�Not yet,� Valondra said.
�What are you waiting for?� She shrugged. �It�s been over a year.�
�I know that.�
�He�s going to find out.�
�But not by you.�
�He suspects something.�
�Yes I know.�
�So tell him. He can�t figure out when you guys stopped confiding in each other.� Valondra sighed. �You have to talk to him about the way you�re feeling. And I don�t just mean about the whole wedding thing. I mean, everything including what happened a year and a half ago with Bridgett. I know you�re still upset and hurting over it.� Valondra stopped what she was doing and sat on the bed, as she started crying. �Oh, Loni D.� Alyssa sat beside her and hugged her.
�I�m so afraid that Bridgett�s going to take Nickolas away from me. I�m afraid she�s going to find a way to end our relationship and say something Nicky will believe.�
�It�s not going to happen, because Nick loves you. Nothing will ever change that.�
�What if it does?�
�It won�t.�
�This ain�t fair to Nick.�
�So tell him.� She got up. �Valondra, if you and Nick get married you can�t go into the marriage with this whole thing between you two. You�re not going to be happy or feel better unless you tell him.� She looked at her. �You and Nick are going to be spending the rest of the US tour together so during that time I want you to tell him.� They looked at each other. �I want you to tell him by the time I meet you guys in Canada. That gives you three weeks.�
�I�ll think about it.�
�I don�t want to hear that. I want to hear �ok, Lys, I promise I�ll tell him in the next three weeks�.� She smiled and Valondra shook her head. �Fine I ain�t going to force ya. If you want to ruin your great relationship with Nick, because you refuse to be honest with him, then that�s your problem. I�m tired of kissing your ass.�
�No one told you to.�
�If Nick finds out from someone else he�s going to be angry with you. He asks you repeatedly what�s bothering you and each time you refuse to tell him. You�re ruining it with Nick yet you don�t know it. Nick�s only going to put up with it for so long yet before he tells you to hit the road.�
�Don�t you dare say that again!�
�Is that what you want to happen? Do you want Nick to leave you?�
�No.�
�Well that�s what its going to come down to in the end if you�re not honest. Nick loves you and if you love him you will tell him no matter what.�
�My relationship with nick is no one�s business.�
�Then why�d ya tell me?�
�Because I didn�t think you�d try to make me do anything.� She went to walk out.
�Nick needs to know.�
�What the hell do you want me to tell him, Alyssa? �Oh, I�m sorry, Nicky, but I can�t marry you, because I�m scared shitless of marriage.� I can�t do that to him, because it�ll break his heart.� Alyssa looked at her then looked pass her. Valondra turned around and saw Nickolas.
�Um�I came to take ya to the show,� Nickolas hesitated.
�I ain�t going,� Valondra snapped and walked out as Nickolas followed.
�Loni,� Nickolas said.
�Just go do your show, Nick,� Valondra said.
�Not without you.�
�I�m not going. I�m not going to the show and I�m not going on tour with you.� She walked into her room and slammed the door shut. Nickolas opened it before she locked it and went in. �I ain�t going, Nickolas.�
�What�s going on?�
�I don�t want to get into this now.�
�But I do.�
�Well I don�t!� Nickolas just looked at her shocked by the tone in her voice. She sighed and looked at him. �You have a show in a couple hours and you don�t need to be bothered by this.�
�Well it�s my choice.�
�You need to do a good job tonight.�
�It�s not a requirement.� She looked at him. �Even if we talk about this now or wait I�m still not going to do a good job. Through that whole concert I�m going to be thinking about what�s happening this second.�
�Ya shouldn�t.�
�I�ll decide what I should and shouldn�t do, huh? If I want to leave right now and not ever come back I will.�
�You wouldn�t dare.�
�I will if you make me.�
�Why would I make you?�
�Then tell me what�s going on.� She just looked at him. �Come on, Princess, if there is one person that understands you better than anyone it�s me.�
�I don�t want to bother you with it right now.�
�And you didn�t want to bother me with it a year ago or five months ago. It wasn�t the right time you said. When will it be the right time, Lon? When I�m happily married to someone else?� Those words stung Valondra in the heart and tears rushed to her eyes. She looked at Nickolas, wanting to hit him repeatedly, but just clenched her fists and backed up. �Damn it! I�m sorry, Princess.� He went towards her and she backed up shaking her head.
�Don�t touch me, Carter. You said some mean things to me in the past four years, but never did you speak of someone else.�
�God, Loni, I�m sorry.�
�Yeah; so am I.�
�I just want us to talk about this.� She shook her head. �Why not?�
�Because I don�t want to.�
�But I want to know why my fianc�e is scared shitless of getting married after she told me yes.� She just wiped her eyes and went out on the balcony. Nickolas followed her a couple minutes later and stood beside her. �Princess, I put up with you not telling me what�s going on for the past year and a half and I don�t want to do it anymore.�
�What do you want from me, Nick?�
�Truth, honesty, and confiding in me like before.�
�It ain�t that easy for me.�
�Just tell me. You�ll feel a lot better.�
She looked at him. �I�m afraid I�ll hurt you.�
�You�re already hurting me by not telling me.�
�I�m sorry.�
�The moment of truth is now, Lon. Either you tell me right now or I�m out the door and I won�t come back�ever.� Valondra just looked at him and thought about what Nickolas said. God, she didn�t want to be without Nickolas. And she didn�t want to tell him and hurt him. She didn�t know what to do. She loved Nickolas so much and this was hurting them both. She spent a couple minutes thinking about it and made her decision. Before she could say anything though, Nickolas stopped her. �So I guess you made your decision. I�ll see ya around sometime.� He went back inside.
�Nick, wait.�
�I have a show, Loni.� He walked form the room and she ran after him.
�Nick, please don�t go.� She followed him all the way outside, but he just got in his car and left. �Nick!� She ran to the end of the drive and watched him drive away.
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