Whee, tired, trying out a new way to write these journals to make them more interesting to read. (Mission impossible...Haha..Not funny.) Today, well yesterday, sucked mostly. Just the thunderstorm was worthy for a w00t! Loud stuff, lovin' it. The time it struck all the way into the house; "Zap-Flash-Kha-BOOOOOM!!" so cool, you don't even know. Also the one with a long, loud rumble that made my ears ring. Good stuff, I tell ya ^^
Otherwise, the Midsummer Night feast. Sucked... Rainy and stuff, didn't even go to watch the bonfire, but sat around at the compy and seeked for other lonely people who didn't celebrate. Ah well.. That's about it, not much to say.
Again a little tired, having an interesting discussion about loser-ness in Gaia and listening to Stratovarius. Feven returned from England today, that lucky bitch :3 I finally could pay back for that kiss she gave me two years ago, bwahahahaa! No one kisses me and gets away with it >x3 We talked about her trip and everything, and planned out for Wednesday, as we are going to Savonlinna to do some shopping. I have too much to buy. A headset, a walkman, a dress, underwear, food... Gah! I'm sure my folks want to give me money... I'm sure....Not. Oh well... Another depression wave coming, JOY!!
Alright, next time I bet on anything concerning my looks, remind me not to. The truth always hurts a little, no matter how much I appreciate honesty. Well, figures, no longer I need to prove everyone I'm ugly, people will do it for me. Lovely. Depressing, but truthful... Very depressing. Kinda odd, after all if a positive comment offends me, and a negative one hurts me, what am I expecting? .. Er, well no comments at all, as a matter of fact. The less I get attention, the happier I will be. Of course I'll still try to herd some attention, but once I get it I want to drop it. Bweh. Now I'm seriously upset, thought I have no reason at all! Come on, I practically begged for negative comments and got them, what's the matter with me? Getting what I want and still being unhappy. I'm a bad person, so kill me.
Oh, I returned from confirmation camp today I have cried quite a lot, I miss everyone already! I had the nicest.. Er. Isonen... I have no idea what to call him in english. Oh well. I started out hating him and him quite disliking me, but in the end he was the greatest person I had met for a while. I even could bear Niina's presence and Sanna, a new girl, was quite the cheery gal. I miss them so much!! And I can never have that time back, I'd go back on a new camp any day. Thank God we have a meet later on the autumn. I'm gonna cry there, again. Poor Hevay-Animal wasn't such a bad-ass after all. Damn. xD