~*Untitled*~
From the moment that I saw you,
I knew you were the one.
You saved me from the darkness,
and opened up the sun.
Through the years I've known you,
You always knew what to say.
No matter what we said or did,
I knew I'd love you again one day.
I know that we can never be,
Our worlds are so far apart,
But still I hope that one day,
You'll open up your heart.
Through our differences and the hard times,
I hope you can see,
that through it all,
We were meant to be.
Cause Baby, I'de do anything to have you
After all this time,
I know it's true,
how much I truly love you
If you only knew
~*~
~*Untitled*~
Promise me forever,
Promise me tonight,
Promises are broken,
Each and every night.
I cant seem to find another who knows just what to do,
Who knows how to comfort me in such a way as you.
You make me laugh, you make me cry,
You make me melt, I dont know why.
I sometimes wish it wasnt you,
But in my heart, I know it's true.
Tell me what to do,
Tell me what to say.
How can we be together,
when you're so far away?
I'd do anything just to hold you,
Anything just to prove,
How happy you make me,
and what our love can do.
All I can do is hope,
All I can do is pray,
that one day we'll be together,
Why can't it be today?
To Razor.
~*~
~*Fooled Back To Life*~
Do you know how it feels to spend your whole life trying to find someone
that you could love
only to have it all come crashing down and thrown
in your face?
To lose the only hope of happiness you've ever known?
I know that when I look at you, I see myself in your eyes.
I want to reach out and touch your face.
And you make my whole body shake.
I've never known what love felt like. Have you?
Have you had the chance to look in the eyes of the person you can
honestly love?
And not feel the feeling of remorse sink into your head?
I'm as good as dead.
When I found you, I thought this was it.
That my life had taken a turn for the better and I didnt have to quit.
But I was wrong..
You were here, right in front of my face.
The butterflies came and I was full of hope.
Can you tell by my eyes? This place..
I've never been here before. You brought me back to reality.
Back to life. Tranquility
.
But it's gone. You're gone.
This feeling... gone.
Will you even remember?
~*~
~*Hope*~
Feelings of hatred and sorrow,
No desire to see tomorrow.
I'm falling faster down to nowhere,
I'm almost there.
I want to be able to feel content,
to understand that we lead the life that we live.
And the decisions we make we might live to regret.
But you don't understand. Could you give..
Me hope, something to hold on to.
Reassure me that I'm holding on to you..
Because all I feel is.. nothing.
Confusion of whether I'm alive or just pretending to live,
there's no real point to this madness. Why should I live in the sadness..
Of everyday life is killing me. Sucking the breath right out of me.
I want to hold on to you and know that my feelings will stay..
But I watch them each time drift off and float away.
I'm alone.
I don't want to hurt you or myself,
but I always end up hurting both. Help..
Before I drown in my own self pity.
I need you to stand by me, keep me afloat.
The waters coming high in this life-sized boat,
And I dont think I'm gonna make it.
Give me hope.
That's all I need.
I'm alone.
~*~
~*Me*~
Do you want to know?
Do you want to see?
Do you want to know..
What it's like to be Me?
Pain that swallows all of my hope,
I feel like I'm on the verge of choking.
My life is a poor excuse, a waste of space.
But it's all a game to you.
Pain.
Sorrow engulfs me, not letting me see happiness that's true.
A fog of mindless regrets blind me.
But you're too busy ignoring me to see through,
I want you to feel too.
Sorrow.
Regret encircles me. Regret of what I am,
Regret of what I may turn out to be.
But most of all, regret that I ever meant something to you..
That you ever meant something to me.
Do you see? Do you feel?
I want you to feel it too..
Regret.
~*~
~*Tear-Stained Eyes*~
If you only knew how much you mean to me,
and if my love would be the only thing you'de need to make you happy,
If you were content with who I am and who you are,
and if we could get those nights back cruising in the car,
Maybe my life goal would be complete.
You're the only one that I need.
Sleepless nights surround me once more.
You've left me wide open, heart bleeding on the floor.
If you could look into my eyes and see yourself with me,
and if my love for you would equal your love for me,
If the comfort you found in me would be all you'd ever need to get by,
and if when you're with me, it'd make you feel like you could fly.
I could die and it wouldnt matter. As long as I'm with you.
You make me who I am, everything I do, I do for you.
Yet the constant reminders of lonliness, piercing through my heart.
You've left me with nothing.. no where to even start.
I would've been content just watching you sleep,
my feelings for you were more than just deep.
You tore my heart out and threw it on the floor.
Remind me never to fall in love anymore.
For all the times you've fed me the line,
"I'll love you forever and today,"
Your heartless words didnt last long,
I guess nothing good can stay.
~*~
~*Yesterdays Dream*~
Sometimes I stop and think that maybe things will get better.
That the hopeless days of wishing for love would be over.
Wandering, sorrowful and sad, I devote myself to unhappiness and depression.
You'de think I'd learn my lesson.
After all I've been through, he's still the one I want.
The days I've spent with him, talking about nothing,
were the best days of my life.
He's eccentric. That means something.
He sheltered me with his words. Hopeful.
The thought of sharing my life with him.. doubtful.
Hope is what I have.
Truth is what I need.
"you ruined my life and made it perfect at the same time."
Dedicated to CT.
~*~
~*Anathemic Heart*~
Look inside my eyes. Tell me what you see.
Can you sense the confusion boiling inside of me?
Helplessness is all I know, pain is all I feel.
Open up my heart. Show me something real.
All I know is how I feel and all I feel is pain.
Left with nothing left to lose, nothing left to gain.
Sadness overwhelmes my every move, hopelessness sets in.
You don't understand. Why can't I ever win?
Battling to overcome, struggling to be free.
Hatred is my answer, blinded by what I see.
Every move I make, Every word I speak.
Cursed by what's inside, quickly becoming weak.
Feelings astray, heart on the floor.
Can we stop this now? I don't want to feel anymore.
Forcefulness surrounds me, blinding me with fear.
Nothing shown on this face, but a single tear.
Darkness is the answer. Now I disappear.
~*~
~*Definition of a Best Friend*~
When you are alone and feeling blue.
When no one's there to be there for you.
When you try to smile but don't succeed.
When what you want isn't what you need.
I'll be there.
When the tears fall down your face.
When your whole life begins to break.
When you feel like there's no where to turn.
When you're given less than what you deserve.
I'll be there.
When it seems like no one cares.
When your problems seem beyond repair.
When you want to disappear.
When all your days end up in tears.
I'll be there.
I only hope I've given you half of what you've given me,
You make me who I've always wanted to be.
You're the bestest of friends I could ever ask for,
I couldnt imagine wanting anything more.
There's nothing more I'd want from you,
Just remember.. I love you too.
For Sarah.
~*~
~*Piece By Piece*~
My life is falling apart, piece by piece.
Is there a point?
There's so much anger inside of me, ready to be released.
I want to be happy. I want to be free.
Is there a point?
But you don't need or want to understand anything about me.
You're so perfect. Everything you do..
Sometimes I wish you were as scared as I am.
Lonely and confused too.
When you smile, you light up the room.
Every dream you've had has come true.
But I.. I fall asleep with endless thoughts of pain.
Every breath I take is one I shouldnt have took.
Everything left to lose, nothing left to gain.
No fairytale ending in my life book.
You dont understand. You never will.
You have no desire.
Just kill.
Me.
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