Sunshine searched the Boys� hotel rooms looking for Howard, but unsuccessful. She got on the elevator and went up a floor to Nickolas and Alexander�s room. She needed to talk to him about what Danielle said to her and was hoping he�d be honest with her. But then again why should he be honest when she wasn�t being honest with him. She wanted to be with Nickolas, but she still wouldn�t tell him or Nickolas for that matter.
She walked off the elevator and down the hall to Nickolas� room. She went to knock on the door, but noticed it was open ajar. She slowly pushed it open and saw Nickolas looking for something and cursing. He didn�t notice her and went into the bathroom. She realized what he was looking for and took the necklace from her pocket. She left it lay in her palm a moment while she looked at it. She sighed and walked to the bathroom where Nickolas still was.
She walked over to him and said, �I think I know what you�re looking for.� Nickolas looked at her, as she held the necklace in front of his face. He looked at the necklace then back at her. He got up and took the necklace from her.
�Where did you find this?� Nickolas asked.
�At the benefit show. It fell out of your pants pocket. When did ya get it?�
�That first day you showed it to me. I didn�t want anyone else to have it.�
�Why didn�t you give it to me?� They looked at each other.
Nickolas looked away while sticking the necklace in his pocket and said, �I never said it was for you.� Sunshine just looked at him dumbfounded, as Nickolas walked from the bathroom. She followed him out and he sat on the bed and stuck his shoes on. �I got if for someone who cares about me and I love deeply.�
�Who besides your mom do you love deeply?�
�Why does it matter, Sunnie? You moved on with Howie so why can�t I move on?�
�I never said you couldn�t. For the past six months I was hoping you�d find someone.�
�I was doing more than thinking of you.� They both knew he was lying and Sunshine sighed. �I need to do more than think of the day you come back to me, because I know deep down that�ll never happen.�
�Liar.�
�Why am I lying?� He stood up.
�It�s written all over your face, Carter, and it�s in your voice.�
�And it doesn�t make you a saint, Sunnie. You�ve been lying to me as well as to yourself. Hell, you�ve been lying to everyone around you in fact.�
�How so?�
�You�ve been lying to everyone about how you feel about me.� She just looked at him. �I can�t wait forever, Sunnie, and I know you can�t.�
�I probably can�t, but I will.�
�Yeah right.�
�Why can�t you just believe me?�
�Because I am still fucking pissed at the way you treated me when you broke it off. I am still pissed at the way you kissed Howie in front of me. You were so fast to end it between us, because you were afraid we�d end up having sex, but it didn�t take you long to get someone else. Did you have Howie lined up and waiting for you?�
�God no. I can�t believe you�re still pissed about that. I thought you understood why I broke it off.�
�I do understand, but I don�t like it.�
�And I didn�t like your lateness.� He looked at her. �That�s part of the reason why I ended it as well as afraid of us having sex.� Nickolas shook his head. �You don�t like my reason so why should I like your lateness. You were so hung up about how you were going to look that you didn�t stop and think that I was smitten with you the day we met when you looked like a total bum.� He just looked at her. �Yeah I was. I didn�t care what you wearing or weren�t wearing. All I knew is that I liked you at that moment and was hoping you�d like me.�
�Howie was just trying to help me out.�
�Howie?�
�Yeah, Howie. He thought you�d appreciate it if I took a little extra time in my appearance so he helped me out.� Sunshine shook her head. �What? You don�t believe me?�
�No; you just confirmed what Danielle pointed out to me.�
�And what was that?�
�Nothing.�
�Don�t give me that shit. What�d she say?�
�Nothing, Nick, just leave it go.�
�Why?�
�Because I said so.� Nickolas shook his head. �Why the hell does it matter, Nick? You don�t want to talk to me.� He looked at her. �What?�
�What the hell are you talking about?�
�You know exactly what I�m talking about. I know about the conversation you had with Howie.�
�What conversation with Howie?�
�The one where you told him you didn�t care about me anymore and didn�t want to see me again.�
�What the hell bullshit is he feeding you?�
�So you�re denying it.�
�Yeah, because I never said anything like that to anyone.�
�Do you want me to believe that?�
�Believe what you want, Sunnie. I ain�t going to force you to believe anything I say.�
�What the hell�s your problem?�
�You; you�re my problem.�
�What�d I do?�
�It�s what you don�t do, Sunnie. We, you and I, want to be together yet you refuse to break up with Howie so we can be together. I don�t understand why you won�t do it.� She just looked at him. �And you�re not going to tell me why either.� She continued looking at him. �Forget it. I have a plane to get on.�
�Yeah; go ahead and leave so we don�t have to finish this conversation.�
�What�s to fucking finish? You won�t do one simple thing that I ask of you.�
�What do you want me to do? Do you want me to lie to Howie?�
�Why not; you�re already lying to him. What�s one more lie when it seems to be the best thing you do?� She went to slap him, but he grabbed her arm, stopping her. �Don�t even think about hitting me. I went through that once with a girl and I will not go through it again.� She pulled her arm from him and they glared at each other, but there was still that passion between them. �I�m not the chronic liar, Sunnie, you are.� Nickolas turned and walked out and left Sunshine standing there all alone. The tears filled her eyes and she wondered how Nickolas could lie to her and be so cruel. She sat on the bed crying and Alexander walked in.
Alexander looked at her and walked over to her. He sat beside her and while embracing her asked, �What�s wrong?�
�Nick; I never thought he could be so cruel to me. He even lied to me.�
�It hurt you that bad?� She just nodded. �Don�t worry about anything, Alex will take care of you.�
�Howie�s supposed to...not that I want him to.�
�I know. I�m just tying to make you feel better.�
�Just by being here you are.�
�Do you want to talk about it?�
�Not right now.�
�Then wipe those eyes and give me a smile.� Sunshine wiped her eyes and gave Alexander the best smile she could. �I guess that�ll have to do. So you didn�t find D.�
�No; I don�t know where he is.�
�He probably went out shopping.� Sunshine got up and walked to the door, as Nickolas walked in.
They looked at each other a moment then Sunshine said, �If you�ll excuse me I need to find Howie.�
�Sunnie, will you wait a minute,� Nickolas said going after her, but she just ignored him and got on the elevator. �Ugh!� Alexander looked at Nickolas, shook his head then got on the other elevator.
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