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Stevemdfp4: They haven't been yet.
Stevemdfp4: Sunday was supposed to have been the day for it.
beener_14:  i am sorry to hear that in Nj my friend owned one and we use to go all the time on them and then ay back and tan
beener_14: miss me?
Stevemdfp4: Yes.
Stevemdfp4: when I got your message when I logged on, it occurred to me that perhaps we could have met you at the tidal basin.
Stevemdfp4: And I thought about you.
beener_14: met where 
Stevemdfp4: At the Tidal Basin.
Stevemdfp4: Where all the cherry blossoms are, and where the paddle boats ar.
Stevemdfp4: are
beener_14: mmm that would havebeen nice
beener_14: what that say?
Stevemdfp4: L. Ventricle.  I'm being a medical nerd.
beener_14: lol 
beener_14: my dog is sitting at my seat waiting for me to drop some food
Stevemdfp4: what kind of food are you dropping?
beener_14: sandwhich and sqattios the cheap girls food
Stevemdfp4: sqattios?
beener_14: sgatios
Stevemdfp4: sgatios?
beener_14: the caned spagiti
Stevemdfp4: sagacious, I know.  
Stevemdfp4: Oh, spaghetti-Os.
beener_14: Yes
beener_14: Soo you had a good time with your girls
beener_14: thats good
beener_14: like i said in the message i was bored out of my mind most of sunday 
Stevemdfp4: I'm sorry to hear that.
beener_14: Not your fault
Stevemdfp4: you shouldn't let that happen to yourself.
Stevemdfp4: No, I know it's not my fault.  I'm sorry that you had a boring day.
beener_14:    It got to the point where i had a head ache so i went for a walk for alittle while by my self but still got some fresh  air
beener_14: Doing alot of work not talking much today?
Stevemdfp4: Thinking slowly.
Stevemdfp4: and setting up this computer the way I like to use it.
beener_14: what are you thinking about may i ask?
Stevemdfp4: nothing dramatic
Stevemdfp4: I made a to-do list of things I wanted to do online.
beener_14: Really was talking to me on the top of the list 
beener_14: lol 
beener_14: j/k
Stevemdfp4: Like, one of the guys at the house wants to print up business cards....it should include some bit of clip-art of a car.  It needs to look good in just black-and-white.
Stevemdfp4: Actually, you were indeed on the top of the list of priorities.  But I don't think of you in terms of "to do."
beener_14: lol 
Stevemdfp4: And another guy in the house is blind.  It occurs to me that if I can justify his having internet access at the house, I could open the door to access for me as well.
beener_14: if he is bling then he cant see what is typed on teh net?
Stevemdfp4: I believe there is screen-reading software out there that should be inexpensive.  Maybe free, even, if only for blind people.
Stevemdfp4: Correct.  But there is software that will read the screen out loud.
beener_14: i see and if they get that is justicefices and allowed to have the net
Stevemdfp4: Right.
Stevemdfp4: One staff computer is already connected by cable modem.  They just need to get a router.  Then, the other computers there can all have internet access, staff and residents.
beener_14: i see
beener_14: but then they will say its not good
Stevemdfp4: not good?
beener_14: well they will say that you can get influence on the net
Stevemdfp4: influence....?  you've lost me.
beener_14: They will say that you will meet people on the net who are acoholics who might try to get you back into it you know try to influence you more 
Stevemdfp4: oh, well, there's lots of imaginary reasons why they'd not want people in recovery to use the web.  None of the negative reasons make sense, when we actually do have access at other locations.
Stevemdfp4: At the house, it would be in a semi-public room....if anyone gets in a habit of abusing the privilege, it would be taken away.
beener_14: but i say it helps alittle to because you have friends that help you like well me  and it also lets you keep in contect with he family members more
Stevemdfp4: And alcoholics and drug addicts who are actively using have priorities other than undermining people in recovery.
Stevemdfp4: yes.
beener_14: It has its good and it has its bad i think they can waigh it out 
Stevemdfp4: and really, folks getting jobs is part of the mission of the place.  It's easier to get a job when you can use Monster and e-mail.  
Stevemdfp4: Many employers now prefer e-mailed resumes over fax or snail mail.
beener_14: what do you think of my pic
Stevemdfp4: I like it.  I'm bigger, that makes sense.
beener_14: yes so true so true
beener_14: lol 
beener_14: anything you wana add?
Stevemdfp4: is there a specific reason for the color difference?
beener_14: just did it that way no specific reason 
Stevemdfp4: well, I already added a green one.  I shuld fill it in, and ....
Stevemdfp4: label it with something.
beener_14: with what?
Stevemdfp4: I dunno
Stevemdfp4: two have names, the third should, too.
Stevemdfp4: I know, our imaginary pet, "Rover"
beener_14: lol shure
Stevemdfp4: My kids go to a site called "neopets"
beener_14: I use to go there
Stevemdfp4: and collect imaginary pets, or something.
beener_14: i had 4 pets
beener_14: had trouble keeping up with them they died
beener_14: Do you mind if i ares it to start over
Stevemdfp4: that's fine
Stevemdfp4: Where in Va are you?
beener_14: Nova loudon county 
Stevemdfp4: Oh, pretty far out there.
Stevemdfp4: Chase house is on a bus line, and near Metro stations.
beener_14: thats cool 
Stevemdfp4: Rockville is not a bad place to live.
Stevemdfp4: I preferred Bethesda
beener_14: yea i dont like Va so much 
beener_14: i  want to get out of here
Stevemdfp4: do you have a car?
beener_14: yes that i do 
Stevemdfp4: Well, that should help you expand your horizons.
Stevemdfp4: what kind?
beener_14: Gold hyndia elentra 
beener_14: 2004
Stevemdfp4: oh, not bad.
beener_14: well yea i mean i have pletty places to go i am just tiried of going alone
Stevemdfp4: well, I could help with that.
Stevemdfp4: your profile mentioned having moved to Va....how long have you been there?
beener_14: A year this month 
Stevemdfp4: your mom got a new job or something?
beener_14: Next weekend is the one year anicersery 
beener_14: of me being here
Stevemdfp4: hello?
beener_14: i am here
beener_14:   No no 
beener_14: emm my parents have been divorce sence i was 6
Stevemdfp4: no, no?
beener_14: my mother left me when i was 6 and moved here when i was 9
Stevemdfp4: yes....did you go from living with dad to living with mom?
Stevemdfp4: OH, yes, you said that very early on.  About your mom leaving.
Stevemdfp4: Where is your dad now?
beener_14: and me and my mother really didnt have a good relationship untill my  father got remarried and the witch kicked me out  so i had no place to go but my moms
beener_14: my dad still lives in Nj  in the house trying to get  a divorce from his recent wife
Stevemdfp4: oh, yes.  Your father just let that happen to you?  Being kicked out by the wicked step-mother.
beener_14: My dad didnt want it to happen he thought it was my choose, because at the time he was so happy with her and i didnt want him to loose his happiness for me, so all my dad knew was i said i am leaving and he didnt know why or anything 
Stevemdfp4: Gotcha.  You didn't want to undermine their relationship?  Very loving of you.
beener_14: i am the kind of person who would put anyone first in front of me
Stevemdfp4: In retrospect, might have been better for him in the long run if you'd fought it out, made her show her colors.
Stevemdfp4: Yes, I know the type.
Stevemdfp4: Better than being selfish.
Stevemdfp4: But you need to value your own happiness, too.
beener_14: yes true but i mean my father was also hiding his own secret 
Stevemdfp4: yeah, it's hard for relationships to move along well with big secrets in the picture.
beener_14: to be honest moving was the best thing for me because it got me out of the same house, same count, same state i lived in for so long and got me to see the world now i just want tokeep moving untill i find the place for me
Stevemdfp4: I can see that.  Where in NJ?  I partially grew up in NJ.
beener_14: but carol had her own secret  like distroing my family and pushing me and my sister out of his life, by lieing to use and then his borthers and such so she can have his money because when she came into my dads life my dad was very ill 
beener_14: south jeresy Cumberland county 
Stevemdfp4: Ah.  I was in northern NJ....South Orange, and then Millburn/Short Hills for Jr. High and high school.
beener_14: Really i was about 2 hours from there
Stevemdfp4: It seems odd....your mom abandoned you long ago.  Instead of wanting to make it up to you, she's charging you rent for living there.  I think that's sad.
beener_14: WOW someone finally sees it my way 
beener_14: i feel the same way but of course i cant tell my mother how i really feel because it will hurt her
Stevemdfp4: It's very, very sad.
Stevemdfp4: Sometimes, when a person feels guilty about something they've done, they develop a need to justify it in their mind, push out the feelings of guilt.
Stevemdfp4: Instead of facing them, giving an apology, and making amends.
Stevemdfp4: The latter course requires humility.
beener_14: i pay 300 now and i will be paying 300 at our new house and our new house rent is 1200 so i will be basically paying a 3rd and i wanted the basment tomye self  like a little apartment but she said no and makes me have a small room wher ei cant even put my computer ni my room with me
Stevemdfp4: For a smidgen more, you could rent your own room in a house with people your own age.  Maybe not even any more.
Stevemdfp4: Were there ever any plans for you to go to college?
beener_14: i was intending college in Nj and my dad was paying my full tration but when all the stuff happend i  had to drop and come here and i was told i have to pay for college myself which i tried but i only had the money to do a 2 credit course
Stevemdfp4: yeah, that sucks.  Which college were you in?
beener_14: northern Va county college
Stevemdfp4: NVCC....oh, I thought you were saying you were in college in NJ.
beener_14: what do you think aboutt he drawing it simbliazes you are in my heart the red name in the pint heart which is mine and i am in your your red heart with my name writen in pink that simblizes me
beener_14: ohh yea i was in college in Nj a county college
Stevemdfp4: I like that
beener_14: but i went one semester here in nova
Stevemdfp4: did your mom ever offer to help you with college?
beener_14: No she siad she did which i dont think she ever did
Stevemdfp4: Did your mother re-marry, after she left you and your dad?
Stevemdfp4: http://washingtondc.craigslist.org/roo/68094322.html
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beener_14: etiether that or two part time county jobs
beener_14: Huh?
Stevemdfp4: That was sarcasm.
beener_14: But with her i would have to pay 700 a month 
Stevemdfp4: http://washingtondc.craigslist.org/roo/68102113.html
Stevemdfp4: Have you been checking the links I've been throwing at you?
beener_14: yes i have i get the hint i need to get out of this house onmy own but its not that easy i leave and my mom is hurt 
Stevemdfp4: If it would hurt your mom, then she shouldn't be charging you rent, and telling you you're crazy when you have real health concerns.
Stevemdfp4: People who behave like that, especially after having abandoned you, deserve to be alone.
Stevemdfp4: I would suggest becoming a nanny for a year or so.
beener_14: SOmeone teoold me i should do that but like i nicole offered me to stay with her if i can pay the 700 rent
beener_14: and i am willing to 
beener_14: if i can find  another 20 job or a 40 hour job making hte same i am makeing now
Stevemdfp4: Lots of demand for legal nannies around this region.  Room, board, and maybe a couple of hundred a week.
beener_14: 12.50 ean hour
beener_14: Yes but lots of rule and no freedom i like my freedom 
beener_14: Shit here i am not allowed to have guys in my room without the door open 
Stevemdfp4: well, no, not really lots of rules.  In some situations, you'd have a somewhat private space of your own.
beener_14: and i am 20 years old
Stevemdfp4: and in many, guys would be ok, if quiet and very discreet.  Employers aren't crazy.
beener_14: Yea i hear you  on that,  i have untill july and if i cant find something before that i already have my goal set that i will be out of here by january 
beener_14:   Hehe like that drawing?
Stevemdfp4: yes
Stevemdfp4: very much.
beener_14: i wish i could print it out my my printer is running out of ink
Stevemdfp4: Oh, you could save it for printing later.
Stevemdfp4: On the print dialogue box, check "print to file"
beener_14: to be honest the problem with my mom is she has a control issue with me paying her only 300 rent she can control me becaue its not half of the rent which that would be 700 like i said its all a control issue 
Stevemdfp4: It's too bad.
beener_14: whats too bad?
beener_14: that my mother is controling and i am a stupid 20 year old that cant stick up for her self
Stevemdfp4: That she has to take that kind of attitude toward you.
beener_14: I will get out in my own time, but for right now ijust have to deal.... 
Stevemdfp4: http://washingtondc.craigslist.org/kid/68053247.html
Stevemdfp4: Well,  you don't sound happy there.
Stevemdfp4: Here:  http://washingtondc.craigslist.org/kid/68009253.html
beener_14: I am not happy but its my mother and what emm i suppose to do... i dont have the money right now to move out and hopfully i might be getting another 20 hour job doing what i actualy want to do so maybe i will get promoeted after a while so once i get that job i can find a place to live on my own 
Stevemdfp4: well, I hate to see you put your life on hold.....and I'd think being a nanny in No Va lets you spend time with your mom when you both like, without her having to play landlord with you.  Might improve your relationship with her.
Stevemdfp4: That job sounds perfect.  You're experienced in child care, I presume you'd have excellent references from where you work.
Stevemdfp4: "nanny quarters are excellent' would typically mean a good amount of privacy.
beener_14: I will think about it i promise i will think about it ok, i understand what you are saying and i know youare trying to help me i apreciaite but can i ask you something
beener_14: why are you teying th help me so much 
Stevemdfp4: Of course, and I hope I didn't make you feel pressured.
Stevemdfp4: I'm a problem-solver by nature and a rescue-the-damsel-in-distress kind of guy.
beener_14: hold on dad is on the phone
beener_14: Ok great more shit with my dad
Stevemdfp4: what is it?
beener_14: Money troubles with trying to get a divorce with his recent wife
beener_14: Ohh well life will                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                 nerous guy.
beener_14: and she kept buying stupid shit like labe tops and cloths not helping him at all with the money 
beener_14: untill he had no money to pay the bills 
Stevemdfp4: well, the daughter's car, he can't touch.  But he's entitled to walk away with 50% of the value of the marital assets.
Stevemdfp4: Sounds kinda like my ex.
beener_14: Well yea he can touch because the car is in HIS name 
beener_14:   he already told carol that  if she wants to keep the cars that they have to start help paying it off, like iam helping him paying the car off
Stevemdfp4: very reasonable.
Stevemdfp4: are they using a divorce mediator?
beener_14: but she is fighting tooth and nail 
beener_14: I am not shure see what happend was i told you about my dads secret right
Stevemdfp4: She's dumb.  He could just drive off with the daughter's car, take it to a dealership and sell it today.
Stevemdfp4: yes
Stevemdfp4: he's gay.
beener_14: well carol is now milking that secret for  all its worth sayin, he could have gave me aid's he could have gotten me sick, and well went on a show abuot ti and writing a book about it but yet she doesnt want a divorce
beener_14: because as long as she is with  him she can get simpathy from everyone
Stevemdfp4: Well, he's been outed, then.  The secret, I imagine, has no more power over him any more.
Stevemdfp4: Or shouldn't.
Stevemdfp4: they're not still living together, are they?
beener_14: He has no problem with people knowing which is why i look up to him, he knows he made a mistake and taking it  like a man, He is still proud of who he is because he relizes eveyone makes mastakes and he is not going to head  his self anymore
beener_14: i believe mydad kicked her out 
beener_14: Go ahead and comment buti will brb 
beener_14: back 
Stevemdfp4: OK.  Well, it sounds like he's a very good man, with good values, and horrid choices in whom to marry.  Not surprising.
beener_14: yes like i said everyone make mastakes
Stevemdfp4: A lesbian, I imagine, would have trouble picking a good man to marry.
Stevemdfp4: Absolutely.  I wouldn't give him any lectures.
beener_14: i look up to my dad and my moher hates it 
beener_14: she thinks he is the worse man in the world
beener_14: because of what he did, she said something that hurt me till this day and she doesnt even know it
Stevemdfp4: "what he did"?
beener_14: well him sleeping withme
beener_14: men 
Stevemdfp4: Oh.
beener_14: WANT to know the funny thing about all of this and my motehr being mad
Stevemdfp4: geeze....can't either of these women understand that coming to terms with one's sexuality isn't always an easy thing?
Stevemdfp4: Yes, some humor wouuld be in order.
beener_14: My mother was cheating on my father with another guy man  ....... haha thats why she left us
Stevemdfp4: another gay man??!!!???  
Stevemdfp4: Why is she attracted to men who turn out to be gay?
beener_14: Yes and he was outly gay
beener_14: I dont know i guess its in our jeans because me and my sister both love hanging out wiht gay men 
beener_14: my best friend is gay 
Stevemdfp4: Hmm.  Interesting.
Stevemdfp4: Well, gay men, unlike most straight men, tend to be sensitive, better at friendship, have better taste, etc than straight men.
beener_14: yes true 
beener_14: I agree with that
beener_14: would you like to read something i wrote?
Stevemdfp4: I'd love to, honey.
beener_14: http://www.opendiary.com/entryview.asp?authorcode=A605613&entry=20039&mode=  
Stevemdfp4: hard to read...red on rust....but I'll highlight the text...
beener_                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                what you probably can't see is that your step-mom's behavior is likely to be apparent to everyone as being mean, selfish, and narrow-minded.
beener_14: yes
Stevemdfp4: Ultimately, she may well be hurting herself much worse than she's hurting him.
beener_14: She isnt just hurting him she is hurting my hole family 
Stevemdfp4: Like when my ex decided to take the strategy of threatening my relationship with my kids to get more money out of me.  She just accelerated my fall into alcoholism, and she's gotten much, much, much less than she would have if she'd just been fair and decent.
beener_14: you know because she told my aunt and uncles that my sister feincei is gay which he is not my family isnt going to my sisters wedding and she told htem that i was bi sexual  and they dont want anything to do with me either
Stevemdfp4: Yes, I see that.  Unfortunately, short of hiring a hit man, there's not a lot you can do except calmly champion the truth.
beener_14: yes i know that
beener_14: Lets stop talking about my family 
beener_14: you know we have came a long way sence we first met talking about things
Stevemdfp4: OK, I understand.  It's very upsetting.
Stevemdfp4: Yes.  I agree.
Stevemdfp4: We could have met in person today.
beener_14: we could  have?
beener_14: about to miss spell  my name huh 
Stevemdfp4: well, you've been off since like 1 pm, right?  I've been free today.
Stevemdfp4: You have a car, I have a bicycle, Metro, and buses.
beener_14: One day 
Stevemdfp4: Still could, actually.
Stevemdfp4: No reason why you should have to have a boring or lonely day.
beener_14-Renee: you know i do have a boyfriend right, but he lives in Philly 
beener_14-Renee: well actually i  have youth group at 7:20 
beener_14-Renee: well college group and small group as they call it
beener_14-Renee: U there did i say something wrong 
Stevemdfp4: college group?  small group?
Stevemdfp4: Not at all.
Stevemdfp4: And I should tell you about the on-again, off-again relationship I've been in.
beener_14-Renee: a group with college age kids
beener_14-Renee: small group is a group of daughters and sons who is dealing with gay and lesbian parents
Stevemdfp4: church-sponsored?
beener_14-Renee: yea
Stevemdfp4: gotcha  what kind of church?
beener_14-Renee: its a none dimontanal church 
Stevemdfp4: OK.
beener_14-Renee: steve honestly can you answer a quesitn for me?
Stevemdfp4: Yes.
beener_14-Renee: What do you see in me?  and have i really been on your mind? and what about?
Stevemdfp4: You are a kind, attractive, and sweet young woman.  And yes, you have been on my mind.  Mostly thinking of what it might be like for us to share company with each other.
beener_14-Renee: really 
Stevemdfp4: Yes.  Honest truth.  Scout's honor.
beener_14-Renee: 
beener_14-Renee: 
Stevemdfp4: 
Stevemdfp4: You deserve to have people to be nice to you.
Stevemdfp4: And if you could use a nice, pleasant companion, I'd be happy to be that for you.
beener_14-Renee: I feel like a queen when i talk to you you treat me really good
Stevemdfp4: It's a rare person who I have difficulty treating with respect.
Stevemdfp4: Probably why they elected me president at Chase.
Stevemdfp4: Overall, the guys there are very different from me.  I kind of stick out like a sore thumb.
beener_14-Renee: i see
Stevemdfp4: I'm one of maybe three who've been to college.
Stevemdfp4: The only one with an advanced degree.
Stevemdfp4: It's about 80% black.  Hard to get in a county that's no more than 20% black.
beener_14-Renee: i see
beener_14-Renee: well i think you are a awesome gauy 
beener_14-Renee: guy 
Stevemdfp4: And most have histories of doing serious time in prison.
Stevemdfp4: It's interesting, though, when people do time because of stuff they were doing while actively addicted, it doesn't really translate into how they are when they're in recovery.
Stevemdfp4: Generally, they're well-meaning, hard-working, friendly guys.
beener_14-Renee: i see 
Stevemdfp4: And I'm helpful to them whenever I can be.
beener_14-Renee: well i think its good that pople take steps to get better 
Stevemdfp4: They're not accustomed to people being unselfish with them.  But it's not hard to inspire them to be better than they're used to being.
beener_14-Renee: yea i know what you mean 
beener_14-Renee: can i tell you a couple secrets about me
Stevemdfp4: I just remind them, in my role as president, how important it is for us all to pull together, to be supportive of each other.   Yes, of course.  I'd be honored.
beener_14-Renee: do you remember when i told you i suffereing from depression 
Stevemdfp4: yes
Stevemdfp4: we talked a bit about the meds you've been taking, or not taking.
beener_14-Renee: well i was in the addlectint mental word twice and  in a inhome care for six months and in out of home care after school for 6 months
Stevemdfp4: Probably a difficult experience.  I've been hospitalized three times for detox.  Each time, I was on a mental ward, too.
Stevemdfp4: I'm not sure exactly what you mean by "in-home care for six months" -- a halfway house?
Stevemdfp4: Here's another nanny position:  http://washingtondc.craigslist.org/kid/68015281.html
beener_14-Renee: inhome is kinda like a half way house but, you stay in a house with other depression kids and go to a special schoool but in my case i had to go to regualar school becuase my senoir year, but you live in a house with councilars
beener_14-Renee: and out house care is you go to the hospital everyday after school for 5 hours for sessions and such '
Stevemdfp4: gotcha.  Yes, that would be a halfw                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                : Certainly not as bad as three or four hospitalizations for alcohol detox.  I got you beat, easy.
Stevemdfp4: 
beener_14-Renee: Yea but how about almost killing the people trying to stick you with needles by wiping your hair at them and kiccking htem 
Stevemdfp4: It's part of their job.  If you're feeling sorry, well, maybe you should send an apology card.
Stevemdfp4: That doesn't sound like almost killing anybody, though.
beener_14-Renee: what happend was i didnt want to go tot he crisis center the first time and they were trying to clear my system and i got vicios fighting them off
Stevemdfp4: clear your system?  clear it of what?
beener_14-Renee:   They thought i overdosed because i refursed to tell them if i took anything 
beener_14-Renee: all they knew was i had cuts on my arms and legs 
Stevemdfp4: Oh.  But they're used to such behavior.
beener_14-Renee:   that time i didnt get admited they told me to stay home from school and to be watched and sent me home when i got addmited i asked to go because i wasnt feeling myself
Stevemdfp4: It's part of their job to handle upset folks.
beener_14-Renee: and come to find out acouple  of the meds wer acting up with my systen
Stevemdfp4: drug interactions can be complicated.
beener_14-Renee: yea well i relized something was wrong when i was band camp and felt like shit so when i went home i said dad i want to go to the crisis center and i want to be admitted something is not right
beener_14-Renee: so  i went and got addmitted and it worked out fo the best
Stevemdfp4: and then you got combative.  Oh, well.  The important thing, I think, is to learn what you can from your experiences.
beener_14-Renee: yes  that was the only first time i went in and it was the summer before my 12th grade year, the second time was new years of 2003 and spent in there and thats when i got put in the home for a cuple months and then got out right before graduation 
Stevemdfp4: how has your depression been lately?
beener_14-Renee: pretty good actually 
Stevemdfp4: good.  I'm glad.
Stevemdfp4: I was reading some of your online diary.  You're a good-hearted person.
beener_14-Renee: Ohh  thanks 
beener_14-Renee: its who i am and i am proud of my self
Stevemdfp4: as you should be
beener_14-Renee: Wow i you are just making me smile more and more iwthyour charming person you are
Stevemdfp4: No reason not to be kind, when we have the option.
Stevemdfp4: I don't understand people who prefer to be selfish.  I just don't understand them at all.  But I can sure recognize them, and i stay away from them.
Stevemdfp4: On your "Religion" entry....are you familiar with the Unitarians?
beener_14-Renee: no 
Stevemdfp4: I think you'd like them.  It arose from Judeo-Christian traditions.  But they believe that divine inspiration if available from many, many sources.
Stevemdfp4: So they have a respect for the words, beliefs, and teachings of other religions.
Stevemdfp4: But there's no dogma, no creed, no doctrine.
beener_14-Renee: i see
Stevemdfp4: It's not specifically Christian, but it draws from Christianity.
Stevemdfp4: They're very respectful of Gay-Lesbian-bisexual-etc folks.
beener_14-Renee: awsome
beener_14-Renee: i would love that like you see im the post i am a very open person 
Stevemdfp4: I'm sure there's a Unitarian church not too far from you....lemme check...
Stevemdfp4: how do you spell Louden?
Stevemdfp4: Loudin?
Stevemdfp4: the county
beener_14-Renee: loudoun 
Stevemdfp4: no, that's definitely not it.
Stevemdfp4: oh, maybe it is
beener_14-Renee:   i just put dinner in the oven 
beener_14-Renee: it is it
Stevemdfp4: http://www.uuloudoun.org/
Stevemdfp4: you see, yesterday's talk on their calendar was about Buddhism.
beener_14-Renee: ihhh i see
Stevemdfp4: http://my.calendars.net/uucl/d15/04/2005/popup/20
Stevemdfp4: Now, that sounds perfect for you.
beener_14-Renee: emm it wont show up on my computer
Stevemdfp4: you're right....
Stevemdfp4: from the calendar on the home page, click on the "Red Hat Club"
beener_14-Renee: it keeps saying unable to load 
beener_14-Renee: click on what?
Stevemdfp4: it's in the calendar on the home page..."Red Had Club" ....April 15.
Stevemdfp4: Hat
beener_14-Renee: it wont let me see the calender
beener_14-Renee: Ohh shot it showed up now
beener_14-Renee: ok it wont let me click on the red hat this
Stevemdfp4: maybe it's just slow.
beener_14-Renee: what is about?
Stevemdfp4: oh...your popup blocker is doing it, I'm sure.
Stevemdfp4: Red Hat Club
CHURCH LADIES (Reclaim-the-Red HAT CLUB) Some feisty church women are meeting monthly to celebrate their status as strong women who do whatever they want (including acting silly). In January, we decided we are strong, caring, adventure-seeking, wise, and exciting women. In February, we affirmed that we are wacky, spirited, healthy, funny, good-hearted and sensuous women. What adjective would you bring?

This month were going to see a performance of The Pajama Game at the Old Stone Schoolhouse in Hillsboro to benefit the Loudoun Abused Womens Shelter. Tickets are $12: $10 for the discounted tickets and $2 for LAWS. For information contact Peggy at 703-585-4653.
beener_14-Renee: hmm it does sound nice 
Stevemdfp4: And, instead of a set of doctrinal beliefs, they have these principles:  http://www.uuloudoun.org/principles.html
beener_14-Renee: awesome i will deffently  check that  out
beener_14-Renee: man i kinda want to go to the meeting but i dont really wana go 
Stevemdfp4: well, I won't be offended if you go.
Stevemdfp4: And I enjoy your company.
Stevemdfp4: too.
Stevemdfp4: but you certainly sound like you could use some real-life person-to-person contact.
beener_14-Renee: i mean i should go but also i just kinda feel like siting home again you know and chating with you and people
beener_14-Renee: pluse i have to fold laundry and dinner in the oven 
Stevemdfp4: as you wish.  I'm cool either way.
Stevemdfp4: I'm such a cool guy, after all.  
Stevemdfp4: 
beener_14-Renee: yes that you are you are the greatest in many ways
Stevemdfp4: aw, shucks
Stevemdfp4: 
Stevemdfp4: I think that's a blush.
beener_14-Renee:   well you make me blush all the time with you sweet sayings you tell me 
Stevemdfp4: really?  I'm just being honest.
beener_14-Renee: Hunny the things you sayto me are amazing i havent heard so many sweet things for a long time 
beener_14-Renee: only time a guy have told me stuff like that is when they want to get laid
beener_14-Renee: brb need to check on dinner
Stevemdfp4: ok
beener_14-Renee: back 
Stevemdfp4: how's dinner coming?
beener_14-Renee: ok  having vegatable lazingea 
beener_14-Renee: its in the oven now
Stevemdfp4: Yumm.
Stevemdfp4: I want some.
beener_14-Renee: ok i have 10 mins to decide what i awnat if i go i wont beable to talk to you anymore if i dont go i can clean up and relax hmmm 
beener_14-Renee: i wish i could bring you some
Stevemdfp4: Either way is fine with me.
Stevemdfp4: will you miss out if you don't go?
beener_14-Renee:   not really much 
beener_14-Renee: just my mom bitching at me saying i should have went
beener_14-Renee: witll happen if i dont go 
Stevemdfp4: no special friends there?
beener_14-Renee: not really 
Stevemdfp4: Well, you can tell her you were reading about Unitarianism...that you might want to go to a different church, any way.
beener_14-Renee: yea well she has been telling me to go to a different church 
Stevemdfp4: why?
beener_14-Renee: because the church one time and went to a retreat which i paid for but forgot to get my a ride and i wasnt able to go and it took me to a down where spiral 
Stevemdfp4: hmmmm.....seems an odd reason to pick a new church, unless it seemed they didn't care about helping you get there.
beener_14-Renee: they didnt they didnt even help me
Stevemdfp4: dump them
Stevemdfp4: I can't imagine Unitarians would act in such a way.  
Stevemdfp4: Not that I'm a church-goer
beener_14-Renee: yea
Stevemdfp4: Are you far from Leesburg?
beener_14-Renee: No not at all 
beener_14-Renee: only 40 mins
Stevemdfp4: well, you could check out the UU Church's social action committee.
beener_14-Renee: You mean tonight?
Stevemdfp4: 7 pm - 8 pm
Stevemdfp4: yes.  A bit of a bold idea
beener_14-Renee: Emm  I dont know if i would feel confertable going alone
Stevemdfp4: Perhaps not.  I'd be with you in spirit!!
beener_14-Renee: heehe  emm maybe emmm sunday i will try sunday 
beener_14-Renee: Hold on let me call mike emm  he got fired from his job yesterday and he was upset and he was suppose to go job hunting brb
beener_14-Renee: dont go anywhere
Stevemdfp4: ok
Stevemdfp4: I'm here for quite awhile.  Lots of research to do.
Stevemdfp4: You might be interested in this link about that church:  http://groups.yahoo.com/group/uucl-discussion/
beener_14-Renee: ok i am back 
Stevemdfp4: How's Mike?
beener_14-Renee:   he is ok still kinda of down but he is ok 
Stevemdfp4: Getting fired sucks.  One of the guys at the house relapsed over being fired.
Stevemdfp4: Only a brief relapse, fortunatelly.
beener_14-Renee: yea well he is getting threw it he had this job for 5 years and they didnt really fire him they are phasing her out
beener_14-Renee: Him out
Stevemdfp4: that still sucks
beener_14-Renee: Yea
beener_14-Renee: i told him aboutthe church he said great he thinks i should go he knows i have been looking forward to go to a different church that has the same beliefs
Stevemdfp4: Well, if it works for you, I'll be glad that I've been of help.
beener_14-Renee: Yes you have i have a questin why dont you go to church 
Stevemdfp4: Oh, well, my beliefs don't fit any label
Stevemdfp4: I was raised Catholic, but decided I couldn't believe in the doctrine when I was about 12 years old.
beener_14-Renee: and what if the religion you showed me?
Stevemdfp4: Philosophically, I may be closest to Buddhism.  Unitarianism is close.
Stevemdfp4: I just haven't been in the custom of being involved in a church community.
beener_14-Renee: hmm  yo should go with me to that new church one time
Stevemdfp4: But if I were, Unitarian-Universalist (UU) would probably be it.
Stevemdfp4: yes.  Or, I just found out there's a UU church here in Rockville.
beener_14-Renee: Awesome you should there sometime
Stevemdfp4: it's in pretty easy bicycling distance.
beener_14-Renee: I see you should check it out some time
Stevemdfp4: or an easy walk from the bus to Montgomery College
Stevemdfp4: http://www.uucr.org/
beener_14-Renee: well awesome we both found something good out of this
Stevemdfp4: Gosh, it turns out they help support Chase house, even
beener_14-Renee: hey sweety can you hold on  a couple mins my computer is being a pain i need to restart 
beener_14-Renee:   DONT GO ANYWHERE
Stevemdfp4: honey, it's fine
Stevemdfp4: I'll be online till around 9 pm.
beener_14-Renee: ok give me 2 mins
Stevemdfp4: you can eat, do laundry, fend off maternal criticism, and I'll be here still.
beener_14's status is now "Idle" (4/9/2005 12:29 AM)
beener_14-Renee: I am back my dear steve
Stevemdfp4: Yay!!!!!
beener_14-Renee: miss me?
Stevemdfp4: of course
Stevemdfp4: Pining away.
Stevemdfp4: About to turn into a pine cone, even
Stevemdfp4: Just call me a pine nut.   
beener_14-Renee: lol i was just putting my laundry away 
Stevemdfp4: you washed whites and colors separately, I'm sure.
beener_14-Renee: can you do me a favor and send me the link of the yahoo groupd again please
Stevemdfp4: http://groups.yahoo.com/group/uucl-discussion/
Stevemdfp4: you'll like them, I feel sure.  Very concerned with issues of peace, social justice, equality, tolerance, respect for others.
beener_14-Renee: th                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                p4: so she didn't give you a hard time about not going to the other church?
beener_14-Renee: no i told her i did slot around the house as a excuse 
Stevemdfp4: well, if it's not a lie, that's fine
Stevemdfp4: and if it is a lie, it's none of my business, anyway.
beener_14-Renee: well i did make dinner 
beener_14-Renee: and finish laundry 
beener_14-Renee: and talke the dog out
Stevemdfp4: sounds good to me.
beener_14-Renee: yea so i want really lieing
beener_14-Renee: but she said that she didnt really agree with the churchs beliefs which is probaly the lesbian and gay ok stuff soooo 
Stevemdfp4: so fine.
beener_14-Renee: Yea sooooo  now i just need to talk to more people and see more about the church 
beener_14-Renee: 
beener_14-Renee: Thanks alot steve
Stevemdfp4: you're quite welcome.
Stevemdfp4: are you liking what you're seeing?
beener_14-Renee: so far but still kinda confused i just hope its not like a colt my mom got me wondeirng if its like a colt
Stevemdfp4: cult?  hardly.
Stevemdfp4: cults emphasis a particular doctrine, are usually led by a crazy, charismatic leader, and teach their followers not to trust their own judgement.  With UU, nothing could be further from the truth.
Stevemdfp4: They embrace the whole range of spiritual traditions, cults reject all but their own.
beener_14-Renee: does it have anything to do with god?
beener_14-Renee: i mean do they belive in god?
beener_14-Renee: and worship like that
Stevemdfp4: Generally, yes.  But they're wide open to essentially any theological belief.
Stevemdfp4: If you told them that you believe God resides in a particular lima bean, they'd probably want you to talk about the wisdom you've learned from the lima bean.
beener_14-Renee: i see
beener_14-Renee: so they have to have back up correct
Stevemdfp4: back up?
beener_14-Renee: Nothers words if you have something to say there must be say that and why do you say that and so 
Stevemdfp4: oh, gosh, I dunno.  Probably they just want to be friendly, and do good things, and share in a community.
beener_14-Renee: i see
beener_14-Renee: well i will see on sunday and take the step to go alone : swalloes:
Stevemdfp4: Or come to Rockville....
Stevemdfp4: or take me there
beener_14-Renee: thats a while away 
Stevemdfp4: I know.  
Stevemdfp4: Just making sure you know you have options.
beener_14-Renee: i know i wish you were closer
beener_14-Renee: brb dinn dinn is done
Stevemdfp4: vegetarian lasagne, eh?  Are you vegetarian?
beener_14-Renee: ok back, not really i just dont eat                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                yea 
beener_14-Renee: i have always had trouble with it
beener_14-Renee: i hate it
Stevemdfp4: ever seen a GI specialist about it?
beener_14-Renee: Ohh yea tons of them i got it stretched and everything but still sometimes it acts up 
Stevemdfp4: gotcha
Stevemdfp4: surgery on the esophagus is hellish all around.  Dilation is probably the best that can be done.
beener_14-Renee:   Every winter i get olsers on my throat
Stevemdfp4: well, that sucks...
Stevemdfp4: Oh, I had another thought about your symptoms.....they also sound a bit like Mono
beener_14-Renee: yea living on  room tempter food pudding and mash for two weeks suck 
beener_14-Renee: Even the stomach pain
Stevemdfp4: yes, either liver or spleen enlargement will cause abdominal pain
Stevemdfp4: tends to be tenderness....pain on pressing on the area
beener_14-Renee: shmm havent thought about that one like i siad i am going to get the blood work soon for you i pormise
Stevemdfp4: well, I'm glad you're getting it.  But don't get the results for me, get them for you.
Stevemdfp4: 
beener_14-Renee: i know that
Stevemdfp4: hey, have you done your income taxes yet?
beener_14-Renee: yea
Stevemdfp4: good for you.
beener_14-Renee: i should be getting my money soon 
Stevemdfp4: oh, a refund.  Lucky you.
beener_14-Renee: yes 600 dollars
Stevemdfp4: I didn't have any reportable income.
beener_14-Renee: i am sorry to hear that
Stevemdfp4: oh, no, it's fine.  makes things easier
beener_14-Renee: We are running out of things to draw 
Stevemdfp4: How do you do with birds?
beener_14-Renee: birds hmmm 
beener_14-Renee: Ying and yong
Stevemdfp4: yang
beener_14-Renee:   The good and evil 
beener_14-Renee: Pysch theory 
Stevemdfp4: you can yin my yang, any time.  
beener_14-Renee: Lol 
Stevemdfp4: butterfly
Stevemdfp4: at first, I thought you were drawing a penis.
beener_14-Renee: LOL 
beener_14-Renee: i am a good girl 
Stevemdfp4: yes.  I'll have to see if I can corrupt you.
beener_14-Renee: Really now
Stevemdfp4: Only as long as you're a willing participant.  
beener_14-Renee: Well you know i am still a virgin 
beener_14-Renee: some what
Stevemdfp4: somewhat....that's rather funny.
Stevemdfp4: A year ago I was seeing a woman, about 25.  She was getting a divorce, had been married 3 years.
beener_14-Renee: well its hard to explain but just say someone forced them self on me, but not with there penis but other ways
beener_14-Renee: Ok 
Stevemdfp4: No need to explain, it's all ok.
Stevemdfp4: She was still a virgin when I met her.  Her husband had ... problems.
beener_14-Renee: yea  what do you think of my butterfly 
Stevemdfp4: very, very nice.
Stevemdfp4: she was ambivalent about being a virgin.  But she was a virgin in only the most technical sense.
beener_14-Renee: Ok would you like to see the naughty renee alittle bit
Stevemdfp4: yes
beener_14-Renee: LOL 
beener_14-Renee: what do you think of that
Stevemdfp4: very risquee
beener_14-Renee: Dont know what else to draw naughty 
beener_14-Renee: not really  up on the naughty thing
Stevemdfp4: Well, if I could draw worth a darn, I'd try.
Stevemdfp4: But the thing in the world I do best...is to take multiple-choice tests.
Stevemdfp4: mouth and tongue...ah!
beener_14-Renee: yes a tounge to likck you all up 
Stevemdfp4: MMMmmm.....we could start there.  
beener_14-Renee: i cant belive you   knew what that was
beener_14-Renee: you try now
Stevemdfp4: hmmmm.........
beener_14-Renee: please for me
Stevemdfp4: naughty?
beener_14-Renee: yes i know you could come with something
Stevemdfp4: OK, I'll try to cum up with something....
beener_14-Renee: cum hahah 
Stevemdfp4: first leg was better.....
Stevemdfp4: tongue coming up between the legs...
Stevemdfp4: wait
beener_14-Renee: would you like me to help  i do good with tongues
beener_14-Renee:  you made it disapera
Stevemdfp4: ok, I'll let you play with your tongue
beener_14-Renee: and it was good to 
beener_14-Renee: ok i am going to try somthing and you need to help with this because i dont know how it looks
beener_14-Renee: like 
Stevemdfp4: ok
beener_14-Renee: ok i am so lost but thats first
Stevemdfp4: penis and tongue?
beener_14-Renee: yea
Stevemdfp4: you got the outlines right
beener_14-Renee: I tried 
beener_14-Renee: Emm i makeing you horny baby
beener_14-Renee:   hehehe
Stevemdfp4: marking the line between shaft and glans
Stevemdfp4: Um, actually,,,,,yes
beener_14-Renee: well you know thats how i start is on top the most senstaive part
Stevemdfp4: glans, yes
beener_14-Renee: Ok your turn you draw something that you are good at
beener_14-Renee: lol 
Stevemdfp4: but sometimes starting farther away and working in to there can be .... enticing.
Stevemdfp4: well, I tried that...tongue between the legs
beener_14-Renee: you make the legs i will make the tongue
beener_14-Renee: lol 
Stevemdfp4: are you familiar with your own G-spot?
beener_14-Renee: emmm i think 
beener_14-Renee: the clitoruis
beener_14-Renee: right
Stevemdfp4: I've been told I do a good G-spot massage....oh, no
Stevemdfp4: clitoris and G-spot are very different
beener_14-Renee: hmm then i dont know my G-spot i guess i havent had any good guys yet
Stevemdfp4: clitoris lies just above the urethral opening....the G-spot is where your prostate gland would be, if you had one.
Stevemdfp4: inside the vagina a couple of inches, front wall,
Stevemdfp4: near the top edge of the pubic bone, feeling from the inside.
beener_14-Renee: mmm ok i am exstremey horny thats not good
beener_14-Renee: man ...GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR
Stevemdfp4: it's a gentle motion with a finger, a motion like "come here"
Stevemdfp4: stroking the area just below the bladder in side.
beener_14-Renee: Mmm ok stop stop
Stevemdfp4: It's an area that doesn't get stimulated very well with intercourse.
Stevemdfp4: OK
beener_14-Renee: I am really horny 
Stevemdfp4: well, I'd be honored to take care  of you.
beener_14-Renee: you are there and i am here 
beener_14-Renee: and you are in a public place so its not like you can help me on here
Stevemdfp4: It would take maybe an hour and a half for you to get from there to here.
beener_14-Renee: I cant remember i have a boyfriend but see useing my imagationoin is ok 
Stevemdfp4: OK.  I thought you had mixed feelings about him?
beener_14-Renee: I do but i am not going to cheat on him like that.. even if i do have mix feelings you know
Stevemdfp4: OK.....but it was another guy you were afraid you'd gotten pregnant with, wasn't it?
beener_14-Renee: yes but i wasnt with mike at that time 
Stevemdfp4: Oh.  OK.  I don't think I understood your situation.
Stevemdfp4: I shouldn't be seducing you, then.
beener_14-Renee:   No its ok.... its ok for me to talk to tother people and such i just em kinda weird aobut actually sexual things sence my first situation 
beener_14-Renee: Please PLEASE dont leave me OMG please
Stevemdfp4: OK
Stevemdfp4: don't worry.
beener_14-Renee: I really like talking to you 
Stevemdfp4: You're a special friend.
beener_14-Renee: NO no i like the way talk please dont stop 
beener_14-Renee: Please 
Stevemdfp4: you mean, you're feeling anxious about sex since that guy violated you?
Stevemdfp4: you mean, it's ok if I get you horny?
beener_14-Renee: yes i just kinda weirded about actually sexual things in person sence my scare, and also yes sence the guy sexuiltly violated me
Stevemdfp4: OK, I understand.
beener_14-Renee: please dont tell me i fucked thngs up with you 
beener_14-Renee: I am almost in tears
Stevemdfp4: Relax
Stevemdfp4: EVERYTHING IS OK!!!!
Stevemdfp4: Calm down.
Stevemdfp4: I'm a nice guy.  You're a sweet, kind, attractive girl.
Stevemdfp4: Nothing bad has happened.
Stevemdfp4: I care for you, and I respect you.  There is no problem here.
beener_14-Renee: i mean i love talking about sex, and some times rp but thats because i like fantesies 
Stevemdfp4: At some point, I think you'll need a guy who can be a very patient and gentle lover.
Stevemdfp4: That's all normal.
Stevemdfp4: But help me understand something.  I'd been describing how to massage a G-spot, and you were getting horny, and then told me to stop.  Should I stop or start again?
beener_14-Renee: its fine if you want to continue with that i said stop becasue i got Extrememly horny and felt like i wanted to do something to myself
Stevemdfp4: and that would be OK
Stevemdfp4: right?
beener_14-Renee: yea why  are you goign to try to get me that point again?
Stevemdfp4: if you'd like
beener_14-Renee: You like to get me at that point
beener_14-Renee: i am askingwhat you think of it
Stevemdfp4: I get turned on by turning my partner on.
Stevemdfp4: I enjoy arousing you, even if just by typing.
Stevemdfp4: And if you get aroused and want to relieve the tension, that's OK...
Stevemdfp4: I can stop in at the men's room, myself.
Stevemdfp4: But I don't want to do anything you're not comfortable with.  Ever.
beener_14-Renee: would you liek to know a dirty secret of mine
Stevemdfp4: I doubt it's dirty, but sure.
beener_14-Renee: trust me it is 
Stevemdfp4: You won't surprise me, I'm sure
beener_14-Renee: i got myself off before on a web cam
Stevemdfp4: LOL!!!  were people watching?
beener_14-Renee: yes
Stevemdfp4: you did this at home?
beener_14-Renee: yes
Stevemdfp4: damn, now I wanna see.
Stevemdfp4: how did you feel about it all?
beener_14-Renee: it was on my moms cam, and it was to two girls
beener_14-Renee: i didnt really trust it but i was int he mood and soemtimes i can do soe pretty wild things
Stevemdfp4: do you regret having doine it?
beener_14-Renee: honestly kinda  to one girl 
beener_14-Renee: becasue i did it and then she stoped talking to me
Stevemdfp4: Oh, that's sad.
beener_14-Renee: yes
Stevemdfp4: People need to try to be mature about their sexuality.
Stevemdfp4: We shouldn't do anything that's going to mess up how we relate to others.
beener_14-Renee: yea i know
beener_14-Renee: wana know the one thing about my bi sexuilty 
Stevemdfp4: yes
Stevemdfp4: I'm very interested
beener_14-Renee: is that with an girl you recieve oral ALOT and i love getting oral 
Stevemdfp4: You sure you wouldn't like to meet in person?  That's my specialty.
beener_14-Renee: not tonight
Stevemdfp4: no, I didn't mean tonight.
Stevemdfp4: I just meant "sometime."  But not if you'd feel guilty about things with your boyfriend.
beener_14-Renee: we will see ok we have to see but lets not talk about that ok 
Stevemdfp4: OK.
Stevemdfp4: call it roleplay....I thought I might describe what I might do for you
beener_14-Renee: So you are good at giving oral whats your teqniq may i ask 
beener_14-Renee: ohh yes please u can please
beener_14-Renee: tell me everything ever paction 
beener_14-Renee: eery little thing how you would please me
Stevemdfp4: well, I try to touch as would feel good to me, if I had that anatomy
Stevemdfp4: and really, embryologically, the clitoris is the same origin as the penis, the labia majora as the scrotum, 
Stevemdfp4: G-spot corresponds to the prostate.
beener_14-Renee: i see
Stevemdfp4: I don't think having my prostate touched does anything for me, but I've never had someone else try that.  Not really eager, since with a man's anatomy, you have to go through the rectum.
beener_14-Renee: hmm i see
Stevemdfp4: but for a woman, the same area, the G-spot you reach through the vagina
beener_14-Renee: mhm
Stevemdfp4: slow at first is usually best
beener_14-Renee: yes ok not to rush you but you got me really excited
Stevemdfp4: with an ordinary kiss
Stevemdfp4: we'll get there
Stevemdfp4: and I'd play with your tongue with mine
beener_14-Renee: ok never mind you are describing now 
Stevemdfp4: while stroking all over your body with my hands
Stevemdfp4: caressing your breasts, feeling your nipples get hard under my hands
Stevemdfp4: then lie you down on a bed....
Stevemdfp4: kissing lower down, down your neck
Stevemdfp4: feeling the rest of your body with my hands
Stevemdfp4: you can feel my hard cock against your thigh
Stevemdfp4: but I start kissing lower
Stevemdfp4: down to your breasts
Stevemdfp4: playing with one nipple with my fingers, the other with my mouth
Stevemdfp4: sucking, and stroking, and licking
beener_14-Renee: i have bueterflys throw my body imagioning this
Stevemdfp4: going lower
Stevemdfp4: kissing your stomach...
Stevemdfp4: then, before going on, switch to your inne thighs
beener_14-Renee: ohh i would be brathing so heavily 
Stevemdfp4: starting down near your knees
Stevemdfp4: kissing left, right, left,
Stevemdfp4: moving up
beener_14-Renee: ohh god you got me hot baby 
Stevemdfp4: settling in, high between your legs
Stevemdfp4: I start licking your labia
Stevemdfp4: then gently separating them with two fingers
Stevemdfp4: kissing and licking deeper in
Stevemdfp4: you're wet
Stevemdfp4: and my spit mixes with your juices
Stevemdfp4: I get excited by your moans
Stevemdfp4: slowly and gently, I work in two fingers, palm side up
Stevemdfp4: while I keep licking on and around your clit
Stevemdfp4: you're breathing heavy, moaning softly
Stevemdfp4: I reach in with my fingers and press gently on your g-spot inside
beener_14-Renee: Ohhh god you have no idea what this is doig to me
Stevemdfp4: then rubbing up and down on it
Stevemdfp4: stroking and massaging
Stevemdfp4: I push my two fingers in up to the knuckle, and you feel your insides filled
Stevemdfp4: I keep playing with your clit
Stevemdfp4: cover it with my mouth and gently suck on it
beener_14-Renee: Ohh god i am bout to cumm baby 
Stevemdfp4: while my tongue plays all over it
Stevemdfp4: my fingers stroking inside of you
Stevemdfp4: driving you wild
Stevemdfp4: and driving you wild is driving me wild
Stevemdfp4: cum for me
beener_14-Renee: i am about to 
Stevemdfp4: cum for me
Stevemdfp4: as I stroke, and lick, and suck all over your body
beener_14-Renee: cuming
Stevemdfp4: I want you
Stevemdfp4: Renee, I want you
Stevemdfp4: I want to feel your body as you climax
Stevemdfp4: hear your moans
Stevemdfp4: and feel your vagina grip my fingers as you cum
Stevemdfp4: and when you've climaxed, keep on licking as you recover
beener_14-Renee: ohh wow 
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Stevemdfp4: hadn't thought of that
beener_14-Renee: you are good  at describing things
beener_14-Renee: wwere  you having troulbe keeping your breaths down 
Stevemdfp4: should be, since I'm trying to make my next living as a writer.
Stevemdfp4: no, but I'm feeling a need to go ....relieve myself.  For a bit
beener_14-Renee:  ok as long as you hurry back because you only have like an hour left
beener_14-Renee: not even that
Stevemdfp4: It won't be long