I know it's been a few days since my last post, but when you read some of these blogs around this world, it makes yours seem so useless. Everyone has there own views, some have life giving advise, others feel sorry for themselves and many wonder why things are as they are.  I feel I had alot given in my life as well as feel I can get most anything that I want, if I really want it bad enough. At lease always been easy for me. But, still have that lonely feeling then that feeling was I wrong in what I wanted. I give more from my heart than my head. Probably why I am called a soft head much of the time. Well, winter I think has finally arrived here in Arkansas as it's cooling off even with the sunny skies. Even set up electric heater in my room. Don't want to light the pilot on the main house heating unit just yet. Double last years electric/gas bill? Yuk. May get everyone and electric heater and leave main unit off. Naw, I won't but want to. At lease some good has come out of Fall season. No mowing this acre of yard. haha  Had to call doctor for more pills for my heart and blood pressure as tried to get off the medication since I un-retired myself because of kid's and grand kids and that equals bills meaning job equals money for bills. If only I could find that honest special one to live the remainer of this human life. At fifty-nine as of October 11th, and still wondering why I am here. Maybe it's to take care of my kid's, kids? Listen to the news and see all the problems happening all over. A sixteen year old kid, criminally charged as an adult over killing a well known attorneys wife. Hurricanes ready to hit in Florida and been doing damages from Mexico and homeless seeking places for food and even a place to get out of the weather. Gas Gouging or is it just market prices. Just know that I can barely make it and feel so bad for people what have starting wage jobs and wonder how thye can make it. Softhead speaking again. Depressing day. maybe because I have to go to work in an hour. Everyone that reads these blogs give me some feed back as to your own thinking. Help me in my thinking. Meanwhile everyone have a good day until my next posting. Thanks to all my new friends that have accepted me for ME, and goodbye to those that feel they don't need me added as a friend. Still like you just the same. We just have our own opinions on everything. Even if I don't agree with you, I still care for you! Later