This poem was not written by me, but it has a lot of meaning to it. I think everyone should read it or something like it, which is why I'm including it at the start of my own work. Some people live their lives ignorant of anyone but themselves and never understanding or at least attempting to understand the people that are different or the people who don't live up to their own standards. It's hard for some people to understand how much their own words or actions can hurt someone so deeply. And it's people like that who make this world such a horrible place to be in.
Angry adolecent hates his fucking life. Everyday he cuts himself with a knife. He steps into the school, he's got a fucking gun. You all think you're cool, he's gonna take you out one by one. Scars on his arms and hatred in his face. In this world he feels outta place. Everything that has caused him pain. He hates you all he will be your bane. He's all pissed off with a gun in his hand. He's cried enough it's time for his plan. On his daily routine on his way to school. He's sick of jocks that think they're so cool. Kids throwing rocks as he walks away. This shit happens every fucking day. His parents say he's going nowhere. He tells the school but they don't fucking care. Everybody says he's not worth their time. his life is anything but sublime. On the lunch table with a gun to his head. It already seems like he's fucking dead... "It takes drastic actions for you to listen. I'm so sick of this social division. Why can't you accept me for who I am? I'm not like you and I'm not one of them. All you cool kids with your perfect lives. My life consists of tears and knives. It doesn't help when you pick on me. Just want to live my life free. Is that so hard of a request? Or does it have to escalate to this fucking mess? I can't live with all this rage. But I know you fucks will never change!" Two shots come from the barrel of his gun. Two kids dead but they only cared about one...
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~*Today*~
I seen you last night,
Full of anger and hate,
After that fight,
We have been having for so long.
My heart is full of sadness,
As I think I've what I've done,
to your heart and mine,
All those days away from the sun,
So willing to be,
My way of being free.
And, How much, you'll never know,
I care for you so,
But, you say there wont be a day,
That we'll be like we were.
So full of love and happiness,
There was never any sadness.
So, All I have to say,
is there's always today.
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~*I Love You*~
Did you know,
that when i see you,
im willing to die,
and i feel like i could fly?
In your arms is where i want to be,
and your heart is what i wanna see.
Im totally speechless,
when it comes to you,
and my heart is telling me,
that you like me too.
But this is more than friendship and hugs,
'cause where you're from,
there are no bugs,
that get you to lie,
and cry and cry.
Instead, your world,
is full of love,
and kindness, and kisses, and those hugs.
I think the love that I have for you,
is more than just being faithful and true.
I think, I know,
that you love me, and I love you too.
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~*The One*~
Can't you see,
How much you really mean to me?
Your always there,
for a helping hand,
or a hug or kiss for us to share.
But, now your gone,
because I lied,
but i was wrong,
and now i see,
that your the one,
i've missed all my life.
So, If im still,
in your heart,
then lift my feelings,
to the sun,
and let me know, you'll be the one.
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~*My Son*~
I was waiting that night,
for you to come home,
looking out the window,
so you wouldnt have to be alone.
I heard that you and your friends,
had fun and drank some alcohol then,
but they said you were fine to drive,
as they said you drove out of sight.
I had no idea, that, that call would come,
saying, "Sorry Miss, But where you from?"
They told me that you had wrecked your car,
and that every second was luck by far,
I ran outside with no shoes on,
and drove away in daddy's car,
I sped as fast as I could go,
not caring about the sleet and snow.
I stopped in front of red flashing lights,
and seen the ambulance working to fight,
I cried as I seen you laying there,
they told me to wait and step back from the tear,
You werent breathing for awhile, then you woke up, but just for a second to say your goodbye,
"Goodbye Mom, there's nothing to do,
Im sorry for doing this to you,
I love you a lot, and you know this, right?
But, now its time to stop the fight."
That's all you said, and all you could,
you shut your eyes, and fell against the hood.
Im sorry to say, that i had lost my son,
that snowy night, where I lost a ton.
So, be careful now and tend to these words,
cause it could be you, and it could be worse.
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~*Believe*~
She was a girl,
That never fit in,
always being put down,
she never was crowned,
but only was seen,
as a child left unseen,
to be laughed at and pushed,
around like a doll.
That never meant much,
to those people at all.
But, deep in her heart,
she was filled with hope,
that someday she'd be,
just something more than a joke,
so all that's left to say,
is Believe in that joke,
that everyone thought,
was just a dope.
that little girl,
filled with nothing but Hope.
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~*Don't*~
Don't cry and yell,
When i am gone,
Please tell my mom,
that i was the one.
Don't carry on,
and throw a fight,
Just think of me,
that one fine night.
Don't ruin your life,
because of me,
instead be there,
to set me free.
Don't sit at home,
and waste your time,
Instead, be there,
to erase the crime.
Don't roam the streets,
trying to find me,
Instead, find someone,
to set YOU free.
Remember the times,
we've shared and loved,
and cherish those days,
we've laughed and hugged.
Im gone right now,
but i'll be there,
when you are here,
so have fun and release your fears.
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~*Nightime*~
Nightime is the time to rest,
when the world's at it's very best.
The moon shines in your deep, green eyes,
and my life is turned back to the blue skies.
The stars above are sparkling free,
which shows our love without a fee.
There is no light to free the lies,
instead the darkest nightly skies.
And, as I drift away to sleep,
the love we've shared is ours to keep.
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~*Dolphins*~
Dolphins are beautiful, as you can see,
living in the ocean, so blue and so free,
Not hurting a thing, or taking a life,
Just living there silently, in spite of some fights,
Playing so gleefully, happy and nice,
As safe as can be, or arent I right?
Time turns the page, and time will only tell,
and the question right now is as obvious as you'll see..
Will the species be torn, or will they breathe and be able to see?
It is up to us which way they'll go,
so do what you can now, or the slower they'll flow.
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~*Up To You*~
The world is cold now as it never was before,
Full of pain, and hurt, and hate.
The life that people wish to live,
is shattered left to right.
The world was a happy place,
Full of peace, love, and trust,
But things have changed and so have man,
and there's only one thing left to say,
Save the animals and save the oceans,
save them while there's still time,
what have they done to deserve this cruelty,
what have they done, I say?
As the ocean see's its last blue wave,
as the oil and objects kill,
what are they thinking, those people who've done this, what are they thinking, I wonder.
The beautiful things in life last just long enough for you to realize,
that they're only going to be here once, and it's all up to you.
Yes, It's all up to you.
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~*To Go*~
Dedicated to Kevin
Am i worth it?
Am i true?
To be your somebody?
to be with you?
As i sit here tonight,
Thinking of you,
and how your not possible,
for me to be with,
You are like a dream,
that only she can live,
that only she can see.
But, That's not fair.
Not at all.
Because I need you,
to hold me tight,
for me to get away,
from all the fights.
You have helped me so much,
but you dont know,
because your a star,
from afar.
Sometimes i wish,
that i could die,
so i could fly,
into your arms,
when your not,
on that stage,
that made you, you.
So, Kevin, Please,
When you finally,
are within reach,
come to me,
and let me know,
when im able,
to go.
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