| We pulled apart and sat down on the couch again and started talking again. �I�m sorry for the way I acted earlier.� �There�s nothing to be sorry for. Do you feel better now that you talked about it?� �Yeah.. I do, with all this stuff that has happened tonight, I just bottled it up and tried to hide my feelings and I know that I can�t do this alone, I just couldn�t admit it. I�m sorry that I shut you out. I just couldn�t face you right then. I needed time to think and find I a way to tell you. You just don't not know just how hard this is for me� �I know it is going to be hard for you�you are going to have some ups and downs but baby you gotta understand that I am by your side always.� �I know, I am glad that you are cuz, I don�t think that I could make it without you..� � I would never let you go through this alone, it�s too much for one person to take.� He wrapped his arms around me and he gave me kiss on the check and noted that we should probably go. He held my hand all the way to his house. We quietly went the stairs to his room. I asked him if I could take a shower to wash away this ickyness that covered my body. He gave me some of his clothes and I went into the shower while he got dressed and made up the bed. The water was hot but it felt a bit cold to the touch. I scrubbed and scrubbed til my skin was almost raw.. to get rid of the unseen residue that covered me. I couldn�t take it anymore�I just sank down and cried. Nick couldn�t hear me through the sound of the water from the shower. Finally I stepped out and dried off. I still felt icky but I knew that it would go away in time. I wrapped my hair in a towel and started to get dressed. I went over to the hook where I had hung up his clothes. I picked them up and inhaled the scent that only belonged to Nick. I loved the way he smelled, his cologne was just intoxicating. I smiled and now fully realized how much Nick loved me and that nothing would tear us apart and that I had the greatest man in the world. And with him by my side, I would be safe and secure and have no worries. |