This page is for all the crazy shit I think about. I decided to write it down so all those that are interested may read what is in my head..
12/26/99 1:13 AM
I was thinking about the quote in 6 days and 7 nights, how a guy will be satisifed if the girl just shows up for the date; refering to how girls look for more in a guy.
So then I thought about what a girl means to me, and what I would be satisfied with.
I think that I am really picky, a lot more then I probably would admit.
I wonder if perhaps I fear comitment, or if I don't believe in love, or just that someone could fall in love with me, or perhaps I value love so deeply that I will not be satisified until I see that depth and meaning in someone else.
Ok that's all I have to say about that.
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I guess I think about humanity a lot, like what people feel, do, etc.. What makes someone indiviual. If there are different levels in consciousnes, why some poeple sem more advanced then others, and what the determining factors would be. Is it in the genes or from how we are raised? I think it is a lot of both. Or maybe it is in utero? Some little kids really amaze me. My cousin Jordan was here today, I think he is 4 yrs old.. and how he presents himself and what he says really amazes me. I look at him and see so much depth in such a little guy. I wonder how he got this way, what makes him so individual and special. I wonder if other people see this too, or even realize to look...
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12/26/99 1:26 AM
FUCK I think too much..
I'm laying here watching TV before I fall asleep, and I find myself analysing everything, every word, gesture, facial feature. Of how actors interact compared to real life.. what these people would be like in real life, etc..
I see why Tool is so obsessed with TV, it is "not real" or something, a different world, different reality affecting us..
How much people are influenced by this other world/worlds.. that TV is shaping society.
Maybe people use TV to escape reality..
Maybe TV shows are made knowing that they will change society in their own little ways..