Disclaimer: I own nothing; Star Trek belongs to Paramount and the

Roddenberrys. Please don't sue…No money was made from this writing I

write simply for therapy.

Pairing C/P (of Course)

Rated NC-17

DATE WITH AN ANGEL

Tom entered the holodeck, his program was running, Sandrine's. He always waited until late to arrive. The older crowd was usually gone to bed and he had the quite little bar almost to himself.

As he entered through the arch he saw that Captain Janeway and Chakotay were among the few occupants of the bar. They seemed to be in a deep conversation. He'd have to speak to Janeway before she left.

He made certain not the stare too long that the dark man that sat near her at the table. The sight of Chakotay could send his blood racing.

Tom approached the bar and ordered a beer.

"My Tomas. You always look so sad."

"You worry about me too much Sandrine."

"When will you find someone special? Someone to fill your nights with the passion that France is known for?"

"I doubt I will."

Sandrine's face took on a soft sad smile. Her hand reached out and touched his.

"Tomas, sometimes love happens when you least expect it."

"That would be any time now."

~*~

"Alright Chakotay, there he is at the bar talking with Sandrine."

"I saw him come in."

"If you're so attracted to him get your ass over there and do something."

"Kathryn, he's never want to be with me. After the way I treated him when we merged the crews."

"You've both changed a lot since then. I also have inside information that he likes men too."

"Maybe later."

"Now Commander, that's an order!"

"You can't..."

"Don't try me Chakotay, get over there and at least talk with him at most give him a kiss that will knock his socks off."

Chakotay stood up and walked over in the general direction of the bar.

Finally he approached the blonde haired angel. His palms were sweaty and his heart was pounding hard in his chest.

"Good evening Tom."

"Hello Chakotay."

"I was wondering if you'd like to go for a walk later maybe on the Beach at Malibu?"

Tom was stunned; his most favorite spot on earth other than Marseilles was Malibu.

"Chakotay, I'd love to. What time is your reservation?"

"0100."

"Man you must be a night owl. I'll go catch a nap before. What will we be doing anyway? Just a walk on the beach, swimming, or surfing?"

"I've got a big block of time reserved, I'm sure we'll have time for whatever you'd like to do. I'll see you here?"

"It's a date." Tom polished off his beer and walked to the arch.

He'd need a couple of hours of shuteye.

Chakotay walked back to the table. Janeway was almost bouncing up and down.

"Well?"

"We're going to meet here at 0100 for some time at Malibu."

"And?"

"And he said it's a date."

"Well, it's a start. Good luck Chakotay. I'll cover you and schedule another conn officer tomorrow. Just in case."

"Not necessary Kathryn."

"I insist, just remember from now on no more late dates."

"Yes, Ma'am."

"Now this old woman has to get to bed 0600 comes early."

"Good night Kathryn, pleasant dreams."

"Good Night Chakotay, I hope you don't get to sleep a wink."

Chakotay smiled showing her those sexy dimples.

"I doubt that it will go that far. Tonight at least."

"Watch out for my Tomas, Commander, he'll surprise you." Sandrine had overheard them and was smiling at the attractive dark man.

"Sandrine, I promise I'll be careful."

Chakotay walked toward the arch following Kathryn out of the holodeck. He needed to seek his spirit guide. He'd need all the wisdom that she could provide.

~*~

Time: 0000 hours

The alarm sounded in Tom Paris' quarters. He silenced it, he'd probably fall out at the helm tomorrow.

"To hell with it Tommy boy, you know you'd sell the Delta Flyer to spend a minute with Chakotay."

He got out of bed and walked into the bathroom. He stepped into the sonic shower and gave the command to start the process.

Minutes later he walked out of the tiny room feeling like he'd lost a couple of layers of skin.

"Computer, coffee black."

The replicator immediately produced the steaming beverage. Tom lifted the mug and walked over to the sofa. He needed the caffeine. Then he'd have to get dressed in a couple of minutes.

~*~

Chakotay was deep in the trance of his vision quest. He'd had difficulty maintaining the trance for any length of time. Finally he achieved the mind state that allowed him to arrive at the forest  .His guide came to him.

"My child you are troubled." It wasn't a question.

"Grandmother," he addressed the eagle with the title of one of great age and wisdom. "I need your council."

"Concerning the blonde young one?"

"Yes, Grandmother."

"Follow your heart my child that is all I can tell you."

"What if..."

There was a blinding flash and he found himself sitting on the floor in his cabin.

He looked at the chrono it was 0030 hours.

"Spirits, I've got to get ready."

He jumped off the floor after putting away his power bundle. He showered and then he'd have to decide what to wear.

~*~

Tom had dressed in a pair of Speedos. He figured they would probably go for a swim. Over that he wore a pair of beach pants in the regular garish print and an oversized T-shirt. He hoped that he wasn't going too casual.

"Tom it's not like it's the prom. Just be yourself and yet right, being myself hasn't exactly brought Mr. Chakotay to my door in the past five years."

He checked the chrono he had 10 minutes to get to the holodeck. He grabbed his sunglasses and walked out the door.

~*~

Chakotay had opted for the causal look. He wore knee length baggy trunks and a T-shirt; he topped off the look with a pair of beach sandals. With 10 minutes to go he grabbed his ball cap and walked out the door.

~*~

Tom and Chakotay arrived together at the holodeck. Each looked almost surprised that the other had shown up.

"Ready for the beach?"

"Always."

Chakotay instructed the computer to run the particular program and they entered the room when the heavy double doors parted.

The program was perfect, everything from the smell of brine in the air to the seagulls.

Tom and Chakotay walked along the shore talking. At first the conversation was about the ship. However as time went by they began to peel away the layers of formality.

"Chakotay, why did you ask me here?"

It was time for Chakotay to tell the truth. Chakotay was worried that Tom might be offended, or hit him, or worse yet laugh in his face.

"I I'm attracted to you Tom, I wanted to get to know you better."

"I see."

"Does that make you uncomfortable?"

"No. I'm attracted to you as well. I have been since we were in the Marquis together."

"You never said anything, why?"

"You and Seska were a couple. After she left I thought about it but I wasn't sure you'd want to be with me."

Chakotay slipped his hand in the younger man's. He looked deeply into the sapphire gaze.

"Tom I want to, but I want it to mean something."

"So do I. I want something that will last Chakotay. I'm sick of being a notch on someone's bedpost."

"So how do we do from here?"

"We keep seeing each other and see what develops."

"Sounds good to me."

They walked together holding hands, no words were exchanged they in awe watched as the sun set a in a deep shade of tangerine across the ocean.

As the final rays of light danced on the surface of the water it was Tom who broke the silence.

"When I needed time to think back on Earth I'd come here as a kid. The ocean and sunsets like that one always helped my put things into the proper perspective."

"So what perspective have you achieved where the two of us are concerned?"

"I think that we'll be good together. I'll of course rub off on you and you'll lose some of that stiffness that you're famous for. Me who knows, maybe you'll awaken the responsible person inside of me.  Help me smooth off the rough edges of my personality."

"Tom, you are a responsible person. Every day of our life here you prove that to me over and over. Yet in spite of it you still keep that enthusiasm; that spark that for all intents and purposes is Tom Paris."

"You sound like you've really been studying me councilor."

"No, not as a councilor as a suitor. I regret that I've waited so long to approach you."

"Why now?"

"You want the truth?"

"Always."

"Kathryn, I confided in her my feelings and she basically lit a fire under me."

"Remind me to thank her."

He and Chakotay turned to face each other. The moon had risen and its silvery light played off the darker mans hair and features.

"You're beautiful under the moonlight." Tom whispered bringing his free hand up to gently brush Chakotay's cheek.

The older man's eyes closed as he absorbed the sensation of the slightly calloused skin touching him. He wanted to commit it to his memory, make those blessed feelings a part of him forever. As his eyes opened he looked at Tom, really looked at the man. Not the Marquis traitor, not the man drummed out of Starfleet, or any of the other personas. He looked deeply into that sapphire gaze and for a moment saw into Tom's soul. He saw a wounded young man reaching out to him. Tom was drawn to Chakotay like a moth to a flame, drawn to the light but fearful of the flame.

*Follow you heart. * The words of his spirit guide flowed through his mind. This man was fearful, almost timid to his touch, almost like the mythical unicorn, Chakotay gently stroked the smooth cheek upward his hand turning as it entered the hairline his fingers parted separating strands of the spun gold. His hand stopped as it tenderly cupped the beautiful head.

Tom's eyes slowly opened. He raised his face to look up at the dark man.

Chakotay moved closer to Tom. He felt the younger man molding himself into the hard tanned body as Chakotay slowly brought his lips into contact with the sensual mouth.

The kiss was sweet a full of promise. It told of passion to come, nights together loving and being loved. It told of a thousand nights lying in the arms of this man. Of growing old together, the kiss was a beginning, a prelude to everything.

As Chakotay leaned deeper into the kiss he felt moisture brush his cheek. Tom was crying.

"Tom what's wrong?" Chakotay asked in the slightest whisper.

"I'm afraid." Came the pained answer.

"Of what?"

"I'm afraid, because the one time I let myself feel anything for a person I was destroyed. Chak I'm not sure I know how to love."

"You know how Tom. You have nothing to fear. I would never hurt you." Tears had sprung to the dark eyes now. "Seeing you cry breaks my heart, I never want to be the cause of pain for you. I want to be here to cause you pleasure, give you happiness and to take care of you."

"No one ever stayed. Everyone always left me."

"Tom I'll never leave you. I promise you I'll be there always."

Chakotay nestled the hurting man into his chest. He wanted to protect this tender soul. To share his strength with Tom and help him find peace. He just held the man he already loved to him, he was impotent to do anything. All he could do was be there when and if Tom needed him.

"Chak. I love you. I think I always have."

"I know baby, I love you too."

"But I'm still scared."

"So am I."

"You? Why are you scared?"

"I'm afraid that you'll shut me out. I'll always be here for you but you'll always be able to walk away. I'm afraid that I'm not enough for you. I'm just a man from a backwards world; I'm not the most handsome, or the smartest. I know my flaws and every one of them could be a reason for you to leave me behind. The fear you're feeling Tom is normal. Every time a relationship is formed both people open themselves up to hurt. Sometimes that hurt materializes, sometimes it doesn't. The times it does it feels like someone's killing you, the times that love wins make it worth taking the chance. You're worth that chance to me."

"Chak."

"Yes?"

"It's cold, and I have to be on the bridge in the morning."

"No, Kathryn changed your duty schedule. You're off tomorrow, so am I."

"Oh, it's still cold. Can we go to your quarters?"

"Computer run Chakotay Four."

The nighttime beach was replaced by the interior of a log cabin. There was a crackling fire in the fireplace and it was lit by a multitude of candles.

"This is better I believe. There's clothing in the closet upstairs, if you'd like to change. I'll make us a snack and we can talk awhile."

"Chakotay, how long do you have this holodeck booked?"

"Until 1500."

"You booked the holodeck for 14 hours?"

"Yes, I hardly ever use my rations so I thought I would make a dent in my account. Besides when Kathryn decided we both needed the day off I called in some favors and several folks rescheduled their time to accommodate us. Now shoo, go change out of those wet clothes. The closet is in the bedroom upstairs. Feel free to use anything here Tom."

Tom walked up stairs and found the bedroom. Inside he found the closet. He picked out a bulky sweater and a pair of khaki trousers. In the dresser he found a thick pair of socks.

He took the clothing into the bathroom and to his surprise found a claw foot tub. He turned the faucet experimentally. Hot water streamed out.

*He really is making a dent in his rations. *

Tom ran a hot bath adding some scented oil he'd found on a shelf.  The tub became a frothy confection that he gratefully immersed his chilled body into.

"Ahhhh. It's been too long since I had a bubble bath."

There was a knock at the door.

"Tom are you decent?"

"I've never been accused of that before love. You can come in though."

Chakotay opened the door smiling. He carried a tray with two cups of steaming coco.

"I thought you might like something to warm you up."

"I do, thank you."

Tom sipped at the rich beverage. The chocolate was delicious.

"I feel guilty using your credits like this Chak."

"I told you to use whatever was here and I meant it. I'll give you some privacy."

"No don't go."

"Tom if I don't I may very well end up in that tub with you."

"I don't mind there's plenty of room. And I never can reach my back. I promise I'll be good."

"I can't promise I will be though."

"Chak please."

Chakotay knew that he'd been defeated. He began peeling off his clothing. As each piece fell to the floor Tom devoured his flesh with his eyes.

Chakotay stepped into the tub and lowered himself taking the other end facing Tom.

"See plenty of room. This way we'll save water too."

Tom's legs and his were intertwined he felt wonderful. Here he was sharing a bubble bath with Tom Paris.

"This is nice, but I ah like it better this way." Tom moved to his side of the tub. He placed himself in front of the man sliding down. Chakotay wrapped his arms around Tom.

"Much better."

They sat together like that for long minutes. Their hands caressing each other's bare skin.

"I love you, Poochu."

"I love you too."

Chakotay almost laughed. Instead he pushed Tom under the water.

The blonde man grabbed Chakotay and pulled him under with him, while under the surface their lips met in a serependious kiss.  There was a sensation akin to an electric current between the two men.

They both broke the surface, gasping for air.

"Come here Tom."

Chakotay held out his arms to Tom. Tom moved into them and felt them wrap tightly around him. In these arms he felt safe.

He looked up at Chakotay. Who would have thought that when they met years ago he end up sharing a tub and who knows what else with this man.

Chakotay kissed his eyebrows and the tip of his nose.

"Tom, you're holding on to something that's not a handle."

"Really?" He batted his baby blues at Chakotay. "I wonder what it is. I'd better find out."

Tom ducked under the water.

"Tom what are you.... Whoa!"

The sentence was cut off as Chakotay's cock was engulfed in a hot slick mouth.

"Tom. Baby, we were going to wait."

The only response was an increase in the suction. A moment later Tom broke the surface.

"Tom, please let's wait on that. I want it to be special."

"I don't know if I can, Tay. I've known you for years and loved you almost that long. I am still a little scared of letting these feeling out but I want to and...."

"Tom, would you like some guidance?"

"From who?"

"I can introduce you to your spirit guide."

It couldn't hurt to get in touch with his inner self. Tom assumed that was what Chakotay was talking about. He'd read about American Indian Spiritualism in school it always fascinated him.

"When can we do it?"

"Now. I have a keep everything needed here. What little I do use the holodeck is done here. I use this cabin for my vision quests."

"Alright, let's do it."

Chakotay released the water and they both stood under the spray of the shower to rinse the last of the oils away. They dried off and quickly dressed. Chakotay stole several looks as he struggled into his clothes.

"Well? Am I acceptable?"

"You're perfect."

"Hardly."

"Absolutely perfect my love. I've got my medicine bundle down stairs. We can perform the ritual there."

"Well what are we standing here for?"

Tom and Chakotay walked hand in hand down the stairs. Chakotay led Tom to the fireplace. He seated Tom on the braided rug and turned to the chest beside the hearth. Opening the chest Chakotay retrieved his medicine bundle. He knelt opposite of Tom and opened the hide covering.

Tom looked at the items lying on the skin in front of him. A bone, a stone carved with a spiral and an odd looking machine.

Chakotay lifted the piece of technology.

"This is an achuna. It was designed by our ancestors to replace hallucinogenic drugs like peyote. This will help you to enter the spirit world."

"What do I do?"

"Close your eyes," Chakotay's voice took on a mystic quality. "Achooie Moya, We arefar from the land of our Fathers. We are far from the bones of our ancestors, is there someone who will guide this lost soul? Someone to lead him in his travels and bring him safely home?"

Tom felt Chakotay take his hand and it was placed on the achuna.

"Picture yourself somewhere that you are comfortable a forest or a desert, some place close to nature. The first animal you see will be your spirit guide."

Tom pictured a green forest that had been close to his boyhood home. He walked among the trees looking for an animal. There were none to be seen.

There was a shriek overhead. Tom looked up to see a falcon winging to him.  He instinctively raised his arm. The falcon landed gently and spoke to him.

"Finally you've come!"

"You are my guide?"

"Yes, I am known as Air Razor."

"Air Razor, I'm new to this, do I ask questions?"

"There is no need. I know that Chakotay has helped you to find me. He his a good man, you couldn't make a better match."

"I'm scared of what I'm feeling."

"Fly with me."

"What? How?"

"Will yourself to take falcon form and follow me. The form knows how to fly you just need to guide it."

Air Razor leaped into the air. A light surrounded Tom's body and he metamorphosed into a falcon.

The strong wings beat the air and he was aloft. Air Razor was much higher, the body read his thoughts and moved upward toward the guide.

Tom saw the ground very far below him. Fear gripped him, however the falcon body continued to climb.

*Very good my child, now follow me* Air Razor's voice sounded in his head.

Away they flew, the further they went the more that Tom trusted the wings and the thermals on which they rode. By the end of the flight he was excited, never had he experienced anything like this just his body and the open sky.

Air Razor brought them down to the same place they had left. As soon as Tom's falcon self landed it reverted to his human form. He extended his arm and his guide took her perch there.

"Air Razor that was incredible!"

"Were you frightened?"

"At first, then I grew to trust the falcon wings, and the instincts of the falcon."

"Chakotay is the wings my child. If you allow him to he'll lift you to heights even greater than those that we soar. But you must trust him."

"I understand Air Razor."

"Would you like him to come here?"

"He said that this was private. I mean I'd love for him to be here, but is that allowed?"

"Yes, for mates it is. You'll need to speak out loud with your

body. Concentrate on him and tell him that Air Razor said to join

us."

Tom pictured Chakotay's face. Then he spoke he didn't realize it but

his body was speaking on the material plane to the Indian.

"Chakotay."

"Tom, don't tell me..."

"Air Razor says you are to join us."

"What?"

"Please."

Chakotay touched the achuna. Immediately his spirit was transported

to his place of power. His guide was waiting.

"Grandmother, I was told to join with Tom and his guide."

"Come let us fly my child."

Chakotay took the bald eagle form and followed his guide. They

soared briefly then touched down next to Tom.

Chakotay landed and returned to human form.

"Tom, you've found your guide. She's a flier just like you."

"Yeah, Air Razor took me for a flight to teach me trust."

"Air Razor, let us leave these children alone for a while, come with

me, there is good hunting in the Redwoods."

"Lead me Clover Wind," Air Razor followed the bald eagle and they

were shortly gone from sight.

Her voice sounded in Tom's head. *Learn to trust him child. He'll

never hurt you. *

"I will, Grandmother."

*You learn the old ways well my child. Call with your mind if we're

needed*

The contact was broken.

"Chakotay this is incredible. I thought that I'd just be speaking

with my subconscious but I'm not there really is a Spirit world."

"Yes Tom, there really is. Air Razor, and Clover Wind are very

real. We're both lucky to have such powerful guides."

Tom linked his hand in Chakotay's. Together the pair walked through

the forest.

"So Tom, why am I here?"

"Air Razor asked if I wanted you here and told me that it was allowed

for mates to be together during a visit here."

"I know that, about the mates being allowed to be together anyway.

However there's usually a good reason."

"I have to learn to trust you as I had to learn to trust the falcon

wings and instincts when I flew with her."

"Alright. Just one question, how will you do that?"

"There's no shortcut, to learn to trust the falcon I had to actually

face my fear and do it. So I can't run from the love I feel for

you. I'll have to face that fear and gradually learn."

*Well said my child. Now why don't you show him how well you fly? *

"Air Razor suggests that we should fly together."

"So did Clover Wind."

Together as one they took their avian forms and took to the air. Tom

felt none of the fear this time he knew that the small yet powerful

wings would hold him aloft.

Tom and Chakotay flew as closely as they could together through the

sharp bird eyes they watched the forest teaming with animal life

below them.

*Everything seems like a small part of a bigger picture Tay. *

*It is love, every creature, object; everything is a part of the

whole. If one thing were to disappear the entire organism would

change. It would never again be the same. *

*Voyager is the same way, if one person or one item of our technology

is lost we're all worse off for it. *

*Exactly, even though we live in a highly technological world the old

ways still hold true. *

*Well done children. You've both done well today, Tom as the

student, Chakotay you are the teacher. Guide this young one well;

he'll make you a fine mate. *

*I will grandmother. I thank you for your high praise. *

*Bahhh, Tom please don't stand on ceremony with me ever, it's too

much trouble. You come back soon to visit and learn. *

Tom and Chakotay found that they were back in the cabin by the

fireplace.

"Wow!"

"I agree, I've never known a Spirit guide quite like your Air Razor."

*You've known many? *

"Tom how did you do that?"

"What?"

*You just spoke to my mind like in the spirit world. *

"You did it just now too."

*It is our gift to the two of you. It may be useful to you. * Air

Razor and Clover Wind both spoke as one to their charges.

*Well what'd ya know. *

*I've never heard of this happening before. *

*I love you. *

*I love you, Tom*

*Tay. *

*Yes Tom? *

*Love me. *

The meaning of the words wasn't lost on the Indian. He moved over to

the beautiful man and helped him to his feet.

When Tom was standing Chakotay easily lifted him into his powerful

arms. They kissed, this time the kiss was full of boiling passion.

Chakotay pulled back and began to carry his soon to be lover

upstairs. Once in the bedroom Tom was placed lovingly on the huge

bed.

Tom pulled Chakotay down on top of him. His soft lips claiming his

lover's in an equally passionate kiss, Chakotay's lips parted. Tom

took the invitation. His tongue probed the hot mouth, seeking all

the secret places within.

*Tom, I'll not fuck you. I'll not make love to you; I want to make

love with you. *

The thought sent shivers up and down the blonde angel's spine.

Chakotay played his hands along Tom's body as if it were a fine

instrument. His fingers coaxed a variety of sounds from the toned

body.

Tom's need was primal he needed to feel every inch of this mythical

god who had chosen him to bestow the gift of his love.

Chakotay's hands grasped the hem of the sweater that Tom was wearing

and began to lift it, insistently towards his head. Tom lifted his

upper body to help the effort. The sweater was removed and thrown to

the floor.

Tom then pulled the shirt from where it was tucked into Chakotay's

pants and lifted it away. It joined the sweater on the floor.

Chakotay and Tom began caressing each other. Each motion was

punctuated by a moan or gasp of pleasure.

*Gods Tom you're so beautiful. *

*Don't you ever shut up Tay? * Tom sent a mental smile to the big

Indian to take the sting out of the thought.

*Don't have to...now. * Chakotay thought to his love as he filled

his mouth with Tom's cock.

"Ohhhh, Tay!"

*Where did you learn that? * Tom thought the question since speech

was out of the question.

*A man must have some secrets my love. * Came Chakotay's cryptic

reply, as he redoubled his efforts. He wanted to give Tom everything

he had.

Tom felt the orgasm stirring inside him. If Chakotay didn't slow

down this would be over far too soon.

*Tay, please baby slow down, I don't want it to end. *

*It had to end before it can begin again baby. *

Chakotay buried his nose in the blonde pubes. He began working his

throat muscles, swallowing the welcome intruder he held within his

throat.

Tom began to thrash against him. The please began in waves, taking

both he and Chakotay to the heights of pleasure.

"Chakotay! Oh God! Ugh, Ohhhhhh. I'm cumming!"

*Really, I didn't notice! * Some how the dark man was able to

broadcast the thoughts in spite of the extreme pleasure he was

experiencing.

*TAY! * It was all Tom could send his pleasure was so great that all

coherent thought evaporated.

Chakotay watched Tom, the love overflowing his heart as he watched

and felt the effect that his physical love had on Tom. Chakotay

reached with his mind and found the pleasure centers within Tom's

brain, he gently stimulated him, the effect was amazing, Tom's

pleasure on the verge of ending, began again and escalated to a much

more intense level.

*Tay, I can't stand it, I'll die! Please Ahhh, Ohhhh, Gods, I can't

bear it! *

Chakotay ended the mental manipulation. He certainly didn't want to

hurt Tom. He'd only wanted to give him more pleasure.

Tom collapsed as the ecstasy ended. He came to himself minutes later

with Chakotay shaking him gently.

Tom looked up smiling, weakly. The fine chiseled features were

pinched with worry.

"Tom, are you ok? Spirits baby, I promise I'm never do it again."

*Don't promise that Tay. Just don't do it for so long! *

*You scared the hell out of me baby. *

*I'm sorry, but you did it. That was the single most incredible love

experience of my life. *

*We've only started baby. *

Chakotay felt Tom's excitement rise. The body beneath him almost

trembled in anticipation.

*If this is just the beginning, I may actually not live through our

first night together. *

Chakotay didn't answer, he would not be the cause of any undue pain

for Tom, and using a gentle mental touch he linked the pain centers

in his brain to those in Tom's. If Tom felt pain, so would he. He

was sure that the blonde man hadn't felt the mental intrusion.

He was wrong. Tom followed Chakotay's mental touch. When he realized

what the man was doing he decided that two could play that game. Tom

sent out whispers of thought that he wove into the pleasure centers

of Tay's mind. Now it would be a bit fairer.

*Chakotay, love me, take me make me yours. * Tom added all the

sensuality he could possible to those clipped thoughts.

The dark man stared into his eyes, smoldering love and wanton passion

evident deep within the chocolate pools.

He reached into the nightstand drawer and removed a large container

of a clear gel. He sat the lube close by; he'd need it later.

Tom made as though to turn over, but was stopped by a large hand.

*No baby, I want to look into your eyes not at the back of your head.

*

Chakotay took two pillows; he lifted Tom and placed them under him.

This would help the younger man to stay in the right position without

a lot of effort.

Chakotay kissed those sweet lips, as his fingers found Tom's nipples;

he pinched them not hard enough to actually hurt, but enough to

awaken them.

Tom moaned into his mouth. Chak thrust his tongue into the welcoming

cavern. Their tongues took up the dance, sensually moving against

each other. Probing, caressing sometimes tickling the inside of each

other's mouths.

*Chakotay, oh gods, I've never felt like this before! * Tom felt

Chakotay's pleasure, it mingled with his own. Together the

sensations grew exponentially. This had to be what Betazoids felt

when making love.

Chakotay reached for the lube. While he had Tom otherwise occupied

he coated three fingers with the slick concoction.

As Tom's excitement hit a fevered pitch, Chakotay gently entered the

most secret part of the man.

He was amazed that as the finger entered past the guardian ring that

there was no sensation of pain. There was fullness, but no hurt.

*I want this too, baby. I hope you didn't think I was completely

naive. I was in prison. *

*Hush love. Don't think about that. * Chakotay felt the darkness

surrounding those thoughts. There would be work to do. He would

help this tortured soul learn to let go of those past hurts.

Chakotay made contact with the prostate gland. Tom's head was thrown

back. His eyes clenched as the powerful impulses burned their way up

his spine. As the brain began its reaction to the stimuli, Chakotay

realized what was going on.

The intense pleasure grabbed his mind. His body felt as though a

million fires had been lit within, igniting his passion, pushing it

beyond all reason.

*Tay, put it in, I want it so bad! *

*I won't hurt you! You're not ready. *

*Tay, I promise you, you'll not hurt me. *

Chakotay could deny the man nothing, especially when it was something

that the older man wanted just as much.

He coated his cock with the lube. Moving between those creamy thighs

he slowly entered the hot tunnel.

There wasn't pain, just an uncomfortable feeling. Ok there was a

little pain, but Tom coaxed him onward.

*Tay, I promise I won't break. *

As Chakotay slid the last millimeter inside he felt whole, here was

the man he'd loved so long from afar, joined to him. Tom had given

him the most precious gift he could. Tom trusted him.

*With my life Big Man. I trust you with my heart too. *

*Not to mention, you butt? *

*That's always belonged to you, except usually you're chewing on it. *

*Why you little. *

Chakotay flexed his hips, pulling about half way out before driving

himself back inside.

Tom's reaction was beautiful to behold. The blue eyes grew misty the

lips parted as a little moan escaped.

Tom wrapped his legs around Chakotay's waist. The blonde pulled his

Indian lover as deeply into himself as possible.

*Love you Tay! *

*I love you Thomas Eugene Paris. *

Chakotay began to rock back and forth, slowly, painfully slow.

"Tay, please, oh Gods, it's too slow."

Chakotay just smiled and continued his slow methodical movements.

He'd show Tom what loving was instead of fucking or rape. There

would never be force used on this blonde haired blue-eyed angel.

He's always be cherished, loved, protected.

Chakotay leaned down, capturing Tom's mouth with his. His orgasm

ripped though him. Stripping him of all control. His back arched a

roar like that of a big jungle cat was torn from his throat.

Tom felt the tsunami of ecstasy, through the mental link. It set off

his orgasm; like an antimatter chain reaction. Both men were

bombarded by the double orgasm, wracked by pleasure they flew to

heights neither had ever experienced before, they plummeted only to

fly once again, higher and higher they rose. The pleasure was so

great that Tom was certain he'd blackout.

As their combined ecstasy ebbed away they lay in a heap. Their arms

and legs intertwined. Their breathing was heavy from the exertion of

their bodies.

*My god. I take it back. *

*What Tom? *

*That was the most incredible love experience of my life. I said it

was the first time, but you're topped that one. *

*I hope every time we make love find new heights, together. *

*You'll end up killing me. *

*Not today. *

"<yawn>. Chakotay?"

"Yes love?"

"Marry me."

"What's the rush?"

*I've always ran from commitment, I don't want to run this time and I

don't want to risk losing you. *

*Never baby, you'll never lose me. You're stuck with me forever, my

blonde angel. *

"So is that a yes?"

Chakotay didn't answer. He kissed Tom passionately and entered him

again.

*My God! You're insatiable! I'm not going to be able to sit at my

station tomorrowwwwww! *

"Yes." Chakotay answered.

He'd never have to worry about being bored with Tom. That was one

certainly. The younger man's wit and love of life would require

Chakotay in top form.

"So when do you want me to start your tattoo?"

*Tattoo? *

*Like mine, you did want to get married. This is part of my people's

marriage rites. *

*Do it tonight! I love you with every part of my being and I want it

as much as I want you. *

*Later baby, right now I'm a little too busy. *

~*~

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