She sat there crying and holding the picture a few minutes then threw it at the wall yelling, �Bastard!� She got up and picked up her suitcase and walked from the room. She went downstairs and started walking through the parlor, as Nickolas walked in. They looked at each other and she continued walking and went right by him.
�DJ, can we talk?� Nickolas asked. �Please?� She ignored him and went to walk out. �DJ, please.� She stopped walking and slowly looked at him with her red crying bloodshot eyes. �Let�s talk about this.�
�What�s to talk about? What I saw explains everything. I actually thought you loved me all this time and it turns out that you didn�t.�
�I do.�
�You do? You have one hell of a way of showing it. God I was so damn stupid and fell into your damn little thing; whatever the hell it was. First I see you kissing MyKenna and now I see you fucking some girl on our sofa. How the hell did you think I would react?�
�I thought you were coming home tomorrow.�
�And that makes everything alright then? I don�t think so.�
�I didn�t say that.�
�You might as well, Nick. I trusted you and everyone else that said I had nothing to worry about. Ya�ll tell me that my dream would never happen, because you love me more than anything in the universe. Everyone lied to me; especially you and I hate you.�
�But I love you and everyone knows that.�
�But that love you have for me didn�t stop you from banging some other girl.�
�I�m sorry.�
�Are you? You hurt me in the worse way possible and my heart is breaking into a katrillion pieces over you and I hate it damn it.� Nickolas looked at her, as she looked around the room. She put her suitcase down and slowly walked over to the fireplace with Nickolas still watching her. �The thing I hate the most is that while I was sitting upstairs; on our bed, I was ready to forgive you. I was looking at that picture of us from that New Years party ya had here ya know. I remembered how great everything was between us. That was like what? A year and a half ago? That was also the night I left you make love to me for the first time; not knowing you were banging some other girl on the side.�
�I was never with anyone else at that time.� She took the fire poker from its holder.
�Liar!� She swung the fire poker and cleared the fireplace mantle with it, as Nickolas jumped.
�DJ, what the fuck are you doing?�
�I can�t believe I believed you.�
�You had a right to.�
�I had a right to when you were lying to me the whole time.�
�I wasn�t lying to you and I never would.� She shook her head and picked up a crystal dolphin off the one stand. �Don�t even think about it.�
�We got this out in L.A. together remember? Little love dolphins and we agreed that it was supposed to represent our love for each other.�
�I meant every word I said.�
�Really?� He nodded. �But it was a lie.� She threw the dolphins up and then hit them across the room with the poker, as Nickolas quickly moved out of the way.
�Damn it, DJ!�
�Are you hurting yet? Am I hurting you like you have hurt me? I hope I am.� He looked at her a little afraid. �Ugh!� She took the poker and cleared off the stands by the couch. �When you�re hurting like me just let me know.� She cleared off the coffee table and a couple of the smaller stands around the parlor. Nickolas ran over to her and grabbed her from behind, but she just elbowed him in the stomach to get from his grip. She continued what she was doing then stopped and looked at the glass case on the wall that had all his music awards in. Nickolas looked at her, as she got ready to smash it.
�DJ! No!� But it was too late, he watched as the glass pieces fell to the floor. She knocked down all the awards from the case to the floor and looked at Nickolas. She then looked pass him and to the picture hanging on the wall above the fireplace; of the two of them earlier that year taken by a professional photographer. With poker in hand, she walked over and looked up at the picture. �Please, DJ, you don�t have to do this.� She ignored him and took the big picture off the wall. She leaned it up against the fireplace and looked at it closely, like it was going to soon disappear. �DJ?� She shook her head and then took the fire poker to it. �Fuck, DJ! Son of a bitch!� She took a deep breath.
�Now you�re almost hurting just like me.� She ran by him still holding the poker and he followed her to the garage. She turned on the light and saw his Prowler sitting there; the black exterior shining under the light. �Did you take her for a ride in it? And I don�t mean a regular old ride down the highway.�
�You don�t have to do this.�
�I�ll do whatever the fuck I want, Carter? Just answer the question.�
�No I didn�t.�
�Liar.� She held back her tears and started to walk slowly to the car. �This was such a nice car ya know. Great speed and a smooth ride.� She chuckled disgustedly. �Almost like its owner.� They looked at each other and she slowly walked around it, taking her hand over the newly waxed exterior. �Did you and the tramp wax this together before you fucked her on my couch?� She looked at him, but he said nothing. �Did you? It�s a simple yes or no answer. It ain�t hard.�
�No.�
�I actually believe that one for some stupid reason.� She shook her head. �Don�t ask me why though.� She leaned against the car and crossed her arms. �Tell me something, Nicky, um�were you ever going to confess what you did if I didn�t come home today and see you?� He sighed. �You weren�t going to, were you?�
�It wouldn�t be fair to you.�
�Would you have said anything if I ended up with some disease?�
�You would deserve that much�I mean knowing where it came from.�
�Why did you do it?� Tears went down her face again.
�I don�t know.�
�That�s not an answer. I don�t want to hear �I don�t know.� I want a straight answer from you.�
�Well I don�t have a straight answer.�
�Yes you do, but you just don�t want to tell me so not to hurt me more than you already have.�
�I didn�t want to hurt you.� She just looked at him. �I swear it.�
�Who was she?�
�A girl I met a couple months ago at Pop City�Tiffany.�
�Was it the first time?� He didn�t say anything and she shook her head. �Shit.�
�It meant nothing to me.�
�So it was just a quick fuck then, huh?�
�Not exactly.�
�Wasn�t I any good? If I wasn�t then you could�ve just told me instead of cheating on me with some Pop City whore.�
�You�re the best, Kota.�
�Don�t give me that. Did ya want a challenge? I could�ve given you a challenge if that�s what ya wanted.�
�No it�s not what I wanted.�
�Then tell me what it is or was that made you cheat on me in such the worse way? I want to know, Carter. I want to know what I did so wrong to be betrayed by you. As far as I know I didn�t do anything wrong. Aaron said I didn�t do anything wrong either.� The tears came from her eyes like a rainstorm, but she didn�t care. �I just want to know what I did wrong.�
�You didn�t do anything wrong. You did everything right and I love you for it.� She shook her head. �Please believe me.�
�How can I ever believe anything you say to me again? It�ll be too impossible.� She threw the poker down and walked from the garage. She walked back to the parlor with Nickolas behind her and she got her suitcase. �Goodbye, Nickolas.� She didn�t even look at him, as she walked back out and to the front door.
�DJ, wait please.� She just ignored him and walked out and to her car, as he continued following her. �Will you please wait?� She just got in her car and drove off, as Nickolas watched her.
CHAPTER 21