Letters to a Friend About Love
by Domovoi

I want to die now
Please let me die now
I just want to bleed forever
And not ever wake up
From the dreamless sleep
That comes afterward
I want my heart to feel nothing
I want my mind to go numb
I don't want to love
I don't want to be hurt anymore
She'll never hurt me again
Not after I gather my courage
Then no one will ever hurt me
Because I won't exist to hurt
No more cheap jokes
No more struggling to breathe
No more falling in love
With members of a species
That has no love for me
Drink to my life
The sadness so profound
It inspired a thousand laughs
One last drink for spirit
Then the light goes out
Not that it didn't leave me long before
My eyes are so dull now
No body houses no soul
It was all spent on emotions
And I got nothing in return
Nothing to replace the heart I lost
My chest is hollow
My mouth is dry
My skin is crawling
And so it goes
And here I go
Without even the knowledge of a single kiss
Burning on my lips
Or the warmth of another pair of arms
And a body in my own arms
Drink with me tonight
Drink of my dry and wasted tears
Then drink of the blood
The wasted life that will pour
As I share my last embrace
With the cold blade
And my first and last kiss
With the frigid Earth
After I fall, tell them of me
Of the me that you've seen, My Friends
Make them feel ashamed for it
And I do know they'll be doing that
Laughing, that is, having a jolly romp
They will dance and skip about me
And get bloody footprints all over the rug
Don't let them
I don't want to be remembered just once
By the grumbling workman
Who will have to shampoo the mess up