September 24, 2000
Gloria
Salutations
In
as much as the tempest caused by my last letters should have passed by
now (the policeman was kind), I would like to invite you to visit my webpages
that deal with many things including us. You must have
noticed that my love for you became very painful but, even so, is still
here. As you said various times: "Have no hope." I was taken aback
because I have never ever had hope about anything in this world and finally
the third or fourth time you said this I asked "About what?" "That I will
love you the way you love me." I thought to myself:
"My God, I knew I was in trouble here but it's much worse than I thought. Imagine you being able to love me like I love you. It's absurd. Impossible. I swear that no one has ever loved anyone so much and certainly you in your hostility and confusion do not have the capacity to love anyone at the moment, much less me who is threatening, challenging you by seeing your beauty clearly and undeniably. Behold the tears gathering upon the horizon. I thought it was going to be bad but it's going to be much worse."At times there is no consolation whatsoever in being right.
Ay,
ay, my love. Seems like the weeping will never stop on my side of it all.
David