a couple of moments of sadness wont cover up the happiness you've given me this past 5 months... thanks for all your promises... and helping me to understand... for every bad moment you deserve... your total is negative one... i finally understand... and i know this hurts us both... im glad we're still going to be the best of friends... thanks for being so truthful and not wanting to hurt me... we'll wonder to the ends of our days... what really happened... if the last we ever meet is in europe... over champagne and a catherdral... i know ill see you in heaven... because you helped me to him... everything you've done and everything you are... will be in my heart forever... my first true love... even though its possible... that you could wake one day... and finding yourself with me... is a day of dismay... i think its best for me and you... to just be friends... its what you want... and its what i can live with... because until that maybe day comes... ill never seperate myself from... believing everything you say... or until the day we finally realize... that what we had is just that... been had and is over... life is full of magnet-tar-pit traps... we're optimistic... we've lost weight... im eating again... and i want you to know... that even though we might never kiss again... unless it be a cheek or a hand... im glad you held my hand... and steered me through the crowed halls of sadness... ive expressed my love to you... venus and i adonis... the bit i cherished most... besides you warmth next to me... is how you make me feel when we talk... our connection is strong... and should be forever... as friends or lovers... i know of you and you know of me... lots of things we helped each other see... you promised me a day of closure... the day i hope doesnt come... but im glad now... that no matter what outcome... ill be able to say "as you wish" with no sarcasm or hint of cruelty... no matter how bad it gets... ill never yell to make you feel bad... yelling like my dad... it was you who helped me then... im so grateful for all that has happened and all that will come next... when you are sad... or need help... or anything else... i want to be there for you... a hug of encouragement... a joke of feelbetterness... or a conversation of advice... you'll be in my heart forever... someone ill never forget.