(Off the Cuff Answers)
1) Was there any time in your relationship with the alleged perpetrator (A-P) when you began to understand that he had any sort of fixation with child abuse and munchausens in particular? Yes and no. In retrospect it's all very obvious. In retrospect, I can clearly see all the warning signs. However, at the time I just wasn't prepared for anyone with this kind of obsession. I can now say that when the A-P started to make those ridiculous and confusing statements, questions but in statement form, about my mother having committed munchausens by proxy against me, I got the initial glimpse of the A-P's severe problems as they relate to his munchausens fixation. And, also at about the same time when he started asking those other relatively similar questions, in the form of more statements than inquiries, I realized something bizarre was up. I felt like something weird was going on in his mind. It raised my hackles and fired up my instinctive internal warning sirens. A lot of things he said or alluded to at that time raised my hackles. Like the odd questions about whether or not I meant to run over the little squirrel that night on the road, when I almost killed the squirrel yet swerved and missed it. He was not in the car with me that night, so his questioning was truly odd. And then there was the way he kept calling my son, "The boy." This creeped me out, more and more so over time. Then he declined my offer to spend any time with me and my son, thus declining to meet my son, and it seemed like he was shrugging off his strange thoughts. Yet obviously he's held onto all of his delusional beliefs anyway. I guess what one would have to remember, is that all the A-P's statements and insinuations prior to my dumping him were extremely vague and inconsistent and I only knew this man for about four months! One of the most important warnings I could present to other women is simply to listen to your internal caution sirens! Don't ignore your feelings just because you think there's no way they could be accurate. I used to be the kind of person that really ignored my gut reactions because I just figured it was nonsense. I thought how could any instincts be the reality without more concrete evidence. That was one of my major mistakes in this situation.
2) The alleged perpetrator appears disgruntled because this website does not react directly to his fixations or claims. How do you feel about this? I feel like, where exactly does he get off? This site is not in any way for him. He's stalking this website and he is uninvited. It's pure crap that he thinks this site, me, you or anyone else involved should pander to his garbage in any way. This site is about processing, catharsis and warning other would-be victims. The last portion is the least intended part of the website. I believe the A-P is simply a megalomaniac who can't get off of his own self-centered egocentric delusional fictitious carpet ride long enough to realize the world does not exist to please him. I dumped him that means I don't care what he thinks and I don't have to appease him. No one I know wants to appease him either. No one I know cares a fig about him. A lot of people I know think he's an unsalvageable craven loony tune. He needs to get off of himself and get out of my life. Not that he's really in my life in any kind of meaningful way. Nonetheless, stalkers are generally not capable of those exits! That's why they're called stalkers. That "fictitious" carpet ride referring to one of his all time favorite words in this projection schema life.
3) Why might an individual such as the alleged perpetrator become fixated on something such as munchausens by proxy? I'm not really sure. I suppose it could be in large part because of his own past. Perhaps his mother had munchausens? Then again, due to his own past, maybe this totally way out there strange disorder fascinated him because it was once a novel concept to him. Or it may have thrilled him because it was something he thought he could get away with one way or another at some point in his life, either by claiming someone was abusive this way on order to watch what would happen or by committing it himself. Perhaps he thought it would make the perfect revenge tool if he ever had a chance to go after a woman with kids. Perhaps he viewed it as the ideal, Achilles heel." From some of the things he said to me during the short relationship I had with him, especially towards the end, it sounded like he kept a full mental tool box of "Achilles Heel" tweekers to play with if he wanted to for vendetta purposes. He as much as stated that he was ruthless in his revenge tactics and that he had an extreme "dark side" that he would fully embrace if he went after someone. Really, he'd have to be examined by a forensic expert to get a good answer to this question.
4) That's rather interesting. Is there anything else he stated which our lady viewers could perhaps learn from? Oh, probably a ton of strange stuff towards the end of my four-month relationship with him. I remember he also used to say he would never love again if I left him. That raised my hackles too. I mean, when the person looks obsessed and serious about this kind of thing all at once, it's not flattering at all. It makes me feel like, what's wrong with this person? I can see it more in a relationship where the people have been together for many years and the whole situation was wonderful for them. I can see it with people on their 50th wedding anniversary. But not in a four month relationship. It didn't make sense. However, this kind of obsessive love, that's not love at all, is typical for stalkers.
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