(Off the Cuff Answers)
1) It appears that the alleged perpetrator (A-P) has sent me another email. This email has been added to this site (once again all identifying information removed). How do you feel about this? Well, he's pretty sick! His nonsensical accusations are in the same-old same-old crazy vein of thought as always. He just keeps repeating himself like a broken record.
2) For those readers who may have questions, are any of the alleged perpetrator's claims of malevolent activity on you part true? No, none of them are anywhere near reality. And all the past poetry I wrote, which he keeps referring to, well the vast majority of it was written about adult issues between adult people. Absolutely none of it was ever written about my abusing any child. I literally don't have the stomach for violence. I've never slandered anyone, this includes the A-P. I believe the emails from the A-P are proof enough that I'm writing the truth about him and my own personal experience of this truth. I certainly don't suffer from MPD (multiple personality disorder) and never have. And all those references to MPD, blood, needles and whatnot that the A-P is so fixated on are figurative expressions of my own adult pain and none of this was ever passed on to any children. I write, I don't inflict. Writing is my processing mechanism, writing, introspection, and catharsis through writing. Not only this, which is the reality and will always be the reality, I will forever choose writing over inflicting. It's simply no contest in my mind. I naturally gravitate towards the pen and paper to express myself. With this mechanism in place there's no need nor drive for me to do other things.
3) How long has writing been your method of expressing yourself and processing? Since I was, hmm, maybe five or six. When I was five or six, I wrote children's stories. By the time I was thirteen or so I was writing poetry and also still children's stories.
4) It sounds like writing out your feelings has a long-standing history for you? Sure, I've been writing for most of my life and over time writing becomes a more set mode of catharsis. I believe this is probably true for many authors, both the famous and the unknown varieties of writers. Numerous poets have told me over the years that their poetry is their way of processing their pain. And I have read interviews from countless others that concede on this point.
5) The alleged perpetrator claims that you have a history of lying? This is also grossly false. No person is 100% flawlessly honest 100% of the time. No person is a perfect sinless saint. But I don't usually lie. I have; in fact, very rarely lied and the vast majority of lying, counting back throughout my entire life, have been minor white lies. I've never told any whoppers. I just have always felt so guilty when I fib, even over the tiny white lies, told rarely for purposes, which are never malicious. I wouldn't want to find out how I'd feel over telling a whopper! So it'll probably never happen. I'm sure that sick A-P will take this answer around the bend a few thousand times. He's so deranged and illogical it's unreal. Nonetheless, the truth is the truth. I'm not about to be ashamed to tell the normal viewers that I'm not perfect in every way.
6) The alleged perpetrator claims that you told the police that you "hate" your son. What is your reaction to this? It's totally absurd and it's far from the truth. It's just more of his same-old same-old broken record chants of garbage.
7) How would you react if the police actually had such a statement in your record? I think I'd react in the same way as any other normal person, I be pretty ticked off and I'd verbally confront the detective or whoever else put such a statement in there. I'd probably also confront the person in writing. I really can't imagine that such a statement (I.E. from me) is in the records though. But if it is, well it's just flat out not true, I never said that and I won't ever back down on that point.
8) How long do you believe the alleged perpetrator will persist? Who knows. He used to tell me, towards the end of our brief relationship, that he could be the worst enemy anyone could ever have and that he always looked for his victim's Achilles heel. I guess he thinks having some crazy person turning reality inside out and slandering me is my Achilles heel. He's just stupidly arrogant and wackadoodle beyond any 1/2 way sane person's comprehension.
9) How many reasons has the alleged perpetrator invented to warrant a lawsuit against you? More than I can remember, in numerical form, right off the top of my mind. But it's been everything from dumping him, which I gather caused his initial damages, to my poetry, when he didn't want to publish it himself, to his phony claims of munchausens, then for getting a court order, then for reporting him to the police, and onward. It's endless. You were so right in saying that he'll keep at the lawsuit chant no matter what I do or don't do! So I don't care anymore. This, by the way, is a documented and common ploy of stalkers. Many stalkers try to sue their victims. So the fact that he's wishing to sue me is in no way a piece of that nonexistent identifying information. It's just prevalent to the point of being ordinary stalker behavior. This is definitely something other victims should be very aware of so that they aren't freaked out, shocked or unprepared when it happens to them.
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