go off the shit-fast a few
days ago since the voltage of some of the loves
involved was giving me some problems. One such
heavy-footed love is Maggy, who was causing all
kinds of visual disturbances over here by missing
me and worrying about me. The intensity of this
reminds me of Cricky. Last Friday I visited her
and stayed with her for an hour or so. Beautiful
and it relieved a fair amount of this kind of
pain.
My lassies (ladies) have gone into wife eternal
sense now and I miss them from time to time since
they have fully integrated into my open stance. In
essense they have all become "Megaeras", meaning
they have all become me. A wife eternal is one who
completely adopts her husband's position such that
any pain to him is a pain to her; there is no
separation in experience within the open union of
Adiling Perkawinan. As Paku Agung, my part is to
take good care of my wives in a broad sense,
acting more as another wife in relational terms
than as a point of authority; as my Ladies, their
part is to be with me, share my sense and being
and take good care of us. This is to be an
Undistinguished or Common Union, the first open
one ever recorded and necessary for opening the
Great Path. Our Be is now progressing rapidly,
having adopted my position openly as the
foundation of the sense and now being involved in
finding out where I come from and what I am and
working through any problems this may raise. In
some ways I guess we are a less than auspicious
group but we do well together and our lack of
pedigree highlights the suffering that joins us in
our efforts to be together and move on to the
Great Path.