I DON'T
How do I tell him that I'm not interested in him?
That I'm not ready to try at love again?
I don't want to hurt him like I've been hurt before
And I don't believe in love anymore!
I don't want to tell him, hoping he'll tell me,
Or maybe soon - he'll finally see!
I don't want to use him - I don't believe in that
I've not let anyone know that I'm still sad!
I don't know how to change my lifestyle
But, lately, I've gotten kinda wild!

It's hurting me so much to see my ex tonight
Because deep down - I still want him in my life!
I'm pretty out of it, so I may not say it right
I'm usually not this way - that's not what I'm like!
James and Michael are different, but, yet they're the same
I've gotta tell him soon because I'm tired of playin' this game!
Before we met, I was hoping it might work out,
But, right now, I just wanna wander about!
I don't know how to say it without hurting him
I'm just not ready to play the love game - maybe never again!!!

Patricia Gail Wilson (18 1/2)
March 21, 1998
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