I just realized something a few weeks ago.

I want to move out of new york and not come back (except to visit the new freedom tower if it ever gets built).

I just realized that there's no reason for me to stay here anymore. Everyone that I really care about is dead. Jobs are harder to find. Taxes and the cost of living went up. But all of that wouldn't be so bad if I wasn't living in one of the worst neighborhoods in the city. Once you live some place that is better than where you used to, it's hard to go back. I should of seen the warning signs after my Grandmother died.  I'd might of never went into the army if my grandmother haven't died (Plus the fact that everyone in the family was fighting).

I now wondered why I even came back to brooklyn  in the first place. I guess I didn't realize how bad my neighborhood was until I lefted it for 3 years. But there is a part of me that don't want to leave. I'll be leaving a lot behind. But then I see reminders everyday of how jacked up my neihborhood is. It's a morale killer.

Then I think of how my grandmother must of felt when she moved from Bamberg S.C. to New York City back in the 40's(?).Now I'm planing to move out of the only place I lived for 20+ years. I wonder if my Grandmother felt the way I felt about going into the unknown.

The next question is where I'm going to go? I know I'd end up moving to a southern state or even out west. I'm still trying to figure that out. I'm planing on moving in 2008 so I'll have plenty of time to think about it.

So I started to save up my money. Right now I'm saving $100 out of each of my paychecks.  I estimate that if things go well I'll have have a round 14,000 by the time I move. That's more than enough money to move and to get a new vehicle. So when I set up my direct deposit on my job I had $100 of it placed in my savings account and during those times when I get more work hours I'll put a way more money.

If my Grandmother was alive today I'd know she'll be very happy that I'm trying to make my life better. If she never moved from S.C. who knows where I'd be today.

I also noticed that a lot of  people in the northern state are moving to the southern states (and points out west). In my grandmother's time it was the other way around. A good handful of people I used to know moved out of new york to Southern states. A few of them have houses now, something that they never thought of when they were living in new york city. I had did a little bit of research and found out that in some of the southern states you could get a nice decent house starting at 40,000 and up which is unheard of in New York. Oh the possiblities! If I can save up enough money I could have enough to move, get a vehicle, and put a down payment on a house! I'm gonna have to give up a lot for a while but in the end it'll be worth it!

"Sometimes you have to go where the grass grows greener for you to realize that the grass in your yard is yellow."

-Tigoness